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03/09/04 09:53 - ID#22379

fought vs. fucked

Now i would like to consider myself a pretty peaceful, loving person. But it occured to me today that I have fought just as many people I have fucked. Now you might think thats kind of ironic. why yes it is and it's true. Now I don't mean fight like bickering and exchanging harsh words, no I mean actual physical contact of fist, feet, and teeth (in some cases, hey you gotta do what cha gotta do). And I don't mean Fucked like in a little licky licky and a slight touching pee pee; no I mean actual penetration. So i will list the names right here online for EVERYONE to see how much of a slut and a fighter I could be.

FOUGHT: Henry, Ruben, Maria (yes a girl i admit), jacob, shay, shalia (two more girls), rob, cynthia (3), raymond (might as well been a girl), ladonna, (4 1/2), soloman, john r., julian (5).

FUCKED: Henry, Ruben, Maria, Rob S. (butchy), Joe, Josh, Matthew J., Romena, Gary (we all remeber king kong pecker don't we), Steve, Derik, Duane (D), Elton.

Got all that? Now you see that is thirteen in each category. And another observation you might catch on too is the matching of some names. Yes they are the same people, which are: Henry (my first boyfriend), Maria (my girlfriend/girl virginty taker), and Ruben. Some people are soooo difficult. Now that you know a little more about my personal information and you might have a tainted vision of me from now on, but i tell you this I do not like to fight nor am I a Harlot. But you better be damned sure that I am good at both!
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BOO YEAH!


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03/05/04 06:25 - ID#22378

friends, lovers and kingdom

They say some boundries shouldn't be crossed. That you should know where you stand aolways. But do we? Do we know how to satisfy our lovers and keep we and our friends happy? you fall for someone and for some reason, mothing else really matters. Love is all you need. But thats not it. To get you'r lover to love you, you must sacrafice. Oyu must let down all you'r guards to let someone you feel is worthy into your kingdom. I've let them in, and my palace suffered as a result. you see, you don't really know someone untill it's too late. By the time you realize, hey this may not be who I want to share my sacrade fruit with. They've already gotten too far in to push them back out. you try to do other things to take your mind off this monster who is continously damaging your kingdom.
Your friends are hurt also. They see you, this beautiful king, and they see his kingdom. They do their best to rebuild what has been torn down, But can only do so much when it's being ripped back apart. For this king is weak. He is weakend by every brick being torn out of the walls. He can't fight this alone. Every other monster who has come in has been defeated. Now the king grows weary. This time he has bitten off a little more than he can chew, and his stomachis not big enouch to take it all in. But with the aid of his friends (troops). This monster may have finally bowed out. And now the kingdome can be restored and be so better than ever.
What will happen next for our king? Well only time can tell that. But for now we can leave knowing that this king is wiser now. And for ever lover he lets in and a monster is unleashed, comes a new fight. The king maybe be ready for it or it will come when he least expects it. But he knows that his kingsom will not be broken down for ever.
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03/05/04 06:10 - ID#22377

yellow fingernails

i walk into a smoked filled bar. I hear your playing tonight. I take my seat in the back, light one up and await oyur sight. You come up and I take a deep breath and release the toxic in the air. You speak, I chill, you sing, i dream. The one thig is, oyu don't know I'm there. I light another as your next slection plays on. YOu serenace the crowd, as they sway. I wish it was me oyu were strumming on. I loose my balance as I try to walk closer, I drop my cigarette, take my new seat and light another. I wonderif it could be more than this, but you don't even know i exsist. You look my way, i freeze, you look away and I'm back at ease. Whats wrong with me, are you even worhty for my tall tales; as i sit here sedated with my yellow fingernails. Oyur strong arem clinches the guitar, and I can't read whats on your shirt because I am too far. My next move is a closer one, and I'm out of smokes. But now I'm close enough to read your foot notes. The man next to me hands me one and a light, as you announce that this will be your last song of the night. You look at me again; maybe it's a test, because your last song is the best. You exit the stage and i take my last drag. I sit still and dream of what could be or could have. I can't approach you, for i will surely fail. But i will be back, me and my yellow fingernails.
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02/29/04 02:10 - ID#22376

it's been along time

They say you should be yourself. They say it like it's soooo easy. But sometimes when you go around being yourself, you realize that people will still have a problem with you. My luck on, riches, beauty, ad love has seem to finally run out. Maybe i took advantage of what i had and now it's gone. Or maybe fate just has it's way of bringing a man down. There is only so much one person can take and still keep on worry free. But when everything you ever had hope in crashes down around you , when you think you are at your prime. It makes you do something we are all guilty of, we question ourselves. At first i (we) question what are we doing wrong to cause such trama around us. But my answer to this after ALL that I have been through, is NOTHING. I've done things i am not proud of but I feel that I (we) are still great. AND for all of you out there who depise us i say this to you. FUCK YOU! You are the reason good people don't get ahead. You slander us with you'r jelousy and hate, and us who are weak in confidence back down. But tonight I make a stand for us. You who hate, envy, loathe, contradict, turn ugly, will get whats coming. We are going to be around til the end of time, we will not stop being us just because you wish us not to. Get a life, go choke on sushi for all I care, Because I (now I mean "I") am not going anywhere! Now that I've said that I will stand by it. I will see you in the next life. Hope you find peace and love.



tk
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01/26/04 04:23 - ID#22375

mondays?

case of the mondays? i don't think so. I had a case of the sudays for some reason. My weekend was not completly dissapointing, I had a Great friday night thanks to the kick ass party at matthew, pauls and terrys house. Alot of people digged my yellow pants. Alot more than i thought anyway. But saturday was a differnt story. Once again I was surrounded by jealousy, this time by a new person. I hate that shit; people really need to get lives, and stop bothering something they can't control. It really ruined my sunday because i did not do what i normally do then. But that part of my life I fear will no longer happen. Which may not be all that bad after all. thank all of you who, made my weekend as much as enjoyable as possible. Tina I love you baby thank you for all the support! But today my day has been going by just lovely. I got up early and took care of some stuff now I am relaxing. I love today! and I love you all! THANK YOU!


tk
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01/19/04 12:44 - ID#22374

the good ol strip

The elmwood strip is definetly something to remember. Where I walk down elmwood at 7 pm and someone beeps at me. So I wave back. I don't know who was in the car but I figured it was a friendly thing to do (bad idea, bad idea tk). The van pops a Uee and drives up next to me and the guy in the van asks me, If i wanted a blow job. I say naturally, "no, no I don't". He pulls over anyway. So i dart down the close by one way off of the strip. Later When i go to a bar off of the strip, I felt up my first fake boobies. This girl at a bar thought that i was soooo cute and beautiful and I quote "I would sooo fuck you if you were stright". Yeah I know you would because you are a girl, and I attract the puss. And this one had nice 45 hundred dollar boobies. This girl turned out to be a really cool person and she and I made a date to meet up at the same bar the night she bartends. If ANY of you would like to join me, give me a holla. I would rather not go alone to a bar, but I would if I have to because I pinky promised her I would. After that when I was walking down the strip I made up a really cool song to sing that I enjoyed and will have to write down tonight. These things only happen to you if you hang around elmwood strip, so why hang out any where else?
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01/16/04 08:29 - ID#22373

The Profiler

I would like to encourage everyone to try out the elmwood profiler. Give a shout out to your favorite user on the site or whoever else the fuck you would like to shout out to. It is on pauls and the elmwood journal. peace and love. stay clean!
p.s. if anyone would like to shout out at me i think it would be dope, it will be something to get me off for the next few nights when i am alone. Just say things like "oh Flacidness i think youz so fiiiine" or "flacid boy I want you in my bed so bad" thank you for help out a lonely man.
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01/13/04 02:28 - ID#22372

my song of the week

my song, although it has nothing to do with my last entry, besides the fact that is makes me feel better is

"listen to the music" by The Doobie Brothers

click my user image for a small clip.
thank you

tk
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01/13/04 02:24 - ID#22371

smell of the past

Last week as i was sitting in my livingroom, I noticed a certain smell. The smell came sharp and it gave me a headache. Then after my mind was sent back to a memory that i have forgotten about and for good reason. That smell would fill every room in our big house. I knew waht was gong on then but i tried to ignore it; but you can't becuase when after the smell horrible things would happen to the one i loved the most. Years went by and the smell would come back and linger. The only thing i could do was run, so i ran. Can't really say if where i ran was better off, but atleast i got away from the hurt that my siblings fought. I probably should have been there for them, I mean what kind of big brother are you when you don't even prtect your own family. But it was too much to ask off someone of such a young age. Eventually we parted, and the smell and I would never meet again untill now. What am I going to do now? Well....run, I would stand and fight but you can't fight what you can't see. I run from the smell of hell.
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01/07/04 08:06 - ID#22370

last free day

Today maybe my last free day for a little while. Seeing that i have and interview for a job tommorow. I am pretty confident that i will get the job. I am gong to the market arcade tommorow at 5:00 pm. So If i start working there i wll be able to see free movies! I don't know how much i will use that unless someone would come with me (hint hint) Ii will be able to bring to people along with me also. It will be good to get back into the work force even if it's part time. Being strapt for cash is not really something i am a big fan of. And i also noticed that not many people has typed aything today. Whats up wit dat yo?
So on my last free day i would like to hang out ALOT. Because once i start working and I start gong back to school this semester. I wont be seen much. Which could make some people happy, but whatever, you can't please them all right? Anywho for those of you who will read this, wish me luck and you guys enjoy your free days; for they maybe few and far between.
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