what's it like in New York City?" Although this crazy city is packed with 8 million people, not including house guest and tourist (damn tourist). This place can get awful lonely. The people here are sooo selfish, and back stabbing,and whores. Even people who you think are your friends turn their backs on you in a split second. It's not all bad, I mean I still have my few friends here who seem to be genuine. It's a lot different. i need a vacation can't wait to be away. People here also have no shame in saying things to you while you're walking down the street.Last night for example I was stopped by two guys trying to 'holla" and get me to talk to them uh no thank you. a few days ago while I was walking in the park there was a girl who did the whole 'psst' thing to me. I didn't know that was still in style. Girls have been more forward to me actually saying things like "yeah bitch get it, get it", "hey baby come over here....where you goin?". No exaggeration. It still has it's ups and downs, and I'm just trying to stay afloat. Wish me luck, and I'll see you all soon. Love-TK

Never, ever, ever have i had my nationality questioned more than when i moved to NY. Atleast once a week someone would ask if Im Indian, and not native american indian, which i am partially. Bodega store clerks, the police, my co-workers and people who i thought were my friends tend to think I am from the middle east and there is no convincing them otherwise. I guess it's not that bad but I just thought I looked black and black. I walked off Dave and Busters and will no longer work there. Fuck that juob!!! I am starting at a three story bowling alley/club in union square soon so thats coo. And thats all thats new...i think. "baby all i want is to let it go, aint no worry, no we can dance all night. get me bodied!! that means come closer to me, while we grind to the beat and yo bodaaee!"

i guess you can say you've done it all in New York if you've been to NYC jail. And I have. i was 'locked up" for about 14 hours!!!!For what you might ask: for mutha fuck WEED!!!! and not a lot of it just a joint. Its such a long long story, i was with Mike Weed, he got to go home 9 hours before i was able to. I got my arresting officer in serious trouble, because lucky for me i know my rights, and should have only been detained for maximum 4 hours with that half a joint. Anywho after all the cell lock down and my cell door being stuck closed for ten minuets, the judge threw out my case and i have to attend 1 "canibus abuse" class which is only an hour, and thats it!!!! No record, no probation, and no fine!!!! I LOVE WEED!!! I hope my friends are watching so you think you can dance!!! its really good this year

now that i live on this tiny tinty island manhattan things have been a lot more easier now. zipping cab rides home, central park litteraly one block away from my front door, and ofcourse the ladies like it!!! hee hee. my ONLY day off has been today since i moved three weeks ago i am hoping i can squeeze in 6 hours of sleep tonight. That would be killer! I have already hooked up with my "striaght" roomate two days ago (this shit will never end!!!!!! i am missing my friends back home dearly!!! The homos here are sooooo strange that is why i still haven't landed me a bf yet and its been over a year since i lived here. I still have my MIKE WEED but does that really count he's not my boyfriend and frankly not living up to the homo friend status either. Maybe im just asking for too much. Any who i have a house phone now so my friends at home should be expecting a TELE-phone call from me soon. i need to get back to drinking now my beer is getting warm. I love you all and miss you dearly!!!

sooooo i am moving on the the tiny island of Manhattan now yaaaaay! I am gonna wake up every morning to the fresh smell of car exhaust, and subtle horse shit. There are some advantages to living on this over crowed strip o land is how fast i will get home now. What once took me 35 mins express to get to work will now take me 15 20 or so. and believe me that matters. $10 cab ride home dosent hurteither. I am moving in with a bartender I work with and a cocktail waiter. I also got a new phone again (surprise!). This time its one o those expensive ones called a blackberry through sprint. Im getting it turned on within the next days or so. Hopefully i will hold on to it, it did come with one of those belt clips but i don't know about that i should attatch it to my balls or something. Gay boy blues o course i have no luck with them still, I still have my good riend mr. weed (micheal) whose more than enough of a handful right now, if this is what haveing a "boyfriend" i clock out dude. I mean he is not even my man but damn betweens the constant phone calls, all the "i love yous", and baby talk, ick. But i love it ofcourse. HAPPY BIRFDAY MATT!!!!! i know yo party gone kick ass and stay thin baby keep repin 4 the skinny boys! Oh I met P Diddy and seerna williams a couple weeks ago. P Diddy held a little party for his son at my job and right when i was goning to get off work my manager asked me to stay and work a party and it was rumored it was Diddy. Now I am not a big fan of him at all but you know why not. Turns out he's laid back, undemanding, and his kids were well behaved (THANK GOD!!!) Anyway I didn't really serve him food they ate off the buffet i just chilled. He handed me me a $100 when he left for three hours of work...not bad. I went to the closing night of one of NYC's biggest gay clubs last week, I left that bitch at 7 a.m. with micheal of course. and the club was still packed wall to wall with homos. had to been at least 4000 sissys in there, and a few girls. Never doin that shit again! Anywho gotta watch some more T.V. before you know get some down time in before i have to dive in to the pit tonight. bye bye loves I miss you all! -TK p.s. did i mention i hoooked up with another fuckin straight guy two nights ago? (old shit)

random. seriously i mean from having oscar awards predictions, to hanging out with marilyn monroe and JFK at house parties, being at anna nicole sniths funeral just weird don't youthink????

your just, made for love! ok so i hate a lot more things now just to start: wind, NYPD (again)these bastards wont leave me alone. kids. tourists, another homosexual boy, subway system late nights. and the crying white boys on the radio who call it singing. New York will turn has turned my small brittle heart even colder the past fewmonths. but i still dig it HHHEEEEEYYY!!! So since i own a laptop top computer i guess i should put it to use. its been dusty the last few months. It still can't use these things for some reason. big ups to Queefa and all the homies in the B-LO love yall bug time! p.s. so i heard that Hillary Clinton just blew it big time!!!!

mixed messages from Mr.weed but who knows.......why are gay guys soooo complicated, and needy. you know although my dear friend (e:terry) loathe the police, i never shared feeling with him. That was until i was stopped by not one, not two, not three, not even fuckin four but SIX mutha fuckin cops stopped my skinny but nice ass in the middle of the street in Brooklyn at 9:30 a.m. I mean a bitch is just on his way to work sunday morning off of three hours of drunken sleep and i get six cops up my ass. not literally, but they did go through my pockets and my back pack, ran my I.D. (which i just got back yaaaaay!). They made me later to work and didn't like the fact that i wwas mouthing off at them, cause i know my rights. They did take my bat (smokin weed device in the shape of a bat). which i didn't care really there a dime a dozen. they said they did it because they heard of suspicous activity in the fuckin neighborhood. whatever i don't what about my sexy slim exterior, or my natural sway of hips when i walk, that says threghtning blackman. maybe thats just me. so i say with all my heart FUCK THE POLICE!!!!! (eat snacky smores)

Yes so its been a while, a good while. Time really F-ing flies. New York has still never seems to get dull, either you really love it some days or some days you are about to break out in tears because the day is going by soooo bad. I was having the worst day on the subway and it was pouring, and hot the train got stuck and the pimple on my forehead burst on its own i swear it did. I have shut my self in my apt and turned off my phone, that's how i manage not to go out and get into any trouble. i just started going to gay clubs in the beginning of November...... it was o.k. I did start talking to some guy there who was dancing AT me but not with me, but of course he had a heavy accent and it was hard to understand over the house music. Oh and the club was going to close in about five minutes. WAY TO GO PIMP!!! I got his numba we hung out i don't know where its going, you know what I can't even get into all this crazy homo boy straight buy shit I get myself into here i will be typing all day. I met a boy whose last name is weed, now he's a major homo in my life, jealous homos threatening to attack me. Straight boys trying to get threesomes with me and some chick. You know things really don't change much. There are a lot more more roaches her though you do have to watch out for those in the street. I saw cyndi lauper sitting down eating while i was working one day. And rosanne barr who winked at me (yay). MYA was there at the bar, so was M.C. Hammer. I lost my wallet thanksgiving night (yeah thanks a lot). I had that I.D. for three weeks aint that a bitch. I wanna give a shout out to my peeps at home (e:lilho) i'll call you baby, (e:Paul) , (e:terry) , (e:matthew), I will see you soon. (e:hodown) hit me up on the celly luva it's been too long (yo all that was mad gansta, i should be a rapper) peace love-TK

.... From all of us to you, we wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY may all your dreams come true!!!! Happy birthday Terry, Im glad to see it was a good one!!! Yo Bitch- TK (eat snacky smores)