"yellow fingernails" written by Flacidness on estrip.org

03/05/04 06:10 - ID#22377

yellow fingernails

i walk into a smoked filled bar. I hear your playing tonight. I take my seat in the back, light one up and await oyur sight. You come up and I take a deep breath and release the toxic in the air. You speak, I chill, you sing, i dream. The one thig is, oyu don't know I'm there. I light another as your next slection plays on. YOu serenace the crowd, as they sway. I wish it was me oyu were strumming on. I loose my balance as I try to walk closer, I drop my cigarette, take my new seat and light another. I wonderif it could be more than this, but you don't even know i exsist. You look my way, i freeze, you look away and I'm back at ease. Whats wrong with me, are you even worhty for my tall tales; as i sit here sedated with my yellow fingernails. Oyur strong arem clinches the guitar, and I can't read whats on your shirt because I am too far. My next move is a closer one, and I'm out of smokes. But now I'm close enough to read your foot notes. The man next to me hands me one and a light, as you announce that this will be your last song of the night. You look at me again; maybe it's a test, because your last song is the best. You exit the stage and i take my last drag. I sit still and dream of what could be or could have. I can't approach you, for i will surely fail. But i will be back, me and my yellow fingernails.

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Words: 277
Location: Buffalo, NY

02/29/04 02:10 - ID#22376

it's been along time

They say you should be yourself. They say it like it's soooo easy. But sometimes when you go around being yourself, you realize that people will still have a problem with you. My luck on, riches, beauty, ad love has seem to finally run out. Maybe i took advantage of what i had and now it's gone. Or maybe fate just has it's way of bringing a man down. There is only so much one person can take and still keep on worry free. But when everything you ever had hope in crashes down around you , when you think you are at your prime. It makes you do something we are all guilty of, we question ourselves. At first i (we) question what are we doing wrong to cause such trama around us. But my answer to this after ALL that I have been through, is NOTHING. I've done things i am not proud of but I feel that I (we) are still great. AND for all of you out there who depise us i say this to you. FUCK YOU! You are the reason good people don't get ahead. You slander us with you'r jelousy and hate, and us who are weak in confidence back down. But tonight I make a stand for us. You who hate, envy, loathe, contradict, turn ugly, will get whats coming. We are going to be around til the end of time, we will not stop being us just because you wish us not to. Get a life, go choke on sushi for all I care, Because I (now I mean "I") am not going anywhere! Now that I've said that I will stand by it. I will see you in the next life. Hope you find peace and love.

tk

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Words: 297
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/26/04 04:23 - ID#22375

mondays?

case of the mondays? i don't think so. I had a case of the sudays for some reason. My weekend was not completly dissapointing, I had a Great friday night thanks to the kick ass party at matthew, pauls and terrys house. Alot of people digged my yellow pants. Alot more than i thought anyway. But saturday was a differnt story. Once again I was surrounded by jealousy, this time by a new person. I hate that shit; people really need to get lives, and stop bothering something they can't control. It really ruined my sunday because i did not do what i normally do then. But that part of my life I fear will no longer happen. Which may not be all that bad after all. thank all of you who, made my weekend as much as enjoyable as possible. Tina I love you baby thank you for all the support! But today my day has been going by just lovely. I got up early and took care of some stuff now I am relaxing. I love today! and I love you all! THANK YOU!

tk

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Words: 187
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/19/04 12:44 - ID#22374

the good ol strip

The elmwood strip is definetly something to remember. Where I walk down elmwood at 7 pm and someone beeps at me. So I wave back. I don't know who was in the car but I figured it was a friendly thing to do (bad idea, bad idea tk). The van pops a Uee and drives up next to me and the guy in the van asks me, If i wanted a blow job. I say naturally, "no, no I don't". He pulls over anyway. So i dart down the close by one way off of the strip. Later When i go to a bar off of the strip, I felt up my first fake boobies. This girl at a bar thought that i was soooo cute and beautiful and I quote "I would sooo fuck you if you were stright". Yeah I know you would because you are a girl, and I attract the puss. And this one had nice 45 hundred dollar boobies. This girl turned out to be a really cool person and she and I made a date to meet up at the same bar the night she bartends. If ANY of you would like to join me, give me a holla. I would rather not go alone to a bar, but I would if I have to because I pinky promised her I would. After that when I was walking down the strip I made up a really cool song to sing that I enjoyed and will have to write down tonight. These things only happen to you if you hang around elmwood strip, so why hang out any where else?

Permalink: the_good_ol_strip.html
Words: 273
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/16/04 08:29 - ID#22373

The Profiler

I would like to encourage everyone to try out the elmwood profiler. Give a shout out to your favorite user on the site or whoever else the fuck you would like to shout out to. It is on pauls and the elmwood journal. peace and love. stay clean!
p.s. if anyone would like to shout out at me i think it would be dope, it will be something to get me off for the next few nights when i am alone. Just say things like "oh Flacidness i think youz so fiiiine" or "flacid boy I want you in my bed so bad" thank you for help out a lonely man.

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Words: 112
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/13/04 02:28 - ID#22372

my song of the week

my song, although it has nothing to do with my last entry, besides the fact that is makes me feel better is

"listen to the music" by The Doobie Brothers

click my user image for a small clip.
thank you

tk

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Words: 41
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/13/04 02:24 - ID#22371

smell of the past

Last week as i was sitting in my livingroom, I noticed a certain smell. The smell came sharp and it gave me a headache. Then after my mind was sent back to a memory that i have forgotten about and for good reason. That smell would fill every room in our big house. I knew waht was gong on then but i tried to ignore it; but you can't becuase when after the smell horrible things would happen to the one i loved the most. Years went by and the smell would come back and linger. The only thing i could do was run, so i ran. Can't really say if where i ran was better off, but atleast i got away from the hurt that my siblings fought. I probably should have been there for them, I mean what kind of big brother are you when you don't even prtect your own family. But it was too much to ask off someone of such a young age. Eventually we parted, and the smell and I would never meet again untill now. What am I going to do now? Well....run, I would stand and fight but you can't fight what you can't see. I run from the smell of hell.

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Words: 211
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/07/04 08:06 - ID#22370

last free day

Today maybe my last free day for a little while. Seeing that i have and interview for a job tommorow. I am pretty confident that i will get the job. I am gong to the market arcade tommorow at 5:00 pm. So If i start working there i wll be able to see free movies! I don't know how much i will use that unless someone would come with me (hint hint) Ii will be able to bring to people along with me also. It will be good to get back into the work force even if it's part time. Being strapt for cash is not really something i am a big fan of. And i also noticed that not many people has typed aything today. Whats up wit dat yo?
So on my last free day i would like to hang out ALOT. Because once i start working and I start gong back to school this semester. I wont be seen much. Which could make some people happy, but whatever, you can't please them all right? Anywho for those of you who will read this, wish me luck and you guys enjoy your free days; for they maybe few and far between.

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Words: 202
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/06/04 02:55 - ID#22369

stank ass

Crayola - Girl i'm at the club last night and I'm doin it, I mean I was shakin it so fast that I caught a cramp. Then I saw this dude, he was white but whatever. He came up to me and gave me a cigarette and-
Laquindella - bitch when did you start smokin?
- when i thought i was preganant, but thats not important right now. We drinkin some Alize and Henny. Then we go back to his place and we go at it. I stop to feel his shit, cause you remember that whole thing wit mr. big dick and I wasn't down wit gettin my cookie broken up again. I felt it, it was normal size, so i let him take off his pants. Then all of a sudden i started to smell something. It sorta smelled like shit. SO i started to smell my own shit, I mean i know i haven't douched in about 2 months but damn this shit reeked.
- Did something crawl up your poonanie?
- wait bitch, I have never had a complaint with the poonanie odor department.
- me niether
- oooh HI five for the clean poonanie. Anyway this shit i was smellin, was shit, his shit! This bitch didn't wash his ass! He waved that ass by my face I damn near dehydrated.
- Ill girl what did you do?
- Got up put on my clothes and left, shit. He was hard and everything girl. He betta jerk that little pink dick. I told him he didn't want to mess wit a sista no way. You know what they say "once you go black..."
- ......
- "you might get stabbed"

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Words: 283
Location: Buffalo, NY

01/02/04 11:48 - ID#22368

my song of the week

Inlight of that last entire (ramble) i just posted,
my song of the week is "open your heart to me" by madonna

Permalink: my_song_of_the_week.html
Words: 22
Location: Buffalo, NY