"a lesson from Luna Lovegood" written by Ladycroft on estrip.org

07/13/07 05:36 - 72ºF - ID#40098

a lesson from Luna Lovegood

I'm moving half way around the world. I have to fit my life into 2 duffel bags and a backpack. There are people I really want to say good-bye to. However I have to acknowledge the fact they obviously don't care to say good-bye to me as they have ignored me for the last 6 weeks. That makes me sad.

I'm only half way through my authentication process on both my diploma and fingerprint report. I'm not supposed to be able to get my visa without the finished document with the stamps from Qatar. Yet, the woman from HR sent me an e-mail today with an attachment titled 'permanent visa'. The note read: "Your department has made living and travel arrangements on your behalf. I trust you have your itinerary."

I feel nauseous. I hope they don't expect me to fly out on Monday! I'm not ready. I thought I'd been rescheduled because of my delay in paperwork. How do I pack my life away in 2 days. Say good-bye? I just don't care anymore. There are few people that even seem interested in the fact I'm leaving and cared to spend any time with me before I go. (thanks for the kind letter (e:metalpeter)).

I've had more friendships break up. I'm beyond caring about it. I'm weird, I'm quirky, I'm sensitive, I'm goofy, I'm clever, I'm blunt, I'm giving and just sometimes I talk bad about people that piss me off. Like it or don't. I don't need to try to convince anyone that I'm worth spending time with. Life moves at a fast pace and if the current takes you away from each other that's just the way shit's creek works ain't it?

You don't have to tell me things will be good when I get where I'm going. I know they will. It doesn't make it hurt any less to know people you cared about can walk away from you without so much as a 'bye' uttered from their lips. Again, just the way shit's creek flows and I just lost my oar. Gotta go with the current or you'll drown flighting it.

museumchick writes at 06:55:43 07/14/07 - Comment #20783: I'm really sorry that you've experienced those kinds of things with the former friends. It's very hard to experience that at any time, especially when you are leaving half across the world.

I hope you'll have a wonderful time in Qatar!

deeglam writes at 10:15:45 07/13/07 - Comment #20776: well said....and I can't say it enough: Good luck!

metalpeter writes at 07:42:40 07/13/07 - Comment #20771: Ok I'm not sure exactly what to say but I feel I need to say something, so If I say something dumb I'm sorry.

You are welcome in terms of the letter, I know it isn't as good as in person but I thought I had to say goodbye to ya. There is saying I wish I could remember about it isn't a goodbye because I'll see you again, I hope that is true. I didn't know exactly when you where leaving and when you where at home so I figured writing was the best way. I also didn't want to do the come over unanounced thing. (not sure if I'm saying this right) Sometimes I don't say things the right in social situtations or I'm not sure if what I say is clear or the words in my mind come out differently. That was another reason I thought i should write in stead of droping by.

I can't speak for anyone else and what they do. Often for what ever reason people move apart or don't stay in contact with each other. I can say myself and 3 good friends of mine that has happened to. I will also admit it is both sides fault cause neither of us calls the other. In our cases it doesn't mean we don't care it just means we are bad or shity friends. I can't imagine having a friendship break though. I have ben mad or felt ackward but I can't imagine something so bad to break up a frienship, it must really hurt. I can't imagine being friends with someone and then when I'm leaving the split happens, I really can't.

Not that you need my aprovel at all. But I like that you know things will be good when you get to where you are going. I also like that you don't need other peoples approvel and that you know you are a great person.

Sorry you are having the problems you are. But maybe the bad times make the good times feel better. Of course it would be better if there waren't the troubles. But in life that isn't realistic. If I made this comment at all about me instead of you again I'm sorry. I will finish off with I wish you a safe travels and I hope to see you again, but for now bye.

fellyconnelly writes at 07:32:37 07/13/07 - Comment #20770: sorry your 'friends' suck... and also sorry that i won't ever meet you.. but i'll say 'bye' none the less. good luck to you!

mrmike writes at 06:28:51 07/13/07 - Comment #20767: I'll miss ya. Hope the transition is reasonably hasslefree.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

Category: potpourri

07/05/07 03:55 - 78ºF - ID#39927

back from houston

Just drove in this afternoon. I can't take anymore screaming babies for a few days. Gonna head back to my pad in b-lo, crawl into my bed and either pass out or play video games. I need my alone time. I can't wait to sleep in MY bed, alone. Lots to do tomorrow. I'll talk about my travels soon. Ciao.

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06/30/07 02:13 - 72ºF - ID#39865

golf

I admit it. I was bested in Wii Golf last night by (e:joshua).

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

Category: potpourri

06/29/07 02:23 - 71ºF - ID#39846

oy, this visa

Yesterday I had my appointment to take care of all my medical testing. Bill: $279. I got my physical, vision tests, chest x-ray, urinalysis, shots and blood work done. Pisser of it was I had to fast for one of the blood tests. By the time they got around to sucking out 5 vials of blood I hadn't eaten in 16 hours.

I didn't just have a little 'faint'. I checked out of that hotel for a good 2 minutes! The last thing I remember is telling the nurse, "I'm starting to feel dizzy", then I slumped over in the chair. When I came to she was holding me upright by my forehead with an icepack. I was soaking wet with sweat. I couldn't see or hear anything.

Slowly I could begin to make out sounds and a silhouette. Apparently they were trying to get me to take a cup of orange juice but I couldn't see it and I was so weak I could hardly lift my arm. They wheeled me into a room and put me on a bed. 15 minutes later I finally had enough colour in my face so they let me sit up. It was fun and all but I felt like I was on drugs the rest of the day.

Today I had to tackle the fingerprinting. I finally got my card from Albany. Dropped $15 for some guy to ink me downtown and another $50 to send it back to Albany.

Then I went to the Registrar's office at Canisius to work on my diploma authentication. I thought I had to get a certified copy of the original, like everyone else, but noooooo. New York State requires the actual diploma, so now it's going to get all messed up with signatures and stamps. They want $30 for a replacement copy for myself.

I dropped another $3 for the county clerk's signature, $10 for the State to verify the county clerk is for real and another $7 for US to verify the State is for real. This will probably take 3 weeks with the use of Fed Ex overnight super expensive service.

Hey, at least I made some progress before I head out of town! I fly to Houston tomorrow so I can say good-bye to my thousand relatives and help my mom drive her 'new' car home. Which is ironic because she doesn't drive really.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

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06/27/07 03:49 - 86ºF - ID#39829

i been thinkin about my doorbell

when you gonna ring it, when you gonna ring it?

theecarey messaged me with this and it reminded me i didn't mention the funnies of sunday afternoon.

someone came in through our outer front door and stole the doorknobs off our front doors. for serious. they were the fancy ornate ones like pmt have on their door, traditional old buffalo home knobs. yep, walked right in and yanked them bitches off the door.

i wonder if it's the same pecker heads that stole my bike.

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06/27/07 02:18 - 85ºF - ID#39827

my process

I finally have one thing going smoothly. After about 20 phone calls to various clinics and doctor's offices I found a place that can do all of the tests required for my visa. I'll have that all done tomorrow. Bonus: it's going to be much, much cheaper than I anticipated.

I'm still waiting on my fingerprinting card from Albany.

I just found out I also have to authenticate my diploma with the same lengthy process as the fingerprint card.

Let me hear you say, oh shit!

My leave date is not going to happen July 16.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

Category: america fuck yeah

06/24/07 12:15 - 74ºF - ID#39792

fingerprinting

It seems Buffalo's fingerprinting department is a one man show. He was on vaca forever. Then he yelled at me saying, "You're just trying to make things difficult for me aren't you" when I told him I do not have my own card.

Silly me to assume a fingerprinting office has the actual cards you get fingerprinted on. No, I have to call Albany to have them mail me a card because my employer from the middle east did not supply me with a NYS identification recorder. True story.

I'm so far behind in the process now I probably won't make my leave date of July 16.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

Category: dream

06/20/07 05:05 - 72ºF - ID#39742

shades of aqua

I had such a beautiful dream last night. I was walking through a lovely forest full of redwoods and giant ferns. The sun was beaming strands of brilliant light to the forest floor. I could hear a few insects, a few birds, but I knew I was alone. I came upon a small hot spring. The surface sparkled in shades of aqua. I removed my clothes and slipped in. I drifted in the floating abyss. I was overcome with peace and happiness. I wanted to stay there forever.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

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06/17/07 08:04 - 80ºF - ID#39708

bus bombs

yah. i've upgraded. car bombs aren't enough for this gal. i created the bus bomb. it's super sized guinness gluttony at its finest! woot.

but it was a little hot in the sun so we retired to the fanned living room for a pitcher of mojitos. which is now gone :)

i love durnk sundays. i love boys that aren't jerks. i hate girls that are double standard magicians. i'm drunk and i didn't have 12 toooters. we ordered food.

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY

Category: poetry

06/16/07 11:31 - 70ºF - ID#39699

the vortex of you

My shell might be tough. My eyes may be vacant. But there is still a soul in here. Push me out the door on a lonely road. My hands and knees aren't wounded. But my veins still run with blood. I'm not a fucking super hero. I don't always know the answer. But I do what I think is right. I fight to protect the genuine. You call me a monster.

Will the weak. Feed the fire. Propagate the pitiful. Clap for the crazy.

Why can't you SEE???

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Location: Niagara Falls, NY