09/08/08 04:09 - 73ºF - ID#45604

It's so over..

Years ago (sigh) when I was in college my roommate and I were heading out to a party and were trying to decide how to transport our alcohol across campus with out getting caught. We decided that tequilia in a apple juice bottle was the best way to go. It looks the same and no one needs more than an apple juice bottle of tequilia. I threw a lime in my pocket for good measure and we were on our way. About half way across campus we decided to start drinking. We were trashed by the time we actually got to the party. The next day I didn't get out of bed- period. For years afterwards I could not even smell shots of tequilia with out feeling barfy. It was at that point I decided me and tequilia were breaking up for good.

Well fast forward to Jessica in her 30's. Like any relationship worth its weight in gold it's never really over. 2 weeks ago I decided me and tequilia should get back together. We first re-connected in my mom's pool in AZ. I then decided to get hot and heavy with it yesterday- Sunday afternoon. After an all you can drink brunch we decided to hit up happy hour for half priced margaritas. Man oh man. Words can not describe how utterly crappy I felt. Which is why I now have deemed me and tequilia over forever. Seriously someone please punch me in the head if I EVER suggest tequilia again.

Some random thoughts from friends re: drinking tequilia on a Sunday:

A haiku:
Passed out drunk at nine
Pre-dawn hangover sets in
Monday spinning? No.

I woke up fully dressed on my bed with the lights on at 3 in the morning..

..another brilliant Sunday afternoon/night.

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09/05/08 11:03 - 80ºF - ID#45587

It scares me

that my gym is stalking me. I haven't been really hardcore work out like I was a few months ago and my gym has noticed. They have called me with increasingly scary messages.

Message from owner: "Hi we've noticed you haven't been using the gym as much this summer, we've missed you."

Message from my trainer: "Hey Jessica. I've missed you. Hoping we can start training again now that fall is here."

This is all code for: "You are going to get your ass kicked for slacking. So we hope you're ready for a few barfy workouts!"

I seriously feel nervous even thinking about it.

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Location: Jersey City, NJ

09/04/08 07:50 - 79ºF - ID#45573

Just to give you an idea of..

How adorable to ponytail bow combo is:

You can't totally see, but it gives you the general idea.

PS (e:lilho) i used the non fang tooth side just for you. Well you and (e:paul). I know you two talk shit about it all the time.

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Location: Jersey City, NJ

09/04/08 12:47 - 72ºF - ID#45565

NKOTB

I'm not going to lie, I love them. Even in their older, clearly sad, state of being. I just found out they played a concert this morning near my office. I cried silently when I realized I missed it.

Observations:
Joey is clearly the Justin Timberlake of the group. If anyone is going to bring the sexy back it's Joey. Jordan thinks he is going to bring the sexy back (I can tell it's what he's thinking) but he is so wrong.

Also I would still marry Jon in a heartbeat. I love the quiet dorks.

Donny was wearing sunglasses. I'd like to thank him for that. You can see pictures of him in my previous blogs

and sadly (for him) he didn't age so well.

Danny. Eh. He doesn't make me cringe, but I still don't want to make out with him. Unless, I was really drunk and somehow it involved me getting a new dress or something, but I'm pretty sure that falls under the prostitute category. So yeah, no Donny make outs.

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Location: Jersey City, NJ

08/28/08 11:18 - 68ºF - ID#45483

Leaving on a jet plane

However I do know when I'll be back again (unlike the song).

I'm leaving first thing tomorrow morning for Fountain Hills, AZ I need to get out of the city, breathe some fresh air, re-center myself, maybe do some art projects with lilho, eat a gas station taco and get family hugs.

I predict this should help immensely.

Oh and happy bday Terry. I wish I was there to eat some Ben and Jerry's with you!!

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Category: boys who suck

08/27/08 12:12 - 70ºF - ID#45470

Birthday Cake

Ok I promise my wallowing is ALMOST over. Really though I couldn't let this thing die without posting a picture of the never eaten birthday cake that I slaved over for 3 effing hours.

I mean if he wasn't going to fawn over how amazing it was someone has to. And yes I did eat only one piece. I had to at least know if it was good or not.

Also as a side note:
Yesterday I was on my way to work, kinda crying. So I'm walking towards my building and right past me walks a man dressed as a geisha type person, little platform shoes, hat, full get up but with out any make up and no pretense that he was trying to be a tranny. No one turned a head. At that moment I was in love with New York all over again. Where else can a girl be left alone to cry as a oddly dressed man walks by and no one blinks an eye.

tinypliny writes at 07:41:46 08/27/08 - Comment #38238: I want to live in NYC at least for sometime. I should have perhaps have taken up NYU on their admission offer 3 years back but somehow at that time Rochester seemed like a better place to go. If I had gone to NYU, I would probably never have met my present advisor, never have come to Buffalo, never met you all, never had an (e:strip) account and probably never have met you (even virtually). I don't what life would have been like. I like NYC. It feels more closer to home than anything else. I might have had a completely different set of experiences. But I am not sure that I necessarily prefer one to another. I am happy that I have come to know so many people where I am and on the way to getting here. You never know what will happen tomorrow. When I was in Rochester, I used to look at UB's and Roswell's webpage weekly and drool over all the research that went on here. I still can't believe I am here, IN BUFFALO! If I had come here 3 years back, I wonder if I would have lived downtown. I probably would have been somewhere near south campus. Again, I wouldn't have had all of you as neighbours. So I guess going to Rochester had its benefits...

Off topic rambling, but I just had to put it down. I have been to NYC three time now and every time I have loved every aspect even though I was drenched and soaking wet 2/3 times, caught the wrong direction subway etc. It felt like the closest thing to being back home.

tinypliny writes at 07:32:25 08/27/08 - Comment #38237: And since nobody asked, WHAT IS THE RECIPE??? That looks AWESOME!
(Can you ship slices without them getting gross and mouldy? Do people ship cake?)

mike writes at 07:19:37 08/27/08 - Comment #38234: mmm that looks like some tasty cake you got there!

mrmike writes at 12:48:32 08/27/08 - Comment #38208: Hope the hurting is almost over. The baking, yowza, that cake looked awesome.

matthew writes at 12:47:51 08/27/08 - Comment #38207: mmmm yum. Even I'd eat a slice of that cake.

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08/26/08 11:28 - 66ºF - ID#45459

Now that I stopped crying (for the most part) I think I can write about what happened.

Actually I can't. All I can say is he was amazing, but too self centered to see anything other than what he wanted to.

I feel hurt because he made it seem like it was ok to show him my feelings and emotions (which I think we all know I am adverse to doing under any circumstances). And in the end if I would have just kept my distance, like I do with everything, I would have never ended up hurt.

Normally, knowing myself, I'd be a vengful bitch and say a bunch of mean things. But in reality I have no desire to do anything other than sit on my couch and cry.

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08/24/08 02:59 - 74ºF - ID#45432

And if I threw a party

and invited everyone I knew (Mike Visco fill in the rest)..

I'm home from a night out. I'm so thankful (redundant I know) for my girl friends. I can not imagine life with out them. It makes me cry even more to know I have such amazing people who want to give me hugs and get me drunk (which I so am) and share cupcakes with me.

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08/23/08 01:55 - 81ºF - ID#45422

Thanks

So thanks to everyone for their kinda words. Once I feel like I can go blog about what happened you can bet I surely will! It was really hard not being about to share everything (the good and the bad) via my blog. I feel like this is such an outlet for me.

Until then I'm so thankful for my friends here in the city. As always they have banded together and are making me feel so much better (booze and cupcakes heal everything).