What is wrong with me

I am avoiding cleaning my apartment at all costs.I hate cleaning. Once when i was little i hid under my bed in order to avoid cleaning my room. My mom thought I ran away (i did this a lot too) so she called the police and my dad. It was dramatic. So now to avoid cleaning I smoke up, and started watching this show about napalm and vietnam, its awful. How can this be better than cleaning my apartment because its so dirty right now. I have a headache...