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what a shitty night

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Sigh...
I'm in yet another of those horrible "woe is me nobody loves me" moods and I hate it.

But I've also been told that it's "very unattractive" to whine about it...

So I'll spare you the details-

I'll just say that I jumped through many hoops, turned down invitations, and pissed off friends and family to get this weekend off to help my 'friend' with his charity event out of town. Not to mention it was his birthday and I was hoping to spend it with him.

And then he left without me, and wouldn't answer his phone for the rest of the day.

So I had this long-anticipated entire weekend off...

alone...

in Buffalo...

The glorious grand finale was when my friends had to escort me out of mother's at 1am in a full-blown crying jag. Blotch-faced, snot-nosed, blubbering tears. In the middle of Mother's.

LOVELY.

And the thing is, i'm not even sure what triggered it. Well I have a clue.

I fucking hate boys.
But I love them.
Or at least one of them.
And he couldn't care less.
And it hurts.
:(
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💬 12 comments

  1. ladycroft ·

    if i had a board i'd smack on the head with it. he's your cocaine. cocaine is bad for you. life won't get any better until you quit it. it's not impossible, it just hurts until you feel better :)
  2. mrmike ·

    For what it's worth, I'm sorry about the situation. You're very invested and he can't seem to give a shit. That kind of thing is what gives my gender a bad name. I can only imagine that frustration. The true friends know what started it. We all want that feeling of getting excited to see somebody, your heart skipping a beat as you got closer to the door, etc.

    Doesn't sound like this is meant to be and sounds more like you are torturing yourself into believing he'll suddenly change or realize just how good he has it.

    Cut him loose and cut yourself some slack
  3. lilho ·

    stop investing time into these losers!!!!!!!!!!! im with @ladycroft. you need toget this crap out of your system, and if i was there, i was personally slap you. this guy is treating you like crap, and your being disrespectful to yourself! do you really want a guy that treats you like crap??? you have a lot to offer, and if he cant appreciate it, there are plenty of other people out there who will. im about to make some banana bread with chocolate chips, and if you were here, id sit you down with a slice, and some milk, and convince you to forget about this guy, and then we'd go out and have some fun. so, do something nice for yourself today! and dont worry about it!
  4. museumchick ·

    • hug* I'm sorry the boy was such an asshat, but I agree that you don't need to hang around guys like that.
  5. tinypliny ·

    ?? Is this the bloke of the text-dump infamy? I thought it was over for good. How could you expect any responsible behaviour from such a human-wasteland?
  6. drew ·

    I concur.
  7. jason ·

    Time to cut your losses!
  8. leetee ·

    Yeah, i agree with everyone else... except for the slapping you or hitting you stuff.

    Why you are willing to put up with someone treating you so badly is puzzling to me. This is the time in the relationship when any guy should be trying to win you over, courting you and convincing you to be with him.

    I so hope it's not because you think that's the best you can get!! Or that you don't deserve any better!

    I've been there, way too many times with me being head over heels with the guy that doesn't feel the same about me. It hurts. It kills. It tortures. But staying with him only makes it worse. And whittles away your self esteem while doing it.

    So? Whatcha waiting for? Dump him now or you will have a bunch of (e:strip)pers willing to do the deed for you... and i bet most of us will be a lot less nice!
  9. joshua ·

    This is an obvious question but I have to ask it anyway. Did he invite you?
  10. ajay ·

    "But I love them.
    Or at least one of them."


    WHY ?
  11. hodown ·

    I'm so sorry. Seriously I don't understand why dudes are not banging down your door. Youre a doctor, super cute- clearly theres something wrong with this picture!
  12. chicoschica ·

    jenks -
    you and me
    we need to TALK
    (i think we're leading parallel lives)
    HONestly.....
    hang in there....

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