Because of my boycott of Talking Leaves, I don't have a local bookstore to call my own. Therefore (e:Joshua) and I made our trip to Borders to try and find some new reading material. (e:Joshua) spent part of the afternoon looking on Amazon for books dealing with string theory and other related materials. We decided we would each buy a book and then trade when we were finished. I couldn't decide what I wanted to read next.

We made the trip to Borders, and (e:Joshua) immediately found what he was looking for. We spent the next 90+ minutes searching for something I would like. I checked out the political section, which was filled to the brim with books that sickened me as I skimmed through them. I wish someone would write a political book dealing with what we need to do to become a unified America, that doesn't belittle people or discard ideology other than their own. I was severly disappointed.

Next I went to the history section, and the sections dealing with war stories. I love books dealing with war stories, especially personal accounts detailing what they go through as they come to grips with the experiences they have had. Maybe it is because my family has a long history of military service, and I want to try and understand better the experiences (good and bad) that my family has gone through. Luckily, my Liberal father had higher aspirations for us than to become instruments of death, and stood firm in his opposition to the rest of the family who thought military service would whip my brother and I into shape. I wonder what would have happened if I had entered West Point like a couple of my cousins have done. Likely I would be in Iraq, killing other human beings with speed and efficiency. I was taught that if I am going to take a job, to do it to the very best of my ability. That is a very scary thought.

Anyway enough of the rambling. I decided on "Inside Delta Force" by Eric Haney, who was one of the founding members of the elite and secretive special forces unit. It is a history of the unit and a compilation of Eric Haney's experiences in various SF operations during the 80's. So far it is really fascinating!

I admit I'm a picky reader. I don't like reading fiction. Most fiction to me only serves as a vehicle for elites with their head up their collective ass to put forth their kooky ideas. I prefer my kookyness straight up, like Howard Zinn's "Terrorism and War". The only fiction I like is on television in the form of the Stargate SG-1 and Stargate Atlantis. Those shows provoke my imagination like no others. I really believe they are some of the most compelling and interesting shows on television right now. Anybody know of any really good Sci-Fi novels? I might be willing to give them a try.

Jason

That's the question to which everyone wants an answer. Is it because the Brits support our efforts in the war on terrorism? Is it because Europe has been particularly unsuccessful in their attempts to "Europe-ize" immigrants from the middle east? Is it because the radical muslims have been very successful in exporting their radical Imams to European nations, and have been WELCOMED, practically having the red carpet rolled out for them?

I know there are going to be a bunch of people on the left here and in Britain, and yes all over the world who only will accept an answer that excuses away the acts of violence and terror, and which will only offer an explanation that blames the Brits themselves. "They had it coming!" will be the cry of the radical left who seemingly joy in the deaths of their countrymen. I think a certain degree of introspection is necessary, but it alone only offers you a shallow and superficial overall picture of the problems involved.

I want peace as much as anyone. I wish we lived in a world that valued life, and valued peace. I'm also a realist and recognize that no matter how much we value life, no matter how much we value peace we will not sway the radical terrorists and get them to put down their guns and bombs. The radicals will never run out of excuses to fight and to kill. I fear that Europe is in a shitload of trouble, now and in the future, with radical muslims who perceive their socieites as anti-religious and oppressive toward muslims. (e:Joshua) is right - the only language they understand is violence. If we are supposed to not fight back, if we are not supposed to round them up or try to stop them by force, what are we supposed to do? Get into a drum circle? Hold a peace vigil? Pack up our bases all over the world and shut them down? Pay the radicals off like Italy did? None of these responses will stop radical muslims from killing innocent civilians. None of it will end the scourge of terrorism. Even if we try to help them, they will reject our help and say that we are trying to control them. If you're a lefty out there, I want to know what your solution is to the problem.

Jason

• Journal edited because Marmizo apologized. I take back the words I wrote. **

Jason

I found out that a friend's wife ran off with a co-worker, leaving him alone with his three kids. She said something to the effect of "I don't want the responsibility anymore." There is a part of me that refuses to believe that people are actually capable of this besides my mother, but having it happen to someone I know makes it all that more real for me. Hmmm....I wonder if our injustice system will take away her right to see her kids and make her pay outrageous child support, crippling her financially? Probably not, I'm scared that he will be left alone and fucked over.

This makes me think of another point. Gay dudes, don't take this the wrong way, but I don't know why you want marriage at all. You see how horrible we humans are at it, you see how when it goes bad (and you are essentially flipping a coin on this) the people involved have their money and their hearts ripped away from them. You see how it tears families apart. Who is to say that same sex couples would be any better at marriage than straight couples? I admit I am biased against marriage period, and so you should take this into consideration when I say these things, but I just don't see the point in fighting so fiercely for something when it could end up doing the same things for you it already does for straight couples. Don't ruin your relationships! Don't ruin your lives! Don't marry!

Jason

.........the Left's plan to block judicial nominees (by Mark Levin, from National Review):

All weekend we heard from the likes of Ralph Neas (People for the American Way), Nan Aron (Alliance for Justice), and other leaders of a left-wing coalition insisting that President Bush nominate a "mainstream conservative" to the Supreme Court, or that he unite the nation with a "pragmatist" or "moderate" in the character of Sandra Day O'Connor. This is real chutzpah. These are the same people and groups that have conspired to undermine President Bush's judicial appointments for over four years, and now seek to derail any nominee to the Supreme Court who isn't a proven activist.

The battle over the Supreme Court is now underway, and while the records of potential nominees are being closely examined, so too should the records of those on the left who have turned this entire process into a political circus be examined. It would also be nice if the always-objective mainstream media would take a look, too. And they don't have to look too far.

A few years back, memoranda apparently prepared by Senate staffers for their Democrat bosses exposed the entire unseemly enterprise and influence people such as Neas and Aron have over the judicial-confirmation process. The left-wing groups made detailed demands on Senators Ted Kennedy, Dick Durbin, Patrick Leahy, Chuck Schumer, and Harry Reid, to name some, to institute a variety of delay and smear tactics against numerous appellate-court nominees - many of whom were already sitting federal or state judges with outstanding records for professionalism and high character. At the time the memoranda were made public, the mainstream media chose to ignore their substance. Instead, they joined with the Democrats in search of the person or persons who released them.

Well, here are some choice examples of their contents.

In November 2001, Kennedy met with representatives from these self-described civil-rights groups. A resulting memorandum, directed to Durbin, states in part:

[The groups] also identified Miguel Estrada (D.C. Circuit) as especially dangerous, because he has a minimal paper trail, he is Latino and the White House seems to be grooming him for a Supreme Court appointment. They want to hold Estrada off as long as possible.

A copy of the talking points on Estrada's nomination prepared for Kennedy to present to the Democratic Caucus states, in part:

Key labor, civil rights, environmental, and administrative law cases are decided there, and we know it is a 'feeder' circuit for the Supreme Court. The White House is almost telling us that they plan to nominate him to the Supreme Court. We can't repeat the mistake we made with Clarence Thomas.

Clearly the Senate Democrats have a special contempt for minority judicial candidates who don't share their activist agenda and approach. Indeed, these minority candidates are believed to be more dangerous to their political objectives than white judicial candidates with whom they also disagree philosophically. Yet the fact that such a shameful mentality is written in black and white for all to read appears to have elicited no interest from the mainstream media. Kennedy was never asked anything about it during his many television appearances last weekend.

In a stunning April 17, 2002, memorandum purportedly written to Kennedy, a staffer states, in part:

Elaine [Jones of the NAACP Legal Defense Fund] would like the [Judiciary] Committee to hold off on any 6th Circuit nominees until the University of Michigan case regarding the constitutionality of affirmative action in higher education is decided by the en banc 6th Circuit [meaning, all the judges on the Court]. ...The thinking is that the current 6th Circuit will sustain the affirmative action program but if a new judge with conservative views is confirmed before the case is decided, that new judge will be able, under the 6th Circuit rules, to review the case and vote on it.

Plainly, this was an attempt to fix the outcome of a case, and the Senate Democrats went along with it.

The groups even opposed Professor Michael McConnell's nomination to the Tenth Circuit, even though he would be endorsed by numerous liberal lawyers and law professors.

In September 18, 2002, the Alliance for Justice wrote, in part, the following about McConnell:

President Bush has nominated ... McConnell to a seat on the [Tenth Circuit] in an attempt to continue to pack the circuit courts with judges prepared to carry out his administration's anti-choice, anti-consumer, anti-civil rights, anti-labor and anti-environment agenda. Through his numerous academic articles, Professor McConnell promotes a jurisprudence of 'originalism,' a method of interpreting the Constitution that calls for analyzing how its framers would have decided an issue at the time that the relevant part of the Constitution was adopted. If confirmed to a lifetime seat on the federal appellate bench, Professor McConnell would be in a position to apply his academic theories, as well as the extremist ideas he propounds in non-academic publications, to further roll back protections for well-established Constitutional rights, including civil rights and reproductive freedoms.

Here we have the Left's litmus test. Either the president's nominees embrace the full agenda of the Left and are willing to impose it by judicial fiat (which they now label "mainstream conservatism") or they're labeled right-wing extremists. In short, highly qualified nominees who actually believe in interpreting and upholding the Constitution must be stopped at all costs - including through the continuation of unconstitutional filibusters if need be.

The memoranda contain much more information exposing the sinister strategies of the Left, including leading Senate Democrats. They put to rest any suggestion that these individuals and groups are serious about working with the president or honestly considering any non-activist for our top courts (especially the Supreme Court) despite their best recent efforts to give a public appearance of accommodation and evenhandedness. They're well worth reading, even as the mainstream media chooses to ignore them. (The memoranda are printed in my book's Appendix, if you can't find them elsewhere.)

We conservatives didn't pick this fight, but we must win it. It began with the assault on Bob Bork, and too many sat passively while it happened. Meanwhile, President Clinton's activist nominees, Ruth Bader Ginsburg and Stephen Breyer, both sailed through the confirmation process. They weren't smeared. Their video-rental records weren't combed through. Their trash cans weren't searched. Witnesses weren't called to testify with phony stories about pubic hair on coke cans. But now is the time to put an end to this. Thanks to the Left and its insistence on judicial supremacy, the constitutional, economic, cultural, and political stakes are too high to ignore. No more stealth candidates like David Souter, or compromise candidates like Anthony Kennedy, or p.c. candidates like Sandra Day O'Connor in hopes of quieting the Left's opposition. And if the president nominates originalists to this and any other upcoming Court openings, as he assured the public repeatedly he would do, his nominees deserve our complete and active support. And they will have it.

I hope everyone has a fantastic day celebrating our Nation's independence from Britain. I love being #1.

Jason

No, perverts, we aren't going out trolling for chicks tonight. The inimitable, utterly adorable duo of Joshy and I will be at the Pink late tonight getting some crunk in our system. See you there! Or maybe not.

Jason

Let the FUN begin!

Jason

Ahh....is there anything that getting laid won't fix? After my less than happy day I went home and talked to some people, eventually landing a movie date. I went to see War of the Worlds with her. I'm not really a movie snob....I take things for what they are, not what they could or should be in my mind or any other fool's. I actually liked it - the destruction brought by the aliens was unimaginable. They literally hunt down humans on a mass scale. It was not an action movie, instead more of a thriller. It was pretty scary as far as movies go. I won't ruin it for sci fi dorks like me. From what I understand it is different than the book in some ways, but I'm not a purist so I'm not complaining. It was a very entertaining night that had a "happy ending" as it were. I had a great time and hopefully things will just continue to be this way.

Jason

Her:

"Quit being such a drama queen. I'm glad things are
> going well for you -
> enjoy it - I wish nothing but good times for you,
> but you don't have to bring me
> down with your IM's. I've had quite a bit on my
> plate lately, so sorry if I
> didn't jump and write right back. My dad had skin
> cancer, my mom has been
> undergoing testing for ovarian cancer and just had
> surgery, my boyfriend had
> his thyroid removed because of cancerous nodules
> and now this week I've
> developed pleurisy. Life can be tough enough
> without biting comments from
> friends. "See you in the afterlife" Rhonda "

Me:

" It's not drama, it's common courtesy and respect. you've never respected me, all I wanted was a simple "hello" and over the course of MONTHs, considering you're always online, it was never too much to ask for. I don't care about your boyfriend's cancer or your pleurisy. A while ago I might have showered you with good wishes and prayers. You should have never written back. You've never reached out to me so I'm not losing anything. Good bye"

I can be a cold blooded son of a bitch when provoked. She wouldn't even bother to write to me until I got pissed off at her. She thinks she's fucking perfect and without fault, and immediately goes into attack mode, just like a female always does, when someone approaches her with a problem. I don't need people in my life who don't respect me, or who are going to fake like they're my friends when in reality they won't give me the time of day. Fuck her, fuck her boyfriend's cancer and fuck her fucking pleurisy. Bad shit does indeed happen to bad people on occasion. I do, however, feel immeasurably bad for her parents, who are loving and sweet people. They will be in my thoughts and prayers tonight

Update: more blah blah blah what did I ever do to deserve this from her, so I said I thought I told you good bye? You were never my friend, you ignored me time after time when I needed you the most, now buzz off" #$^#$^#^@^@^$%