There are some days when I don't want to wake up. Last night was so awesome. Usually if I dream it's a very bad one indeed.....getting chased in a UB parking lot by ninjas, getting made fun of and teased mercilessly by my ex, getting shot and cut up....fighting evil aliens...you get the idea. Most of the time it's not a pleasant experience.

Last night I had great dream after great dream. It's the first time in months. Every time I woke up I tried my damndest to get back asleep. Lately if I'm having dreams about women they are always centered around some kind of huge gathering...I'm in a hotel either on some kind of trip or conference. It's not just one woman I'm interacting with - it's at least a dozen. In one of my dreams I was walking down the hall with a towel on, heading into the shower. When I got to the shower I was the only guy - it was just me and a bunch of chicks. It was apparently a co-ed shower so I walked in, said "Hey girls" and started lathering up. This was all completely normal. I was able to stand there in the warm water and enjoy all of these women getting naked and wet. No, I wasn't yerking it in my dream....I was very well behaved. After the shower was done I was very handsomely rewarded for being good. What? A guy is actually REWARDED by women for being well behaved? This is when I realized it was just a dream (nevermind the rest of it, lol). It was all love, happiness and warmth. For some reason or another a lot of my dreams like this revolve around showers....apparently I'm subconsciously obsessed with showering with women.

Anyhow this dream got me thinking. There are so many shithead guys out there who use women for sex and deceive them. Those are the guys you see around the hood who always have a different girl around them. Women love these guys. It makes me think "Are you that fucking stupid!!!" and the answer I get is always "Yes" when they actually become surprised that the guy employed the fuck 'n' chuck and left them hanging. I remember their faces so I know who not to approach.

The dream helped me to remember not all people are like that. There are men out there who feel love and appreciation through sex, not just the momentary gratification of shooting off their load. Humans need physical interaction in order to be truly happy just like they need food, drink and oxygen. So with that in mind I encourage all of you ladies to sex up the good men in your lives as much as possible. Show them you love and appreciate them by getting naked and sweaty. It might mean something when the next V-Day rolls around! So get out there and get busy!

Jason

Last night I sat down and watched streaming video of the MLB Congresssional Hearing on steroids. I had no idea it would be so entertaining! The congresspeople really roughed up the MLB guys. These lawyers and executives came in acting arrogantly and thought they could pull the woll over the eyes of Congress. Wrong Wrong Wrong Wrong! The various lawmakers all wore this amazing expression on their faces as if to collectively say "Do you really expect us to fall for this crap? Who do you think you are? Do you know how much trouble you're in?" The MLB guys had it really taken to them, and congress told them if they didn't fix the steroid problem NOW that congress would do it for them. Every one of those congresspeople were PISSED OFF...almost to the point of shouting at the MLB guys. I am so happy that congress gave them such a harsh verbal beating....the MLB guys really don't get it. One of the congressmen suggested it was already a problem that congress should address NOW because the MLB people were either too incompetent or unwilling to make the necessary changes in steroid policy. Major League Baseball got seriously beat down and reprimanded. It was a night of feel good television.

Jason

Pro life or Pro choice? I've always hated that question because I don't believe in the notion that you have to be either/or. As much as I'd love to, I won't approach this from a partisan angle because both the hard core righties and lefties routinely fuck this up. The media and the lobbying organizations representing both extremes are to blame for the debate being framed this way. They don't want any kind of compromise or common sense policy. They don't want any dialogue. They don't want anyone to come to an agreement because they will never do anything that could result in themselves or their organization becoming less relevant. Every single time I hear about this debate I think "Zzzzzzzzzz" because nobody actually is serious about getting something done - they just want to bully you and force their philosophy down your throat. I would elaborate more but I already know it will be a waste of time.

Jason

Taken at the office. Don't want any shots of home....never know when some crazed extremist wants to threaten me again.



Jason

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March 14th is Steak and BJ Day!



Show your man the love, appreciation and affection he deserves today! Cook him up a nice steak and give him head that he'll never forget! We really are relatively easy to please. I don't have a woman in my life right now so I may just go get me a steak. Have a happy time today all you couples out there!

Jason

God I feel so depressed today. I'm inconsolable. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I can't focus. I can't sleep. Days like this are so shitty. I can't think of anything that will help me right now. And you, dear reader, have had your time wasted by reading my gripe which you don't care about. Sorry, but sometimes writing helps.

Yesterday I went to yet another friend's wedding in Rochester. Every time I go to a wedding I can't help but wonder about the divorce rate in the USA. I don't ever want to see any of my friends go through the painful process involved with it. Some couples you know for sure are going to make it, and yesterday's couple is in that category. I've never seen a couple so into each other and so happy before! Not everyone has it in them to make that kind of commitment work but I believe in them 110% and then some. They are two of the greatest people I know.

The reception was at the Casa Larga Vineyards. I'd never been there before but I thought it was great for a fairly small gathering. I'm not really a wine person...I can't think of any wine that I would drink before I would drink a Guinness or Boddington's but I bought a bottle of their Lilac Hill variety. It's a white wine that is fairly sweet (2.4% sugar content, compared with practically none for a Chardonnay) and it has a very distinct flavor. I've never tasted anything quite like it. I like it more than any Sauvignon Blanc I've tried. Of course I can't drink much alcohol anymore but I had a couple of glasses at the reception. It was really good....I recommend it highly but I don't know if Premier or Gates Circle carries it.

After the wedding (e:Joshua) and I went to a cafe I know in Rochester called Java's. It's right next to the Eastman Theater. I think Java's is so much better than Spot. Instead of having all of those huge tables they have a bunch of smaller tables which lends itself much more to private, intimate conversation. The lighting is better as well because you don't feel like you have a bunch of spotlights assaulting your senses. If you are in Rochacha sometime I recommend it.

One thing I read in their City Paper (Artvoice minus the extremism) really caught my eye. There is a "national" group which was founded in NYC called "Drinking Liberally". There are chapters all over the country. Basically the club members meet up for happy hour every week. Progressives can meet and have a nice social gathering without the horrible thought of having non-Progressives in their presence. Is there a chapter in Buffalo? If not, why doesn't someone start one? I think something like that would be perfect for Elmwood residents.

Jason

I downloaded the 3 CD version of Mandrakelinux 10.1 from the CSE FTP server at UB. It was basically as easy as Windows to install. That wasn't my worry. As you may remember I was concerned about my laptop being able to run the graphical interface, being that may laptop is so old and doesn't have much RAM. I thought the graphical interface would crawl. Much to my surprise Mandrake works perfectly on my Pentium 2 laptop! Very cool!

Well, actually I did have one minor problem. My wireless card doesn't work yet. I don't know if it is a hardware compatibility issue or simply a matter of finding the right driver. I didn't have enough time to look into it any further but hopefully I'll have that ironed out tonight. I need it to work so I can update the OS and download whatever software I might use.

(e:Paul) - I will post my view of estrip tonight whenever I get my card working.

The next thing I want to do is set up my old Pentium 3 box as a Shoutcast server so I can broadcast music and video. (e:Joshua) is installing Mandrake right now, and I'll be getting the proper software later. I've never tried anything like this but the Nullsoft tools seem easy enough to use, so I expect that by the time Dad comes up on Sunday I'll have something to show him. I would only be running this from my puny DSL connection so I doubt I am going to be able to handle too many listeners, but I think it would be sweet to set it up so I can just fire up Winamp and listen to my playlists at work. It seems like a fun exercise so I'll try it and give you the proper info if/when it's online.

Jason

Holy crap my laptop is too crappy for Linux? Am I stuck running Win98SE?

P2 400mhz
64 Megs of RAM

I checked out Red Hat and Suse Linux web sites and both of those versions recommend 256 megs of RAM. After that I decided I would ask you guys for help. I want to use a stable OS that works with my new wireless card but I'm not sure if I can find a version of Linux which supports wireless without the memory requirement. Am I stuck?

Jason