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Category: family

03/22/06 12:04 - 27ºF - ID#23643

Sister Recap

Some of you may remember how heartbroken I was that I lost my long lost sister's phone number, so I couldn't get a hold of her. I was so upset, besides myself. Well I finally found the number and gave it a ring tonight.

ERRR ERRR...the number you have dialed is not in service anymore.

So I spent some time trying to use the web as a resource to find her. I called a half dozen Diane Marsh characters tonight and none of them was her. After a while, the "Oops, I'm sorry" speech to the aggrieved became canned. Tonight I've been absolutely inconsolable, and alone, and with a phone out of battery. So I choose to go online to say how I feel. I desperately want to connect with my family.

Eventually I decided I would try my mother, the first among many women who threw me away and didn't want me. It turns out she is indeed in Jamestown, so next week I am going to show up at her door and confront her. She is the reason I have so many deeply rooted issues when it comes to women. Plus she is possibly the only way I can get a hold of Diane.

I only have one memory of my mother, in Pre-School when she came to see us, and we went to get some candy. I remember being in the candy store, and I picked something out and she was like hell no. I don't recall even recognizing her as mom, only as some lady who wanted to hang out with Josh and I. I thought she was mean.

Then one day at home when Josh and I were in our early teens, Mother called and I would not speak to her. Josh did, and he told me Mom said she thinks about us every day. Bullshit, I thought, absolute bullshit. I held a grudge.... least until tonight. I can't go on through life not talking to Mother. I can't imagine getting married and not having my Mother there to see it. I have a whole half of a family which is a complete mystery. Diane stuck her neck out to get a hold of us and I owe it to her to find her, no matter the cost, even if I have to face up to the things, and the people, which have hurt me the most.

At least I didn't almost piss in the garbage today.

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Category: rape

03/21/06 04:05 - 31ºF - ID#23642

LeFave Gets Off! And Not In A Good Way!

I've written about this story before. I have another semi-rant to spew about it:

Things like this really make me wish I was born a female. Again I'll say it, whoever told you it's a man's world is truly an idiot.

Who are the most vulnerable people in our society? Enron investors? The working poor? No, the answer to the question is: Children.

I've known for a long time that there is no such thing as equal justice in this country. Rich people get away with murder (literally), The famous can do basically whatever they want, white people get away with shit that black people could never get away with. Now we know that if you are a female you can get away with rape. Just tell them you are too pretty to go to jail, and that you are in therapy. Because that argument always works when a man has the spotlight on him. This country is filled to the brim with legal double standards.

Is this the kind of place you want to live? What if it was YOUR kid that got raped? When will Americans forget about their own piece of the pie in this matter and become unified against our inequal system of justice?

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Category: fun

03/20/06 02:20 - 28ºF - ID#23641

Flirting Bloopers And Other Fun

At first I was going to talk about dating bloopers, after reminiscing over some very funny (and stupid) things I've done in my time. Then something occured to me, a comment (e:Ajay) wrote on my MySpace profile - something denouncing my self-proclaimed flirting glory. It occured to me, and you don't hear me say this often, (e:Ajay), so enjoy it - you are absolutely correct! So I want to encourage everyone to share their stories.

Before I start, if anyone is interested, yes Jerry and I are absolutely rampant in Dart League, after our 0-2 start. We are in top form right now.

The first thing I said to my last girlfriend - "You don't like your nose, do you?"

What I said to a girl last Tuesday, after she told me she didn't talk to me the previous week because she was seeing off a good friend - "Oh, I just thought you were being bitchy."

What I said to 2 girls in Florida who bummed cigs from me, and then asked me what else I was up to that night - "You have your cigs, now leave me alone!"

What I said to a girl who blew me off one night, and on the phone said "We'll go out tomorrow! I want to see you!" - "Screw you, you blew me off, I was embarrassed. Only call if you're actually going to follow through." (Friends of mine will find this highly ironic)

Then there was the time in college I was in my girlfriend's bed, and ripped out a GIANT fart while asleep, as well as a few aftershocks. It woke me up from a stone cold sleep, and I thought "Damn if she can live through that she's a keeper."


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Category: music

03/15/06 05:03 - 36ºF - ID#23640

Anyone catch Matisyahu?

I heard there was a listening event at Third Room. Was he there? Did anyone go?
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Category: potpourri

03/10/06 07:41 - 49ºF - ID#23639

Ok, Cupid

I am - The Pool Boy. Sounds fine. Sounds better than Brutal Sex Whore with shaky ass morals. Pool Boy for hire!
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Category: fun

03/02/06 03:29 - 24ºF - ID#23638

Caption Time

I see my approval rating is 100% - that is very nice to know. Maybe I will consider running for office! Anyway, I found this little nugget and thought it would be fun to make captions. I'll go first!


"Screw the facts! Screw the Constitution! I've made my choice, nudge me in 30 minutes."

"Justice Ginsburg is busy looking for her facial features, which apparently slid off and onto the desk.

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Category: poll

03/01/06 12:13 - 25ºF - ID#23637

Jason's Approval Poll

Here's a poll that is actually worthwhile - the Jason Approval Poll.

Do you approve of Jason?
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Category: potpourri

02/24/06 11:40 - 22ºF - ID#23636

Definition of Jason

Jason --

An immortal
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Category: tech

02/23/06 05:51 - 37ºF - ID#23635

Canadian College Bans WiFi?

I saw this on Drudge Report today. Health concerns about WiFi, anyone? I know you all will get a kick out of this.

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Category: local

02/21/06 04:58 - 30ºF - ID#23634

A Hotel???? A Hotel????

I just don't see the point in having a new hotel on the strip. What a silly idea. I wonder what genius financial minds decided it would be economically feasible to do this. I foresee it being used to capacity probably a couple of times a year.

This is something I've written about in the past - the suburbanization of Elmwood. The strip I moved to in 2001 is nothing like the strip I know in 2006. Holy fucking shit, we do NOT need to transform the strip into some kind of Williamsville-esque plaything for the blue bloods and the wannabes. There IS something wrong with making the strip an upper class place. It would cease to be the unique, varied, fun place I fell in love with. I would be horribly embarrassed to be living in a place associated with the word swank. Do you know what being swanky means? It means classism, it means a homogenous population, it means being exclusionary - these are all things that go directly against our notion of what makes Elmwood great. I don't want any more of those fucking horrible robotic suburbanite princess bitches on my block, trolling for single 30-something guys with cash, unless they are wearing next to nothing so I can enjoy checking out their bodies.

I mean, for fucks sake, they are already infiltrating The Pink! Is nothing sacred anymore?

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