What good is the dawn
That grows into day
The sunset at night
Or living this way

For I have the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
Within me at night
(Within me at night)

The love of my life
She left me one day
I cried when she said
"I don't feel the same way"

Still I have the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
Within me tonight
(Within me tonight)

I'll dream of her arms
And though they're not real
It's like she's still there
The way that I feel

I loved like the warmth of the sun
(Warmth of the sun)
It won't ever die
(It won't ever die)

After (e:Joshua) publicly humiliated me for looking like Shaggy, I decided enough was enough. It was time for change. Change is good, yeah? It was time to go to The Pink, and I was ready to test out my new 'do.



I tested it out first by giving some guy the most menacing glare I'm capable of, and he looked away. Cool! Don't fuck with the guy with the mohawk! When I was at the bar some chick asked me if I was going through her purse. I said, "No, why, you got something in there you shouldn't?" So she opened up her purse for me to see, and it was actually pretty empty. No condoms either - my kind of girl. Some guy also asked me if I play an instrument, or if I was in a rock band. I was like "Hell yeah, and we SHRED!"

Fun night overall.

Poetry in Motion...

My comment on (e:ejtower)'s latest post - by the way dude your new user pic is far superior to the earlier one.

Since people are commenting for me more than EJ, sadly, I will offer a second comment.

It was not my argument that achievements have been made FOR God, on God's behalf, or because of God. In no way did I ever imply it, either. The point was, Religion is not a hindrance to advancing as a people scientifically, intellectually, or otherwise. To state otherwise is patently false and ignores the totality of human existence.

(duhjay) - your "commentary" here is only a poorly veiled attempt at Christian bashing. You are the guy who defended media reports of the Indian caste system by saying "Well well well, the Christians are only helping because they want to convert people!" Very poor. Go back to sleep.

About war - I think simply saying "Well wars between people of different religion have been waged, therefore it's God's fault" is a horribly short sighted way of looking at things. It has always been, even up until today, about racial superiority and the acquisition of land and other resources. Not to mention, numerous wars (I would argue, the largest and deadliest wars of this centry as well) were/are waged with Religion having nothing to do with it. I'm not saying Religion is a non-factor - but instead saying it is only one component of a far more sinister and complex problem. Would any of you actually put forth the notion that if there were no Religion there would be no war? We do evil to each other based on every single possible way of dividing ourselves.

Saying God believers are fools, or using shaming, harassing, or humiliating language always makes me sad. Why? That is the language of Falwell. That is the language of Robertson. That is the language of the Imams and every other son of a bitch who thinks they are better than someone else for X, Y, or Z reason. It is exactly the same destructive force that has left us in ruin over and over again. Fundie atheists are no better than fundie religious types. My atheist father taught me this. The cycle continues.

I guess I'm the only person confident enough in my beliefs to not have to do that. Saying "I believe in God" has never hindered me in any way, and it never will, and there isn't an argument or any evidence to make it true. All anyone can do to me is a pathetic attempt to humiliate me, which only reveals the person as ignorant, hateful, and prejudiced.

There isn't anyone alive who can say with any matter of truth or authority God is real or not. That is a truly eye-rolling thing to consider. We shouldn't make the mistake of thinking we know more than we do - whether it is about God, about whether or not my wife is cheating on me, or whether the Yankees are going to win the World Series again. What are my lucky lottery numbers? You get the point. None of us will know for sure until we pass, and everyone would be a lot better of if it was left at that.

Anyway, that's about all I have to say on the topic of God, at least on estrip.

Just joking, Joshy, I will not be sharing my venom-pointed wisdom with the rest of the strip.

I wanted to share my beauty with the strip, but I can't find my web cam. Oh well! I don't much feel like smiling anyway.

Dart league started up again and we got SMOKED (and not in the good way) by these two chicks. We got beat 6 games to 1, and it was all because Jerry and I tapped into that Dominican rum Joshy got on a work trip. Sorry you had to find out about it this way Josh! Don't worry, there is plenty left. At any rate, people were like damn Jay you got smoked by these two chicks, what's up with that? They were GOOD. They played really well, so who cares if they each wore a set of tits? I just wish we wouldn't have gotten bombed beforehand so we could have put up a fight.

I have a lot of free time on my hands now. I've thought of the best solution for the dreaded V-Day celebration.

On V-Day, all you single e-strip ladies are invited to 750 for the inaugural "Love Jason Fest" - you can all come over, sip wine, eat food, and drape yourselves on Jason like he was a coatrack. Oh, it would be great if you girls could each chip in and bring over the wine and the food.

Jason

Edit: I am 99% sure (e:Salvatore) referred to the title of the new Strokes album in his latest journal entry. I've listened to it once through already, but so far I like it!

O ye who believe! seek help with patient perseverance and prayer; for Allah is with those who patiently persevere.

And say not of those who are slain in the way of Allah. "They are dead." Nay, they are living, though ye perceive it not.

Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits of your toil, but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere,

Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return".

They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.

On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) "Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith."

Okay I lied, I'm posting again but I have a reason - I'm too lazy to thank everyone personally. Thanks to those who have written to me privately and on the site, but my decision is final. And no I won't be coming to the Snow Party. I hope everyone has a good time.

Food for thought.......interesting and scary:

It is obvious to me that it is not tolerable for someone like me to speak politically here without being goated into hateful speech by the peanut gallery. I post mostly when I am upset about something and want to talk about it, rarely when I am happy and in a good mood. In a way it is therapeutic to get your thoughts out. However I will never accept being compared to murderers and killers of innocent people. That drove me over the edge, caused me to burn with intense anger and ruined my day. Although very funny in many ways I am not proud of my last journal entry so I erased the words. I let the hostility and thoughtlessness of others control me and from now on I refuse to let that happen. I have a mental illness and I have an extremely hard time controlling my emotions, and when someone takes advantage of it I am left helpless.

My journal doesn't reflect what I think about most of the time. You guys would probably think I'm even weirder than you do already if you knew some of my new agey outlook on life.

Call me an islamofascist, call me a pussy, call me brainwashed, call me whatever you want it does not matter anymore. I know it is all bullshit and that's good enough.

It is not healthy for me to be journaling anymore. Libs you have achieved it, you have silenced my speech. Good bye, friends!

Jason

Yes, dear reader, it is time to once again talk about Gender, which you know is one of my favorite topics. I'll try to be concise, but I can't make any promises! If you are easiliy offended by men who have a firm opinion and aren't afraid to express it you aren't going to be happy with me today, so you can kindly move on back to your bubble world and stay out of my fucking blog. Otherwise, read on!

Some of you may be familiar with Are Men Necessary? - the Maureen Dowd book concerning (loosely) the battle of the sexes. One of the central themes of the book deals with male attitudes toward successful (or powerful) women. Dowd claims that men don't want intelligent, successful women - in fact according to her we prefer bimbo sex kittens without a brain.

Let me set the record straight. It's not that we don't want the successful women, it's that they don't want us. It doesn't matter whether or not she makes $0 or $100,000 - a woman wants to be taken care of financially by her man. As women become more successful they do not expect to be the bread winner of the family. As this desire intensifies, their dating pool becomes much more shallow and narrowly defined, resulting in much tougher competition for the top X percent of men. Then as they get leathery and saggy they pout to each other, "Where are all the good mensfolk at?" It's not that men don't desire them - it is instead that successful women have essentially stated that most of the male population isn't good enough for them. Women are increasingly accepting singlehood in favor of a "sub-standard" man. Hope you got a solid warrantee with that Jackrabbit!

Then there is the case of Debra LeFave, and I know some of you are wondering why I haven't posted about this sooner. Miss fucking child rapist got off (pun not intended) and will not have to serve a single day of jail time. I don't care if she looks hot in a bikini - she is a rapist, a criminal, utter filth who like any other person who takes advantage of kids should be behind bars. Let her vag get pounded into submission in the clink - I don't feel bad for her at all. This is yet again another example of our system of inequality and social injustice. Are you a beautiful white girl? Well then you can get away with just about anything, including statutory rape! I hear a lot of talk around here about "protecting the weak and the vulnerable in our society" but I don't hear a damn peep when it comes to protecting the most weak and vulnerable among us, our children. Where is the outrage? The media and most of the population seem to not care at all when it comes to little boys. Let me give you all some necessary legal knowledge - a 14 year old cannot legally consent! I hope I'm not alone on this issue.

I recall at Dart League recently a team we played consisted of a guy and his very hot girlfriend - she requested he get her a bowl of lemons and some water. He came back with some water and she was all "Where are my lemons? Go back and get them!" I don't care how hot a girl is, or how much of a good lay she is - no guy should ever be so feminized or emasculated that they accept this kind of treatment from their girlfriend. I see so many feminized men out there and it seems we have been driven by the media to become this way. Put on that guy makeup! Get those eyebrows waxed! Shave your chest! Look, act, dress and smell such and such a way so you can please your woman! By the way, do you all notice that nobody ever wants women to do things to please their men? It's always about what the woman wants and needs. Yep, that's right, guys don't have any wants or needs - we are here for your entertainment purposes only! Relationships only go one way you know - if he acts up you can always just get rid of him and latch on to one of the guys you have on the backburner! Sorry, but this mindset just depresses the hell out of me. It's a wonder anybody has a functional relationship nowadays.

Jason