08/03/09 11:16 - 73ºF - ID#49445
Bug of the Day
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Location: Buffalo, NY
08/02/09 06:04 - 72ºF - ID#49441
Cup Cakes! Shaped Like Puppies!
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Location: Buffalo, NY
08/02/09 09:26 - 67ºF - ID#49438
Haircut
Does she have a point?
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Location: Buffalo, NY
07/31/09 04:42 - 77ºF - ID#49428
Torn.
Or look for a used car and get some kinda loan to pay for it (not sure how that works - does anyone have tips?).
Or buy a clunker and then have to potentially replace it soon. I hate the thought of this option, especially as a single person w/out a boyfriend to cry to for roadside assistance.
Since I need a car like, yesterday, I'm leaning towards buying the Mini later this month. But not sure if most of the reasoning isn't just that it will make me feel deliriously happy. On the other hand, I can afford the monthly payment just fine so I don't want to be too stingy, and buying a new car will Fix The Economy -- um, right?
It's weird but all the options have the same upfront cost of $2000 dollars or so (either for down payment or full payment for the clunker) -- long term costs are a different story. So I have just enough options to confuse myself.
-- UPDATE
Tinypliny asked why I need a car, unfortunately I work by UB North Campus, so it's not a walkable sort of situation.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
07/30/09 09:48 - 73ºF - ID#49421
Lafayette Square
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Location: Buffalo, NY
07/30/09 08:07 - 73ºF - ID#49419
Thursday at the Square
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Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: life
07/30/09 10:40 - 66ºF - ID#49413
The End is the Beginning is the End
Thus shall you think of this fleeting world:
A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream,
A flash of lightning in a summer cloud,
A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream.
-- excerpt from the Diamond Sutra
This fleeting world is mine, or feels close enough most days. A sudden absence, death, denial, changes that world and then I stumble. There's that bloody gap again amongst white teeth that tongue can't help but probe. It's too hard to hold on to, and to painful to let go. I find myself living a life that's suddenly unfamiliar, dangerous, alien.
The Buddhist retort to pain and loss is, "what now is lacking?", meant to drive your awareness to the present, to the moment, to your being here and now.
Loss is singular because it comes to all, eventually. It's the invariant mate of existence in this universe. So, I am not gone or destroyed by loss -- not yet. Loss is the relief that shows where presence still is. I live, though feel a stranger to my life today. I can keep moving until the moment that even breath is lacking. Things will be all right, even then; my flickering lamp continues, until then.
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Location: Buffalo, NY
07/27/09 02:35 - 72ºF - ID#49395
Bad day.
of my hard drive.
*_*
So I've spent the day reinstalling apps and restoring data from backups.
Thankful for having backups. Aggravated I'm not going to accomplish
anything today.
I also managed to kill half the plants at my cubicle by forgetting to water them Friday.
OK, end of sad story.
^_^
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Location: Buffalo, NY
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