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Category: holiday

02/07/06 08:12 - 27ºF - ID#36641

V-Day

Probably my most unconventional V-day was the first one with Mark, because it happened to fall over Presidents' Day weekend so we were at the 24-hour science-fiction movie marathon that night. Might sound a bit premature for a 24-hour public date, but we both had our tickets for the marathon long before our first "regular" date on MLK day. ("Schindler's List" if you must know. Oh yes - it was my choice too. My god, we were doomed from the start.)

Oh, and to top it all off, my ex at the time, Scott, also showed up for the mararthon and decided to sit with us! I had prepared Mark that Scott might be there and he was totally ok with that. Not so ok with him sitting on the other side next to me for 24-fucking hours. I'll never live that one down.

I was thinking about all that recently because it doesn't look like I'll make it for the marathon this year. Oh well.

I'm really not into Valentine's Day at all. Too obligatory. I have a thing against that. At the same time, I do have some very precious memories of V-Day's past, which sadly were documented and almost immediately lost about a year ago. Oh well again. Better to have loved and lost, etc. etc.


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02/05/06 07:03 - 33ºF - ID#36639

My Dad is insane

My Dad and Jean are off to NZ/Australia today. They thought it would be a good idea to plan their itinerary to include a 6 hour layover in Chicago so my brother could show them around, since he just moved there in August. Then they land in SF for an "equipment change" (not what you're thinking) before continuing on to Sydney. So now my Dad is obsessed with having dinner with me in SF, since he got to have b'fast with my sister before she dropped them off at the airport in Charlotte, a belated birthday lunch with my brother in Chicago, (Dad had the lobster for $17 and my brother had half a lobster stufffed with crabmeat for $10, and naturally couldn't pass up getting the second half for only an additional $4 - my family is obsessed with food bargains), so having dinner the same day with the daughter in SF would be the ultimate hat trick. They even tried to get on an earlier flight to make it happen, but no luck. Sorry Dad! Maybe next time. I'll make sure I'm ready if your equipment change at SFO happens to be delayed though.

Damn, I can't wait to retire. I think my Dad needs a blog.

(e:Decoyisryan) - I've got tix for [inlink]decoyisryan,2[/inlink] Arctic Monkeys next month - I can't wait! Also been listening to Hard-Fi and The Editors. Missed both bands at a small local club [inlink]twisted,59[/inlink] in just the past 2 weeks for very lame reasons. There are so many great small and mid-size venues around here - I've got to get back on the circuit. And a lot of the 80s bands are coming around again too. Just saw Echo & the Bunnymen, and am going to see X again next month. Talk about an interesting musical crossroads...

p.s. - can I just tell you living in the SF rocks? 15 minutes to the Golden Gate bridge, 10 more minutes to the winding coastal curves of Highway 1, and a mere 20 minutes more to [inlink]twisted,8[/inlink] paradise. And the feeling was just as good coming back. I love this place. I feel so much better now.

Peace out all.

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Category: last words

02/03/06 04:10 - 38ºF - ID#36638

Coming soon to myspace...

Haha. Just kidding. Maybe.

I just want to point out a few things before I go.

I'm all for political cartoons and irreverent humor in general. I like the way it can keep us from taking ourselves too seriously. Sometimes it makes me uncomfortable - but usually on behalf of someone more reverent than I am.

I am NOT for methodically "testing the limits of free expression" by intentionally lampooning one group's religious leader in a 12 cartoon spread just to see if you can get away with it. Do I think that should be outlawed? Of course not. Test the limits all you want. I wish it could be done more responsibly, respectfully, and/or discreetly than the Danish newspaper chose to do it. But I don't want to impose my moral conscience on them or on anyone else.

If you're a vegetarian and come to my house for dinner I'm going to make damn sure there's something for you to eat even if I'm a confirmed carnivore. Maybe hoping "accommodations" like that could be the norm on a global scale or in the media is asking too much. But can't we at least do that for each other on the strip? Is that really asking too much? Just give each other room to be who we are. (Well, who you are. I don't know who died and made me hall monitor, but looks like it's going to be a very short tenure.)

I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable by stepping into this pissing match. Yes, I was stupid enough to think I might be enlightened enough [inlink]uncutsaniflush,152[/inlink] (I could not agree with you more (e:uncutsaniflush) - good post) to diffuse the situation and point out where "logic" was sometimes built on half-truths. No, I'm not the keeper of truth. But I can recognize when a person or group is provoked, then retaliate. No, the retaliation is not justified, and yes, it may very well be a much "worse wrong" than the provocation. But that still doesn't justify the provocation. Hate has come full circle, and for what?

I wish I could keep my mouth shut and just have my little journal here, but I can't. I have more to say, but no time to say it. I hesitate to post something only half thought-out considering how my fully-thought-out posts have been received, but try to hold that thought until I can finish. Then you can strap me to the stake and set me ablaze.

Interim update (not that anybody's waiting with bated breath) -
Just letting you know I'm taking my two smashed fingers (ya, I managed to smash the other one all by myself) to the beach. In my perpetually preoccupied state I managed to sabotage my night out last night, and I'm having no luck scoring a ticket to Violent Femmes tonight. So I'm doing the only sensible thing and heading for the beach. No more "words of wisdom" from me for awhile. So go ahead - string me up in the meantime and put me out of my misery.



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02/02/06 02:23 - 46ºF - ID#36637

books 'n blogs

Hey, this seems like a good idea. Maybe we should start a book club? If Oakland [inlink]twisted,139[/inlink] can come together through reading books, there's hope for (e:strip). Maybe start with the book (e:theecarey) mentions in her comment to (e:jessbob)'s [inlink]jessbob,136[/inlink] post?


And another totally unrelated news item:

GPS-toting pigeons latest flock of bloggers (WHY am I not a headline-writer?)


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02/01/06 12:44 - 31ºF - ID#36636

owwie!

I just smashed my thumb helping my downstairs tenant break into her unit (don't ask). I would take a pic, but it's pretty trivial compared to some peep [inlink]matthew,634[/inlink] injuries. Matt - I hope you've healed completely! No more dishes for you.

I've had a few more thoughts on religion (don't worry! I'm not going to go there) and on negativity (probably will go there - some day). But for now just wanted a virtual xxoo to make it better.

So Steve called tonight. He's definitely the best thing that almost happened to me. I'm glad he still wants to stay in touch.

I don't think I'm going to make it to the beach this week. It's pulling me pretty hard too. So much for living in the moment.

Happy Year of the Dog! Woof!


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01/30/06 10:51 - 39ºF - ID#36635

userpic

Ok. What's the password for "computer?" It's time for a real userpic. I mean, how lame is it that "computer" has defaultface?

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Ok, maybe I don't have the rights to either of these pictures. Still! I seem to recall a conversation about a default initial userpic gallery and someone said "anybody can easily make a custom userpic."

p.s. - I don't' really have it in for (e:Paul), it just seems like it lately.

p.p.s. - omGAWD! Would you LOOK at that dead-on soul-piercing gaze! How could you not love him?


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01/29/06 03:00 - 40ºF - ID#36634

Losing my religion

Two things I firmly believe. One is, no one person can hold all the answers. We may strive to find the answers through science, religion, intuition, drugs, listening to records backwards, or any combination of the above (including science AND religion). But there are always going to be unsolved mysteries, and I personally like that. You might think immaculate conception is inconceivable (pardon the pun) - and I completely agree. But hell, I think the carnal variety is pretty freaking miraculous too. Oh sure, I understand the whole egg and sperm thing - and I see the results of that experiment walking by me every day. Then again, I still find radio waves and satellite TV amazing and wondrous things, so maybe that's just me.

Suffice to say, I think science goes a staggering way toward illuminating the mysteries around us. I love learning about stuff, even if I don't completely understand it. I think I fall into the "glass half empty" view of science though. Seems to me the more we learn, the more apparent it is how much we don't know. And I actually like that too. I'm more afraid of answers that presume to definitively close a topic than of answers that beg more questions. Again, that's just me.

Which brings me to the second thing I firmly believe. Everyone should be able to express their views/beliefs in a way that does not impose or force them on others. I think estrip is an ideal forum for that. I love reading everyone's journal, even when I fundamentally disagree with some or all of what they're saying. If I had "your" upbringing, education, lucky breaks, tragic losses, supporters, dependents, betrayals, triumphs, regrets - hell, even hormones - I'd have a different point of view than I do now. And my point of view will undoubtedly change over time. Your post may or may not contribute to that, even if I don't think it will right now.

Ok, how many of you have already picked your "side" and started formulating your response to my post? Well, that means you've STOPPED LISTENING and I'M NOT DONE YET!!! Yeah, it's human nature, and I do it too. But I at least try to hear the other point of view. If I have a different point of view, I'm free to voice it and I hope you will too. We may agree or disagree. But if we get hung up on "I'm right and you're wrong" or "the group you affiliate yourself with is wrong for these specific reasons, therefore you're wrong" - that I object to.

Here's my plea:

To the scientists - before you respond to a post, test for these criteria. Does your response hold one person accountable for the specific failings of a larger group, and/or make a blanket judgment on a group based on insufficient/contextural data? If so, reformulate. Don't worry - you'll still piss people off.

To the religionists - before you respond to a post that targets any specific group remember this. Sometimes openly being a member of a group makes you an easy target. I personally don't think that means you're automatically in agreement with or accountable for every action of that group. In other words, don't let someone else make you throw out the baby with the bath water. If anyone is a member of a group that comprehensively embodies exactly what they're about, then either they really are a fanatic/extremist, or they're a member of a group of one. So pick the points you disagree on and expound all you want. If a pissing match ensues, I guess all I can say is, turn the other cheek. And I think you know which cheek I mean.

As for the clairvoyants, druggies and reverse lyricists - contact me directly and I'll see what I can come up with for you. ;-)

I've been reluctant to call anyone on this in the past because I hate to get in the middle of a pissing match. Come to think of it, I could use a really long shower right about now. I have a lot more to say, but I already know it will be taken out of context and used against me. So why bother.


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Category: cool stuff

01/28/06 12:29 - 37ºF - ID#36633

I am so happy right now


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Category: dreams

01/24/06 12:07 - 41ºF - ID#36632

dream

In my dream my mother and grandmother are still alive. We were all traveling together and something suddenly happened that killed my Dad. We had to travel back home and it was a long and difficult journey. When we were close to home my grandmother said when we get back we should take my mother out to a nice place for dinner - some place where she could wear her white suit. The night we got back my sister had to go for a fitting for a wedding she was in, so I knew she couldn't have dinner with us. For some reason I thought my grandmother couldn't eat until 7PM, and with my sister not being able to eat with us, I decided the best thing would be for a family friend to take my Mom for dinner at a nice place at her regular dinner time. When I picked Grandma up and drove to our restaurant for dinner and my mother wasn't there, it suddenly dawned on me I should be with my mother that night no matter what. My grandmother thought we were meeting my mother there and she kept saying "where's Sonja? We have to be with Sonja now." Which obviously is so true.

I hate dreams like that.

I'm sure there are many personal inadequacies illustrated in that dream, but the one that stands out most for me is my tendency to overthink/overorchestrate things to the point where I miss the heart of the mattter. I don't think I was ever so heartless in real life as I was in my dream. But no doubt if my life were ever audited, the shortcomings would speak for themselveds.

More to come, but my friend Steve just called...


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Category: housing

01/22/06 03:49 - 36ºF - ID#36631

Nesting

While I was waiting for my iMac to arrive I decided I'd better paint the freakin' living room.

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It's bright!

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So the living room is a wake-up color and the bedroom is a more soothing green.

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I don't think I posted an exterior shot here before.

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Buchanan Street in Japantown.

p.s. - maybe now I should start to think about putting in furniture.


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