For some reason I have become addicted to watching the 2am episodes of x-files on sci-fi. Currently I am watching one of my favorite episodes. The one where they have to go undercover as a married couple to infiltrate the gated community where people keep disappearing. Where the blob like monster comes out of your front lawn and kills you if you don't follow all the rules of the community. So they taunt the monster by putting pink flamingos on their lawn etc. Very entertaining.

I was in such a depressed crappy mood most of the day today mainly because I was expecting a phone call from a place where I had a job interview on Tuesday where the woman said she would call me either way today. Needless to say I got no call, and I really thought I had the job clinched and I really needed the job badly at this point. So I was in a bad mood, then my dad comes home and asks me if I have attempted to get a job and proceeds to give me a lecture about how you can't expect to get a job by lying around all day etc. Well my dad works all day and sees not my attempts to get a job which have been fruitless up until this interview so I thought. Then Matt came over and when I told him the woman hadn't called, instead of feeling bad for me and comforting me like the usually supportive boyfriend he is, he gave his own form of the lecture my dad had given earlier. This put me in full annoyed depressed mood. Then we went out with my friends for ice cream, which was cool. But then I really felt like spending th rest of my bad day in my pajamas with my kitties, the way a bad day is supposed to end, but Matt really wanted to go and play frisbee with everyone after ice cream so I said I would go, but didn't really feel like running or anything. So we got there, and it was freezing and that didn't help my want to go home and vegetate. So then Matt realized how shy he really is, which sometimes happens, and didn't want to play frisbee without me. I could have sucked it up and played because I know how much he really wanted to play, how much he loves frisbee, and how long it has been since he has had the chance to play but I really really was not up to it. I felt really bad about it later because I know it would have made his week, but he did have to go to bed early anyway because he works at 7am tomorrow. I felt bad for skipping out on everyone and disapointing Matt. Well, here's to hoping I get the call tomorrow.

Well my cat is outside somewhere, he's an inside cat so I don't feel easy about him being out. Matt and I were watching Vegas Vacation until about 2am and when Matt was leaving my house, Bogy (named after Mr.Humphrey Bogart), snaked out and ran out my front door. This isn't the first time he's gotten out, actually he manages to somehow get outside an average of about once a month, for a 24 hour period at the most, and always seems to find his way back on his own. He's a frisky guy as matt putts it, and needs some time to frolick (he's neutered so I don't know what frolicking entails exactly, but he's never brought home a dead animal souvenier thank goodness). I know he's probably fine and will be back in the morning but I can't help worrying just the same. He doesn't have a collar (he's managed to destroy or lose 3 in his 3 years with us so we've given up on them) and its dark so if anyone is in the kenmore area (or anywhere for that matter) and spots a very handsome and large shorthaired orange and white tabby boy cat with a charmingly sly look about him, please contact me. His name is humphrey bogart and he probably wont go willingly, but you can try. It would be very much appreciated, I will update you all as soon as I get news. For now I must try to sleep because I have a job interview in the morning. Goodnight all

I really didn't eat a dinner yet exactly, I had some noodles a little earlier and watched Matt eat some mcnuggets not too long ago and my brother and I discussed a little long john silver's but so far no food, however if you guys did want to get some ice cream later I am totally up to it as MK suggested. Food or no food.

I have been watching last comic standing reruns on comedy central with matt for what seems like all day, I wouldn't mind getting out of my house for a while. Last night after hanging out with everyone at Tullys and the mall we went to matts house, watched tv and worked some more on matts puzzle and then watched shrek and ate some green popcorn (made for the release of shrek 2). It was probably better than regular popcorn, I certainly enjoyed the entire day and night. Okay I really have not much more to update on because I have seen you all almost every day this week and since this journal was basically to keep you guys updated...there you go.

I ate 3 Krispy Kream donuts today within an hour and a half. I am feeling like white trash. I keep trying to tell myself that they are smaller than normal donuts (like when you have 3 slices of pizza and you convince yourself they were small slices...we've all done it). However they are so much richer than normal donuts, and you can see them being fried right there in the window. Why? I keep telling myself I need to shed a few vanity pounds so I feel confident about being in a bathing suit this summer, but then I end up eating twice as much as I should. I just can't help myself sometimes...damn those carbohydrates!! Why must they be the tastiest food group!!!

I am currently watching unbreakable with Bruce Willis, I barely understand what is going on. Am I supposed to be scared because I really am not. However they have been having "spoilers" for M. Nigh Shamalyann's new movie (the guy who made Signs and 6th Sense) and it stars adrien brody, Segurney Weaver and Joaquin Phoenix. It looks really really creepy, its called "The Village."

My grandmother in Malta died today, I don't exactly know how to feel about it. I just found out two hours ago from my Brother.I met her and everything, but she didn't speak english so I never really knew her. Granted I am sad because now I will never get the chance. I often wonder if she was just like my mom, or worse or if she was a sweet old woman. Knowing my moms genetics I doubt that. My mom is leaving for Malta on friday to be with her family. I think she will be there for a couple weeks, so I wont see her when I get home. I haven't seen her in 5 months and I have to say, I enjoyed every minute of it. I was dreading going home, living in that house and dealing with her rules, limitations and put downs. At least having two weeks to just get used to being home after geting to live my own life and be happy out here will be a big help. Sometimes I really hate her, and I hate when the horribleness extends to me here. Its crazy to me that she can piss me off when I live 7 hours away. She is just that good, what a dark gift.

I know I should be attempting to study for something but damn is it hard to get motivated. I will be home saturday evening back to the b-lo. I can't wait to see the kitties!! Okay, I am going to attempt to make a study guide so if I feel like studying one of these days, I will be able to. Can't wait to see everyone!

I have been staying at Matt's room the last few nights because it is his finals week and he needs to work on his final model and studying but in order to still see him I need to work around his schedule. I am amazed at how bad guys make fun of each other and pretend that they are still joking like they aren't hurting each other's feelings. Girls do that to other girls that they don't like but guys will say the meanest most offensive things to their best friend and expect them not to be hurt or mad, its common practice. Matts roomate said like three really mean things to him yesterday and I couldn't believe that kid could sit there and pretend he was joking. I could tell it hurt Matt but he denied it to me the whole night, I just couldn't believe it. Guys, testosterone is not a brick wall fellas, you are allowed to admit when something hurts you. Whatev

Has anyone seen that british comedy Calender Girls? I am curious about it however I really have no desire to see old british women naked. I think we should start supporting movies with real women with real wrinkles instead of this whole botox and face lift phenomenon. Who knows what we are going to find out about the chemicals and surgery involved, it could turn into something deadly. Nothing that does what it does can be healthy.

Exams are coming up next week and I am not too worried about them, I just wish that they were over. Matt goes home this Saturday and he'll be there for a week, then he's driving back up next Saturday to pick me up and bring me back to the B-lo. I had an exam on Monday but I had it switched to Saturday so that I could get home sooner. Not to mention Matt and I have never been apart for more than 7 days, and an exam on Monday would have us apart for 10 days.

I saw 13 Going on 30 on Friday....OMG it was soooo very good!!! I could be a bit biased as I love anything 80's always have (yes long before it became the cool thing to do) and I adore Jennifer Garner. She is so adorable in this movie, I am so jealous, I so want to be her or at least her best friend. It was hilarious, even matt loved it (he was one of exactly 3 guys in the theater!) and it was touching, I cried at the weirdest times too, and of course I cried at the end. I wanted to see it again right after I saw it.

I am going to miss this city so bad, I can't even imagine how bad. Part of me misses it already...But I will get to see my cats and I miss them so much too. Grrr, its always a trade off. I get to have my cats and all my friends and no school, but I have to leave my freedom, my city and getting to sleep with matt every night. Okay I have to go get some ice cream....because I can

I am here in my room skipping my accounting class. Why? who really knows, I hate this class, and I already have missed my fair share of classes but my grades are pretty good so I don't feel as bad. It is such a beautiful friday I can't wait to be outside in that gorgeous Boston sunshine.
Last night Matt and I went to the Bruins game at the fleet center. Wow, Boston hockey fans are so crazy. I had so much fun, I wish I would have went to more during the season. It was game five of seven in the playoffs for the stanley cup. Bruins lost last night miserably (1-5) but the thing that was insane was how very bad the refs were, and the montreal canadiens were such wusses. This one guy kept faking injuries to try and get the bruins penalty, it was painfully obvious. There was a good few minute chant among the crowd of "these refs suck!" Very amusing.
I had a very long talk with mk the other night. I am glad I was candid and said exatly how I felt, as I always do, but I just want her to know that I am happy if she is happy and I support anything she does because I trust her judgement. I just wanted her to know that I am always thinking about her and worried about her. But I will be behind her 110% and happy to meet anything or anyone she loves. I miss her and I can't wait to see her and everyone again in a few weeks.
I can't believe I haven't seen everyone in almost 5 months. I can't believe I haven't petted my cats in almost 5 months. I miss them soooooooo much. Everytime I go to a store and see the cat food isle or see and orange cat stuffed animal I can't help but cry a little inside. I made matt change the channel when we were watching alien because segourney weaver has an orange kitty that looked so much like amber. It made me sad.
I think that is all my update for now, how boring my entries are, no humor at all anymore...I kinda wish I was at darien lake today with everyone like the day when everone came to see john mayer. That was fun...good times.

I was just wondering if anyone really reads my journal, because I don't feel like they do. I really don't care if people don't, but I am just curious if people do, and if so, who? E-mail me at duchess12@hotmail.com or mention it in your journal if you get too lazy to do that. Thank you for satisfying my curiosity

So those of you who have turned 21 recently and are wondering where your presents are, don't worry they are coming. I hope you got the cards...hopefully those were on time. I have 3/4 of MK's present done and I'm pretty sure I am picking up the last element of it and mailing it out today. As for Jillian I have been searching all month for the right gift for you and really I am finding it harder than usual. I wanted to get you guys the kind of gifts you probably wouldn't find in Buffalo. Really crazy or nice stuff that only a big city can provide, but I am finding this difficult. There were many things I know you guys would have probably liked but nothing that has stood out. Last weekend I bought the main part of MK's present and I hope that she finds it fun and different. I found it at a comic book store and Matt and I laughed for like ten minutes and we knew it was perfect. I had fun carrying it around the streets of Boston and when you see it you will understand why. Once again today I will be looking for Jill's present. I also have to find something for my cousin who turned 18 the same day as Jill's birthday. I am already on the lookout for Jen's present, but somehow I feel like her gift will be easier (maybe because I can focus on it and not have to think about two other people's presents at the same time). Craziness.
Tomorrow I am going to this cartoon festival at the boston symphony. Matt wanted to go so I suprised him with tickets. Apparently they show looney toons cartoons that use classical music or symphony type stuff from 10 to 4. They do tours of the symphony hall, and let you play instruments and they have face painting and the boston animal rescue society will be there etc. So basically we will be the only non-parents over the age of 10 in attendence. Hmmm fun? I don't know but when I find out I will tell you.
Yesterday I went to my public speaking class and all these kids had their posterboards and outlines and were making presentations and this girl was like "hey whats your topic" and I was like "umm for what?" she was like "you're the first person on the list to do their persuasive speech today" I thought I was having that dream where it was the big test and I didn't study or something. Everyone has had that dream or one like it, like that episode of full house where DJ was having a nightmare about taking her SAT's and she had a #2 pencil and they only accepted #4, and for some reason she had to wear a clown nose and vanna white guest starred? Does that one ring a bell? Anyway so I thought I was literally having that dream. Cause at first I got all nervous and then I was like oh I'm just having that dream again. BUT NO, it wasn't a dream! For the first time in my academic career I was COMPLETELY unprepared for a major assignment or project. I planned on doing it this weekend cause I thought it was due next week. I didn't't even have a topic yet. My teacher (who already hates me, as mentioned in the previous entry) was not pleased, and gave me some lecture about "fresh fish" or fish not being fresh? I don't know what she was talking about, it was some analogy or metaphor that I was not picking up on, whatever, bottom line is that if they don't have time to hear my speech Tuesday then I have to have a meeting with her alone. Talking to her during class makes my skin crawl, I can't even imagine spending "quality" time with that crazy woman. And she's not the fun crazy either, she's the 'one step away from being the woman talking to the people in the bilboard on the subway' kind of crazy. I digress...
OMG did anybody see the so called "April Fools" episode of the osbournes yesterday? It was the most horrible thing I have ever encountered. It looked like a regular episode but in the episode Jack was having this problem with sleep walking and they would show it each night with the night vision camera, and at one point he woke up hitting his bulldog lola, which was horrible but then it got worse. Th
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xt night they showed Sharon's favorite dog mini the cream colored pomeranian walking into Jack's room and jack "sleepwalking" (which looked quite authentic) picked up the dog and all you saw was him bear hugging it and heard these doggie whimpers and then dead silence. The next scene they show is ozzy and sharon looking for mini all over the house the next morning, Jack gets woken up by them calling for her and realizes that he has smothered the dog in his sleep so he gets up really quickly puts the dog's body in a duffle bag and sneaks out the front door swearing. Then later he calls ozzy and tells him he did something really stupid and says that he killed mini. Until this point matt and I watching it in absolute horror didn't think he actually killed the dog because "they wouldn't really show that on tv" he thought it was just hurt, or at least he kept trying to convince me of it. When I realized the dog really was dead I burst out crying I was so upset that I had just heard the cries and seen a little pomeranian (my favorite breed) die and I knew how much sharon loved that dog and how devastated I would be if my cat suddenly died. So I am bawling, hard core animal sounds and all and matt jumps up and changes the channel. After I calmed down he turned back to it for a minute as the credits were about to roll they say some sort of april fools thing and put up that no dogs were harmed in the making of the show and that mini was still alive. I was absolutely horrified that they would do that on tv and to their viewers. Matt was so angry that they made me cry, he vows never to watch the show again and we used to watch the show all the time. Okay well on that note I have to get going and make something for lunch and pick up mk's present stuff and hopefully mail it out. goodbye everyone

Today while I was out Mike IMed me saying that I don't update enough and that I have "dissapeared of the face of the earth" so I took this as my cue to update. I would update more if I had something interesting to say or if anything new really ever happened to me, that, and if I had more time.
Today I got up and went to my Public Speaking class (this should be a fun and easy class I realize but not the way my teacher teaches it, so to me it is tortuous). I took a midterm in there and thank god it was open book because otherwise I would not have passed and I need to pass so I can get out of there and never have to think about it again. Then I went back to my room to make sure Matt was up for his class and to get my books. I have had a free single since the second week of this semester when my roommate moved out so Matt has stayed over every night since. He hasn't even been back at his room in over a month. We should probably just get an apartment, but that would bring more confusion to our already hectic lives. Then I went to my travel geography class where I semi-aced this test on egypt. After that we proceeded to watch this incredibly boring video about egypt where I literally fell asleep. that hasn't happened in class in a very long time. Then after class I got lunch (poptarts and soup- yes I am a college student) and settled in watch Ellen. todays episode I have been anticipating all week (yes this the most excitement of my week, and now you see why I don't update) because Heath Ledger was on it. Did you know that Heath Ledger can play the digery-doo?? Well now you do. after watching that I took a nap for an hour before making my way down the oh so fashionable newbury street to work. I worked an 8 hour shift almost entirely alone (with the exception of my manager) and made almost $10 in tips (which is a lot for working at Ben and Jerry's). Wesley Clarks political advisor came in and I served him (he gave me a $2 tip and has a very hot son who looks live a very metrosexual John Mayer, he was probably gay thinking about it now). Then I went home for the night after my shift (at approx. 9pm)
Apparently President Bush was in town at Park Plaza (which is basically across the street from my dorm) for some sort of campaign fundraising thing which I did not know about because I was working all day. Crazy. There is also apparently a serial killer on the loose in Worcester (about a half hour from my school) who has killed three women already...creepy. Hmmm what else...I am getting about $300 back from taxes which I am hopfully putting aside for spring break next year. Matt and I have pinkey sworn that we are going to save up and go to disney world next year for spring break after being stuck here while everyone else was out having fun. Anyone who can aford it, or has the discipline to save up is invited.
I saw Mona Lisa smile the other day, I rented it on video. Eh, it was nothing special, I was kind of dissapointed. I can't exactly say what I didn't like, just know I didn't. Okay more on my exciting life tomorrow because someone is at my door...goodnight