I love that I told my cousin that we would go shopping at 1 tomorrow and it is already 3am, and since I need at least 10 hours of sleep on a non school day for me to actually get out of bed as well as an hour to shower then its not happening. She's going to call me and wake me up and I am going to be pissed, but she also invited me over for dinner so if I bail out on shopping I don't get dinner tomorrw. Its so funny how much I have no money right now that I need to rely on whatver dinner invitation I get to eat. During Thanksgiving break I was not concerned about the ammount that I was spending and I wasn't really thinking about my $400 deposit on my new school or christmas presents or my train ticket home. I had saved $300 which is quite a lot for me to have accumulated and I was expecting to go back to my nanny job when I got back to school when the family got back from Ireland. Well now I wish I had been concerned and tried to save more than I did. My nanny family came back and fired me with rumors that they were bringing back a girl from ireland to be a full time nanny. So there went my main income, so then I thought that I could just return my books for the remaining two hundred for the deposit as I spent a hundred on a train ticket home leaving me with $200. However returning my books gave me only $70. I am not only in debt for the remaining deposit money but I need to buy Christmas presents for my family and secret santa (as well as have some money for my secret santa dinner and new years). Matt and I already decided that we wont exchange gifts until after we get back to Boston which is later than 2 weeks after christmas which is depressing because I look forward to his gifts the most. Now my work tells me they are shutting down the factory for cleaning and repairs until the 5th of January which only gives me a week of work before I go back to school. I hate money and how unless you have it there is nothing to do or eat and I hate how in order to get money yu have to work. I hate working, and responsibility. I think I really hate working because it is so structured. Maybe if I was allowed to wake up naturally at whatever time my body feels fit (alarm clock alarms are my biggest pet peeve, the mere sound makes me angry literally very angry especially if they are loud alarms with straight beeping) and get ready at my own pace, and set my own days and hours then I would not care about having to work so much. If my job allowed all of those things I wouldn't care what I did, even cleaning elephant poop or pornography. The same I feel with school, I would have A's in every class if I could do it my way. Whatever.
So I got back to the B-flo Thursday at like 1am after a 13 hour train ride with Matt. Being with him made it only seem like 5-7 hours. I thought it was going to be horrible, but it was actually pretty fun kind of like an adventure. I prefer it to a seven hour car ride with matts dad (mainly because of the latter who feels that I am a distraction from Matts work and doesn't totally apporve of our relationship even though I am a lot of the reason Matt does sit down and do his work etc) We watched movies on his computer played simpson's clue and UNO and I didn't even really sleep at all (I nodded off for a half hour during monsters inc).
Today we went to Mikes dinner party which was quite delightful. I would not have believed that Mike could have pulled it off on his own had I not been there, but the food was delicious. The chicken was great despite my quandry about the oranges being cooked inside it. I am one of those people who doesn't try many new tastes with old food that I already like, especially when it involves fruit and meat or poultry. I guess I just like to keep my food groups pretty seperate with a few exeptions, but I must admit the chicken was very good and the mashed potatoes were quite a crowd pleaser(the cheese was a great thing as always). The conversation was good and my dancing was better, but
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er and zobmndo brought the house down as always. Good times. But now I must sleep as it is almost 4am and I know my cousin will undoubtedly wake me up too soon so goodnight everyone.

Wow, Boston is just recovering from a snow storm, I have been stuck at Matt's dorm for the second day in a row and will be missing class tomorrow due to a driving ban. While this sounds fun, tomorrow is my last day of french and American civ and I will be missing the review I so desprately need. Grr I hate snow. Not to mention that my boots are in my room 10 miles away and I have been taking on the storm in my red sneakers that get wet the second I step foot into the snow.
I have $200 dollars in my bank right now and I am hoping to make $200 in returning books so that I can make the $400 deposit for my new school that is due soon. Not to mention that whole christmas thing. The deposit will take up all of the money I have had saved for christmas. The factory I was hoping to work at over break shuts down for the week of christmas and then it will be another two weeks before I get my first pay check. Talk about a lousy holiday, oh well I am not homeless and I keep telling myself that so that I don't feel as bad. My mom is gonna be pissed that I won't have any presents for everyone. Strangely I bought hers before my economic depression but then her birthday is the day after christmas and I have no gift for that. Sometimes you just can't win. Graa.
I love the family guy, I am sorry that I didn't watch it when the episodes were coming out new. The stuff is so random and hilarious. Okay there is a free midnight breakfast at matts school that I need to take advantage of, because I have never been one to turn down free food and that explains a lot. goodnight.

Yesterday I was informed that I got into both of the schools that I applied to this semester. I am going to tour the remaining one on Saturday before I make a final decision, but the one that I toured last time will be tough to beat. I am very excited to get the hell out of here (my roomate was even more thrilled then I was). You know how the day that you know you are going to get your hair cut, your hair looks better than it ever has? Thats kind of how Curry College was for me today. I want to get out of here, I want to be more in the city, I want my old major, and I want to be closer to matt, but I spent the whole day today hanging out with these kids that I hang out with once in a great while, and I had like the best time. They are all pretty good friends because they've been hanging out together all the time this semster so I knew I was a bit out of the loop but I know that if I hung out with them a little more I would totally be in with them. And even though I was still technically out of the group I had an amazing time. Moving on, I've been thinking about my factory job that I have to go back to this christmas break and I am really dreading it. Thank god it will probably only be for like two or three weeks. I hope I can even get through that much, how did I ever do it this summer?
OMG My roommate is watching real sex on HBO and trying to pass it off like she's watching it because it's the funniest thing she's ever seen. Yeah sometimes its funny when you catch it when flipping channels but if you aren't really interested, you don't watch it for the full hour by yourself. She had a guy in here earlier and my friend Ferris and I were trying to embarass her and it was hilarious. She has been such a slut lately. There were three different guys in here this week. I gotta give her props for catching so many guys when she doesn't believe in pre-marital anything (and she's startlingly ugly), thinking about it, forget the props those guys probably didn't realize that she wasn't into naked time until halfway through the chick flicks she made them each watch. No wonder why it was a different guy each time, not to mention they were mad weirdos. The guy tonight had crooked and some missing teeth and could not pronounce his s's...real winner.
Matt has been working on his final projects non-stop which is good because he's such a procrastinator but I really miss him. I haven't really seen him at all since we've been back from thanksgiving break. Thats been really hard for me. And Mary Kate Maloy I miss her too I've seen her for only two hours in three months and then she was off to penn. I wondered if her lecturing aunt had murdered her because I hadn't seen or heard from her, she hasn't updated her journal and for a while she wasn't on aim.
How do I check this elmwoodstrip mail? I have no concept of where I retrieve it, someone let me know. So much more to say but not enough time to say it, story of my life. Alrighty tv and bed call...goodnight everyone!

So it's 1:16 in the afternoon and I recently just got up. I guess I shouldn't be suprised that I missed both of my classes today because it happens so frequently but I am pretty mad at myself for letting it happen again. I think it's just that I know I can pass without going and that I really hate being here, but I forget that attendence does count as part of my grade here and I should have learned after failing my english class my first semester freshman year because I missed too many classes. I hope that they would at least tell me that I was in danger of failing because of attendence but they didn't with my english class at mo-ville so again I should know better. Grrr. I won't get to see matt until at least tomorrow night and that depresses me because seeing him is generally what I look forward to after being stuck in this hole. I have crap to do today and I guess I should get started on it but then the depressed side of me is saying to sit around in my pajammas all day, but I like variety and I did that yesterday.
I really wish I had some friends down here it's not so fun spending all day alone and waiting for the few hours at night when I get to see Matt. It's pretty pathetic. It would be so nice to have friends here because there is so much stuff to do in Boston and it would be nice to try a lot of new things, but I generally don't want to do things by myself. It kinda sucks because Matt litterally only gets off his campus on the weekends and only then if there is good reason to. I would love to do fun stuff during the week, it would break things up and probably take away some of the depression or at least the focus on the depression, but Matt either has to much work, or wants to relax because he's had too much work. I need some friends bottom line. I guess I am going to have to make a conscious effort to make friends at my next school. However if I go to my first choice school there are only 600 students and that could be a problem.
Okay it's about time I showered and attempted to do something with my day. I will probably update later when I have something worthwhile to say about my day. Later.