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07/05/04 12:27 - ID#20798

Sad Day

I don't know why really but I just feel a little down lately? So while I was already feeling down, I was taking pictures in my room to try to cheer myself up by getting interested in a project. I took a picture of my fish tank and I am zooming in on it after I take the picture and I am wondering what this thing is in the picture. I look up at my fish tank and my frog is dead. I have had my frog since i first got the tank about a year and a half ago-he was the last surviver of the original fish tank. I was so sad that I was crying and went downstairs to my parents and sat on their laps. WHen am i ever going to grow up?-i really don't think i am ever going to be able to move out of my house.

I did nothing for the fourth. In fact I didn't even watch fireworks. I was taking a bath at the time trying to figure out why I am so sad? I don't wish i had done something I just wish I felt more in the spirit!!
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07/03/04 08:35 - ID#20797

Accident

Today when driving home from meeting one of the Polish boyz that I am going out with tonight, on the 290 there was a most disturbing car accident. I know its not exactly on the "strip" but did anyone see it? It was so so creepy. All I really saw though was a red convertible on its side across 3 lanes with glass all around it. Does anyone know how it happened or if anyone died? I hope no one did but it looked horrible.

Robin-I would say the order of pics from left to right is Matt->Terry->Paul. Is that right? I am sorry about the punk that stole your $5 and cell phone! What a jerk!!!

MK-thanks for the thoughtful response to my entry! I am glad that you had so much to say about it. Yea i don't remember all of what you or I wrote, but basically everyone should do what they want-but I don't recommend on giving up on life and doing really cool things just because of a significant other. There are just many things that I don't want to end up like-and although I do think people would be happier if they took my advice that doesn't mean I think they should.

So I plan to have a good time tonight and I hope to see many of you out and you guys can help me give the Polish boys a good time.

Oh and my mom is the one that set me up with them and she saw what I looked like when i met the one and she was really mad that i looked so bad/ugly when i saw him because she told him that her daughter was "good-looking." Its nice to know my mom thinks so much of me-hahahah.
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06/30/04 02:35 - ID#20796

DAMN IT

I just had a whole long entry abou all kinds of "important stuff" and I LOST IT-ahhh I am so mad. I was trying to add a sketch which i also lost to the entry which I apparently cannot figure out how to do. ahh I am so mad

I will recapture SOME Of it....

So I got up early and went to the gym again 7:45

Posting my entries early does not seem to get me into bed any earlier since I still went to bed last night at 1:30ish.

Mike and I went to AAA and put tickets on hold for $158.80 for Tampa-AMAZING price.

I am trying to calmn myself down about Justin, cause I get too wound up when I talk to him. It is just bad! But I seriously CANNOT wait to see him. It's been over a year.

My dad is upset at my sister and I for not writing out the standard nice Father's Day card. Generally holidays we write out really nice cards which bring him to tears. But we did get him presents and baked him a cherry crumble thing. But I decided that i didn't want to write out those kinds of cards unless I was actually feeling sentimental cause then I would actually be writing from my heart. This is the only way I think these cards should be written. They mean more than if it is EXPECTED-cause you know it is real. So I am upset that I was upset at.

Metalpeter I will be sure to try to remember to refer to you as Peter.

Jesse-I am sorry that you had a crap crap day...I know what ya mean.

Jill-I am sorry about the concert...that totally sucks. Don't worry though, there will be plenty a' concerts to cheer you up :-)
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06/30/04 02:28 - ID#20795

Florida

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06/29/04 06:12 - ID#20794

I NEED A PICTURE

Jill tried to tell me how to upload a pic, cause it always says the file is too big...but I forgot. Can someone please help me?
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06/29/04 06:07 - ID#20793

Early Journals = More Sleep

It is a lot earlier than I normally update my journal. But I figure that if I update it now then I can get to bed early tonight. Yeah!!! Especially since Mike and I are planning on going to AAA tomorrow to make more solid plans for Florida-which I cannot wait to go-YEAH!!!

I would like to announce that I have still been going to the gym. Infact, the only day I missed in like the last two weeks was last Friday...but I did walk home (okay to Jill's) from Pano's so that has to be about 2 miles. Between stairmaster and the treadmill I went OVER 3 miles, like 3.5. SCORE!!! But food has been so appealing lately that it has been hard to stop eating :-( :-)

Do you think most people prefer to be in relationships? I think that they do. I feel like Carrie from Sex and the City how she wrote on relationships...except I don't' say anything interesting or had good advice. No one wants to hear anything about anyone else's opinion anyways. But its just that some people in my life are so attached to their relationships that it consumes their life and I really don't want to end up like that. It just makes me sad-but I supposed since most of the time they aren't sad I shouldn't be either for them. I just think that sometimes people give up after finding someone-as if that was the big "O" in their life and they can finally stop searching-but I think that is soul depriving.

My sister is thinking about travel nursing of course with Steve and Cid. That would be so sad if she moved away...but you know what would be really cool?-If she took me with them and we all raised her and the next mystery child. That would be amazing!!! We could go to Hawaii or Chicago or NY or even internation!!! Man that would be the life, watching babies and not working while traveling. Nope, you really couldn't beat that!

(oh and thank you metalpeter for answering my entries!!)
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06/29/04 06:05 - ID#20792

Oh the places I could go...

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06/29/04 01:35 - ID#20791

SPACE

I have been thinking more about this whole giving people space thing-especially boyfriends. The thing is that is why so many relationships fail. There is one rule that I have found to be quite true no matter the situation-"We retreat from that which pursues" Run after something and it will go away...magnets are a good example of this. This quote was said in the movie The Tao of Steve-if you would like a better explanation. A pretty good movie. It also talks about how relationships have become our national religion. It is even more important than God-I see ALOT of truth to this. People need to get over relationships. Hahaha-which is why all of my entries about about the opposite sex, right?-hahaha. Maybe my way of giving it up should be to stop talking about it?-Okay yea that is not going to happen.
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06/28/04 03:02 - ID#20790

Digital Get Down

Since I have been talking about how I want to get into photography-today i was going to get a digital camera. I was going to get a Cannon at Target for about $150. Is that a good price? I so want one. I mean my family has one, but I am so afraid of runining it. Plus I am going to need one in the future when I go away.

Six Feet Under is such a good show-but nothing has been happening AT ALL? What is up with that?

Oh I am excited because I got ahold of the Polish boys and we are going out Thursday I think, as well as my dairy girlz I hope-Savanah and Samantha.

So I think this website is a very strange thing-but in a good way. Like it is strange to write semi-personal things that one may have to admit to later to people in person. It is kind of a test to see how open a person is. It is one thing to tell a computer screen and quite another to confront personal things one has said. I do like it-and yet it still kinda scares me.

Oh and if anyone notices that I am getting possessive of people in anyway please let me know. I really don't want to be that kind of woman. Please God just let me be a hippie!-there is nothing wrong with mate swapping or whatever its called.
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06/27/04 12:27 - ID#20789

Getting Along

I am still trying to recover and catch up on sleep that I am desperately in need of. Although part of me would really like to get ahold of the 4 Polish boys in town and go out. NO...I have to work tomorrow!

Today as I was coming home from Shogun for my sister's birthday, I was thinking about how nice it would be if people just actually thought more about people other than themself. It just seems cliche to be mean to people at their place of employment-does it not? Everyone does it-people just have no respect for people as human beings. I guess most people feel overworked and generally at the edge-so asking a customer in anyway to be considerate just pushes them over the edge. Does that make sense? Maybe people just need to chill out and do nothing more often, so they don't always feel so on the brink of a breakdown.

You know what I think is silly (that we all do-yeah most definitely me too!)? That we always think that we somehow own people. For some reason or another we think that we have dibs to tell people what to do or think. Especially in relationships-I think we just need to let loose and let people do what they want. But we instead sacrifice (sp?) freedom for a fake sense of security. It just seems silly. Just because boys many a time like my friends over myself doesn't mean I should dislike anyone in the situation but myself if I could not deal with it. But I have to say that I haven't really ever been in a relationship-but God help not become a possessive petty bitch whose life revolves around her "boyfriend." Its for people that don't have enough of a life and needs to depend on others for their sense of fulfillment. You know what?-I just might be one of these people?????
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