I suppose that this entry is kind of in conjunction with my last because lately I have been thinking a lot about self-discipline and the ability to regularly make the choices that make you proud of your actions at the end of the day.

Why is it that we find it so difficult not to engage in activities that provide immediate pleasure, i.e. eating, drinking, etc or on the other hand motivate ourself to do the things that make us feel healthy and good, i.e. exercise?

I suppose this is something that I have always had quite an interest in and think that I really quite enjoy exercising control over my actions so that I regularly just do those things that you always wish you had the motivation to force yourself to do (or not).

I have to say that lately I've really been quite good at controlling myself but find it really intriguing why we have such difficulty with this as humans? I mean, I think we all go through phases where its easier or harder to exercise this restraint and control.

This past weekend I managed to go to a bar on both Friday and Saturday without having a single drink! I can't remember the last time I did that and it felt so good and inspiring! That is probably also a really sad/pathetic statement!

Everyone certainly has their vice(s) and we judge others for their inability to engage or disengage in whatever behavior. Although different behaviors create varying degrees of negative consequences, I see our struggles as all the same when it comes to struggling against ourself - that feeling of temptation is universal regardless of the consequences. Even if the stakes are high, that doesn't necessarily mean that the feeling of temptation becomes easier to resolve within yourself, which can be really unfortunate!

PS. My writing is quite jumbled but I hope the point is understandable.