Okay, so that plan to stay sober just didn't happen. I really think it was necessary that i did a little drinking, in moderation its alright. It had been over a month so that is good enough for me. Last night through today has been most eventful-but damnit I need to actually do something productive. So Thursday night was a crazy night. Let's just say I got home at 8:30, and I don't mean at night. It was very interesting! My first naked dance party-are those even legal?-not sure but I may want to participate in one before the end of the summer? I have to say though that I would like to be sober when I do decide to take off my clothes. So other than that I had a lengthy and most enjoyable make out session.

I really should be in bed getting ready to work (9:30-6) instead of updating my journal-but I just couldn't help it!!

Tonight was interesting as well. The prom party was really great. What an absolutely BEAUTIFUL house-I was totally impressed! The people were great too. I cannot believe how sweet elmwood people are. I like Elmwood the more i hang out there. It feels like such a close community on elmwood and i just love it. So I just want to say thanks to everyone for being so nice and fun to hang out with!!!

Alright everyone get enough sleep and rest up this weekend-I hope that I will do the same!!!

Yes, I am going to once again talk about the need for a late night booty call. So sad...at the start of the summer I made a goal to have 8 fine young men that I can call up/talk to when I need some late night action. Hum...I have none as of now. I think that I really need to get on top of this!

Point for me I once again went to the gym! I think that is like 3 times this week? I plan on getting up around 9ish tomorrow and going. I have so been slacking on this summer research project-I need to get some direction. Tomorrow I am going to start up again and find my compass.

I am looking forward to a nice picnic and Shakespeare in the park tomorrow!

I realized something tonight. Although I desire more than anything to be a hippie and believe in communal living-living for the community and good of everyone-connecting with people etc., I really don't want to push that on other people. I want a peaceful heart that is more easy going than I am. I think that i try to force things too much instead of letting them happen.

I don't know why but i have so much been wanting to drink lately-weird! I usually don't, but of course I have to work sat and sun. Not to mention I wanted to wait until Florida to drink, which looks like I won't be going until July 15th or so. That will be like 2.5 months of not drinking. I think? But yea, I don't know I just think its about time.

So, I hope everyone is preparing for an eventful weekend. Friday seems to be a big day for everyone seems to have many plans! But this girl is going to be sober :-( :-)

So I would guess that i am not alone on this one, but in the same breath I don't want to admit to it. But am I the only person that regularly needs a booty call late at night? Is that bad to admit to? Maybe I will delete this later? I can't help but bring it up because it is such a reocurring problem-hahaha!!!

I would like to make a comment on what Maureen said in her journal. I can see what you are saying about being insincere about what you write because it is public. It is kind of a neat exercise to see if you can publicaly admit to what you would think to write in a journal. Not that that many people are even going to see mine, but just if it were to come up-could i admit to it without feeling embarrassed? So I hope that doesn't happen.

Another thing that I am not sure that I want to make public-well quasi public maybe I should say? Is that I want this to be the summer of my breasts! I am sick of wearing bras. Okay not that I am not going to wear one, but I want to find tops with built in bras cause it is just so much more comfortable!!! I highly recommend it!

Just to update I did go to the gym today, but only made it to a little over 2 miles cause I ran a little short on time-hahaha!

I realize that I have not posted ANY interesting facts. Well i did read one in Time today-but everyone has pry already hear it. I guess the 9/11 plan originally involved 10 planes with Osama on the 10th. He was going to kill all the men on it, land the plane, give an anti-america speech, and then let the women and children go. I thought it was quite interesting and very creepy. Oh and I also read someone think that Shakespeare might have actually been a woman-Sidney something?-I forget. Strange! That was in Time-wow it doesn't sound so interesting when i say it like that.

Alright well I hope everyone is having a peaceful/exciting evening or day.

The strangest thing happened today. I saw this kid Rikki from my fourth grade class in AAA. I have not seen him since 4th grade but he actually remembered my name, which is mind boggling to me because my name is not the easiest to rememeber. I mean if he didn't remember me though it would have been very awkward. I interrupted his session with his travel agent and his buddy. "Yea, no I don't remember you sorry." So that was insane!

I was driving home from Steve Baldo's getting my rental car which I am excited about as long as I don't wreck it in any way. I could have it for up to two weeks?-THey don't know when the parts are going to come in? So anyways...I am driving home and these 2 kids about my age come up to the side of me and take a picture with a funsaver camera...wave....and speed ahead. It was so weird!!!

So I totally want to get into working out again. My goal is daily to run/stairmaster about 3 miles a day. While we are on the subject of "health" I don't know why but i really hate this Atkins craze. I don't generally get annoyed-I don't think? But it just annoys me that EVERYWHERE has to jump onto the band wagon (2 words??).

I had never heard the word Blog before until Saturday. I suppose that is probably because I am last to know everything, and don't make enough of an effort to know what is going on in this world. But now the word seems to be everywhere!!! I didn't even realize I was apart of one.

My car is a bit wrecked from an accident Friday. I am hoping it all turns out well with the insurance.

I am desperately looking forward to a trip to Florida with Mike and maybe Maureen if she would grace us with her presence.

I really need to do something creative-maybe even a couple of things. I want to really be more committed to my guitar, work on poetry, and maybe even take up photography??? If anyone has any tips, please let me know.

So today I found out at our pharmacy meeting that we were named number one for customer service out of all the Wegmans pharmacies. This is a HUGE deal!!! So i recommend that everyone bring their prescriptions to the Amherst street pharmacy-which of course happens to be just off of Elmwood!

I don't know if it is just because of this site, but I really think that "the strip" is the best part of Buffalo. I think its because it is about as Hippie as you can get around here. And I totally wish i was a Hippie. Most people are just really cool and diverse and open. It is a lovely area, that just feels so close knit and art-sy (sp?) (which I am NOT, but would like to be). Actually, my word-a-day calendar had a good word to go along with Elmwood: Convivial, which means good food and interesting conversation.

Although I have had a journal since the 5th grade, i have never had one on-line. So i guess that means keeping all of the strange and random thoughts to myself?-wait then what fun would a journal be? I am excited about this journal, I just hope that i can make that kind of commitment right now in my life. So I would like the following to be main attractions in my journal:

1. Cool information that i find out (this could take some effort)
2. Random thoughts
3. Random cool questions
4. Probably lotz of lists
5. Progress on my path to self (corny-YES but vital to this journal i think?)

I have come to a revelation this week...I do not like Chippawa as much as Elmwood. I always thought that i liked it better but now I have to say that I have really noticed the difference in the crowds, and I am partial to Elmwood.

So tonight I am willing to admit that I watched "You got served" The movie if you took out everything BUT the dance scenes was entertaining. I may have to buy the soundtrack even though I am not a big sound track type person because the music was just THAT good!!!

My question for this entry is: (can you hear the drum roll???) Do you think people underestimate our ability to deal with emotionally stressful situation?

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I think that we do. We seem to always think that anything we feel that isn't good is unacceptable. So often we feel on the edge, but i think that it is because society does not give us that support saying its okay to have emotional difficulty. I think we are just really scared of emotional pain and i definitely do not exclude myself.

I feel like i need a signature ending like "Seacrest (SP?) out" or "Take care of yourself and each other." Maybe i will work on that?