"heartbreak even" written by Museumchick on estrip.org

Category: dating

11/02/07 12:58 - 47ºF - ID#41941

heartbreak even

I was thinking about the link that (e:joshua) posted on dating.
With Aaron, I would say that I fit under number 2. I keep my distance at times because I somehow expect him to change. He told me recently that he loved me, but I keep expecting some kind of catch. That always seems to always be the case. I've gotten to the point where I just don't trust well that things could work out with anyone. It's not fair in the slightest, because he's such a terrific person, and so good to me, and I am feeling the same way about him.

Anyway, enough of that. I'm leaving in a few minutes to visit Aaron for the weekend, so that will be nice.

-Jess

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

10/27/07 03:45 - 57ºF - ID#41837

before halloween

I hope that the estrip party will go great! I wish I could be there. Post lots of pictures! *grins*

I'm moving on Monday. There was an unexpected opening in one of the on-campus apartments in Empire Commons. It's closer to everything, and somewhat less expensive than what I'm paying now. I don't have a lease on my current apartment. So i think that should be a good change. My dad offered to come up and help me move.

I don't really have any fun plans for Halloween. To be honest, I don't really know anyone here too well yet. I mean, there's people in my classes that I talk to when I'm around school- but I haven't been out with them outside of school. I'm kind of shy around people I don't know well, so it's hard for me to go up to people sometimes.

I am going to Brockport to see Aaron next Friday. I'm so excited!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

10/24/07 10:29 - 49ºF - ID#41776

i write on a rainy october day

I just read on yahoo news that the winds in California aren't supposed to be as severe today, so hopefully the fires won't spread as fast as they were yesterday. I feel so bad for everyone having to deal with this. I hope everything will be okay for anyone here who might be affected by it.

Thanks so much to everyone with the cooking advice! That was awesome and much appreciated. It's funny... I tried to cook chicken-flavored rice a roni the other day and butchered it. It tasted like barbeque-a-roni.

I'm mostly doing pretty good. School is going well and things at my job are fine, though, it's stressful keeping up with everything. I've been battling a bunch of respiratory infections. I think because my immune system is kind of down from being on prednisone. Maybe I should take more Vitamin C or something.

I've been reading a lot of Charles Bukowski lately. It's really easy to get into a Bukowski mindset. I'd like to try reading some of his fiction, too.

I hope all of you will have a great day!
-Jess

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: cooking

10/17/07 09:06 - 59ºF - ID#41683

since we've had some food posts lately..

I have a confession: I can't really cook. Or I do cook, but not well, at any rate.

What's the best way I can learn to make real (simple( meals? Do you know of any good books/websites to help me get started?

I should mention my apartment has a stove and microwave, but no oven.

theecarey writes at 11:07:16 10/17/07 - Comment #26520: I think Rachel only makes stuff look easy.

I hear ya! I guess to get better at cooking it takes practice. I'd like to be able to learn to make a few things really well. OK, so you have a microwave and a stove top. Do you have a toaster oven? while not able to accommodate much, there are some things that you can make in one when you need an oven of some sort. (like cookies!)

I am usually looking for simple-easy myself, as I:

1. have a small kitchen with little room for appliances, prepping, storing, etc
2. often cook only for myself. Bowl of cereal usually works but sometimes want something more substantial. Raman noodles dont count.
3. hate following long drawn out recipes that require skill, aptitude in following directions and using correct measurements and ingredients.
4. like to create and come up with super yummy stuff, but not at the expense of spending hours, or tons of money to make a dish.

The following site (and others like it) is great for those days you have a bunch of random stuff in your fridge/cupboards but dont know what to make out of any of it. You plug in your ingredients and it generates a recipe for you based on those items. You'll see that it asks for an email address. You do not need to enter one. The recipe will come up in another window.
:::link:::

This is an 'easy recipe' site.
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There are a lot of books available as well. I have quite a few that cater to 'simple and easy' while still be interesting and varied.

good luck :)

tinypliny writes at 10:57:39 10/17/07 - Comment #26519: I beg to differ from this popular praise for cookbooks and whatnots. I think the best way to learn cooking is by cooking.

Start with very basic recipés that you find on the web. If, for instance, you wanted to make a slightly Indian styled onion soup, check out my recipé on (e:Joshua)'s blog. Then, you just jump in and make it.

The proof of the pudding is in the eating. So drink the soup. Now is the time to criticise the soup. Was it tasty? If the answer is yes, then congratulations!! You are a cook already! If not, don't agonize! Experiment. Add some more salt, or decrease/increase/modulate the oil, or modulate the spice level.

Practice makes perfect. Everytime you cook, you are going to learn something new, so I recommend that, instead of buying those glossy cookbooks, you crack the ladles and the pots and open up your laptop and march to your kitchen.

And don't forget to dance while you are making stuff, happiness always seeps into your dish and makes it tastier!! Don't rush your cooking, make sure that you have a nice chunk of time free, before you start! :) Remember that cooking is just that. Cooking.

Good Luck!

james writes at 07:42:51 10/17/07 - Comment #26500: no, no, no. They don't sweat by her, they swear at her.

museumchick writes at 07:41:20 10/17/07 - Comment #26499: (e:james)- thanks, I definitely will have to check Bitman's book out.

(e:libertad)- I've never really watched Rachel Ray, but I know a lot of people who swear by her.

libertad writes at 05:38:59 10/17/07 - Comment #26491: I heard Rachel Ray is good.

james writes at 01:37:57 10/17/07 - Comment #26455: Mark Bitman's How To Cook Everything is a great book for beginners. It is full of recipes of everyday things, delicious things, things you probably grew up eating. There are a few exotic recipes, a few guides to planning a party, a guide to equipment. It is a great book. I wish that was my first cook book instead of the crazy macrobiotic books I had.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: photos

10/16/07 12:50 - 61ºF - ID#41673

over goldengrove unleaving...

I'm really enjoying the beautiful weather lately. It's great going outside in the sunshine and walking through the leaves.

Fall always reminds me of this poem, for some reason:

"Spring and Fall to a young child" by Gerard Manley Hopkins

M�RGAR�T, �re you gr�eving
Over Goldengrove unleaving?
Le�ves, l�ke the things of man, you
With your fresh thoughts care for, can you?
�h! �s the heart grows older
It will come to such sights colder
By and by, nor spare a sigh
Though worlds of wanwood leafmeal lie;
And yet you w�ll weep and know why.
Now no matter, child, the name:
S�rrow's spr�ngs �re the same.
Nor mouth had, no nor mind, expressed
What heart heard of, ghost guessed:
It �s the blight man was born for,
It is Margaret you mourn for.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: music

10/11/07 05:15 - 58ºF - ID#41604

dylan concert

I had a great time at the concert with Aaron. I liked Amos Lee, and Dylan was good (though his voice was in bad shape). The best act of the three was definitely Elvis Costello. He sounded incredible, and was great at interacting with the audience. I loved his versions of Red Shoes, Veronica, Oliver's Army, and I Can't Stand Up for Falling Down.

Here is a picture of Elvis playing (though it's hard to see him):

The best part of last weekend was getting to see Aaron.

Here's a picture of us (definitely not a good picture of me, but it's a good one of Aaron):

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: news

10/06/07 11:42 - 75ºF - ID#41516

pirate treasure found in Cape Cod

I have trouble figuring out how to embed youtube on here, so I thought I'd send a link:

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: albany

10/03/07 09:46 - 68ºF - ID#41471

things I like about Albany

I realize I've been kind of a downer lately, so without further ado...
Top 10 things I like about living in Albany (hope it was okay if I did a top 10 list, (e:drew)):

1. Albany has an interesting blend of history and culture.
2. The countryside is really pretty, and its near the Adirondacks and Catskills.
3. I'm close to the cities I've always wanted to see- NYC, Boston, Montreal. I'm also near New England, which I also hope to travel around.
4. There's lot of museums and cultural events going on.
5. It's really convenient to be in the state capital.
6. I'm very grateful to have a steady job and insurance here.
7. Although my classes have been stressful, I really enjoy the class conversations. My professors are very good, too. I feel stimulated and motivated.
8. It is nice to get to some of my cousins from my dad's family who live here better.
9. There are some great diners here, and uncommon Grounds is good for my java fix (thanks (e:James)).
10. I have my very own apartment (I always shared my living space with other people).

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

10/02/07 11:48 - 60ºF - ID#41450

living arrangements

I've decided I'd like to live with either a puppy or a guy. Since I don't think the "living with a guy" thing will work out soon... I kind of like the thought of having a puppy. Maybe if I find a place that allows animals or something.

jenks writes at 07:55:04 10/02/07 - Comment #25656: Peter I agree that if a dog's whole life is spent locked in a small crate that's no good- but at the same time I think that when used properly and responsibly, crate-training is a good thing for a dog. Especially in multi-dog households.

metalpeter writes at 06:45:07 10/02/07 - Comment #25644: I say go for both. It would be great. When one of you isn't home the other one can walk the dog, maybe the dog wouldn't be as lonely since there would be people there at different times of the day.

To (e:jenks) I agree that if you're living arangements make crating or caging then there is no sense to have a dog it is cruel to the dog. If someone thinks it isn't take the dogs body size and see how many times it can fit in the crate then take that number and times it by the size of you and make a cage that size for your self and stay in it all day. If you where using it just for kinky sex then fine but to live in it is cruel. Dogs have to be active and have some freedom just like any other animal.

jenks writes at 01:00:54 10/02/07 - Comment #25631: I am dying for a dog, but leaving it home in a crate while I work 80/wk wouldn't really be fair... but the second I have better hours, I am getting a puppy/dog. Until then, I live vicariously through others. I stop and pet and coo over every random mutt I see in the street, and yes, I "happen to" wander into the dog park "by accident" on occasion- I'm sure I look like a crazy lady but I don't care.

I say go for it. Men may come and go, but a dog will love you for life!!!

carolinian writes at 12:07:11 10/02/07 - Comment #25628: They both get into lots of trouble, scratch themselves, and destroy cherished things. I guess it depends on which you find easier to train. ;)

james writes at 11:56:50 10/02/07 - Comment #25626: By night Washington park is full of Hookers and drug dealers.

By day it is full of puppies, puppies, puppies!

I missed having pets when I lived in Albany and would go down to the dog park and play with other people's dogs. It was really pathetic of me, but it made me super happy. So, if you get a dog, take him there.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

09/29/07 09:11 - 60ºF - ID#41410

another post

(e:Jenks) gave me some good advice about something, and it helped me out a lot. It made me see things in a different way than I had been. I appreciated having that perspective from someone who was willing to say it like it really was.

It hurts about what has happened over the past few months, but there's very good things that came about as a result of that hurt.

Work hasn't been going that well. I can't get into the situation on a public forum like this..but it's definitely not the best. I have been enjoying my classes (though the workload is very stressful). I especially like my state and society seminar. We get guest speakers each week from the department who introduce us to different fields and specialties. It's fun to have new professors every week. I still don't really know anyone that well. Most people are nice, but they are mostly just people I talk to about school stuff. Hopefully, that will start to change. I think they need an albany estrip or something.

Aaron's coming up next week, and we're going to see Dylan and Costello! I'm so psyched, it helps me get through the drugery of the days. Then, the next week, my sister and her boyfriend are coming up for a visit.