09/28/04 11:53 - ID#20847

Always A Sad Note

I feel like I only ever want to journalwhen I am sad or upset. Damnit that isn't the way it should be!!! But I am going to write anyways. I really think i need to make a firmer committment at work mostly but life in general (its just that its hardest to be nicest at work) to be kinder and more patient to our fellow human being. Sometimes I let my negative thoughts become rampant, when my compassionate/patient thoughts are hiding right behind those mean thoughts. Its just that the mean thoughts are first, so a lot of times I react to them first. But I am learning a lot about patience and persistence lately. I just really want to be able to come to all people in my life from a very honest and jovial place.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/26/04 03:20 - ID#20846

Tired Conversation

I am sick of hearing my own thoughts. My life is surrounded by school, which i think is better than boys cause i know how to effectively turn off my emotions with school-hahaha. But everyone knows how boring school is, sure it can be interesting at times, but damnit its boring! I am pretty overwhelmed with work and I forget what it was like when I didn't have to worry about that. I am learning to become excepting of it all. I still hope that one day I will feel caught up, but that thought is becoming less attainable everyday as i move closer to burnout. I really want to get caught up but I don't have the staminia.

This boring school stuff is interfering with my social life. I don't even want to go out and have fun, but I don't want to do work either. I am stuck. Not to mention my friends are going to be sick of what i have to say about school if they have to hear about it again, and I would feel the same way. Great so now I am going to be boring on top of having to deal with a boring life. Teres needs some excitement, like a suprise trip somewhere or something along those lines. Damnit I need some passion towards something like music or anything, but I am bored.

I am also sick of rides home. Like it always seemed in high school on the way home you had all these revelations of how you wanted to change or felt something really exciting, or was really mad about something. I am sick of those. They are tired to me, all the problems that I have are tired and boring. Not that I want bigger problems, more so the point is why don't i just get over all of it? When will i start being a good person that I find acceptable? Good question!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/22/04 12:51 - ID#20845

Hard Dayz Night

I have seriously been working my butt off. Just about every free moment I have been spending doing something productive (except for right now ofcourse). It has been insane and not in the best way possible. I keep up wiht the hope that I will one day catch up with my school work.

I apologize for my user pic, I tried to change it, but it just ended up blank. what do I do to these machines???

Gosh I just realized that I do not have anything interesting to say. But I do feel that this website just isn't the same without the big nites out. I really do miss them. I don't know I would attend everyone of them because school work sucks, buts its comforting to know they exist. Is there anyway to reinstate that plan?

Actually I do have something funny to say. For those of you that know the story about Florida and what DIDN'T happen (i don't' remember if i posted that or not--not that it isn't hard to figure out what i am talking about), all i have to say is that he didn't know what offer was being put on the table.

Oh and Boxerboi (Matt) is leaving the pharmacy. I am going to miss him dearly, he always made me laugh and not feel so bad about all the mistakes that I make in pharmacy. Matt I am totally going to miss you!!!!

And I almost forgot to write about my Polish boys. My cousin works for MTV Hits and is going to get them a spot on her show, she is going to write them into the script! THey are totally going to be an overnight sensation-YES!!! I so want to adopt them!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/13/04 12:10 - ID#20844

My Little Polish Boys

Yes, I got to see my Polish boys once again. They are seriously the cutest/funniest thing ever. They are almost done working at ABC Rental, this is their last week. Then they are traveling around for a week, then back to Buffalo for a few days. Hopefully we will get to go out once more before they go away. Although I am of course planning on visiting them next summer. The showed me some of their pictures, and there was one (if anyone knows who they are-the one with the long hair that seemed to be the heart-throb) was dancing around in black speedo looking things in the rain-too funny. If you guys haven't met the Polish boys, I will post when are where we are going. Everyone should go, because they are most definitely worth meeting.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/11/04 02:30 - ID#20843

Stripes only for the strippers

I went to a stripes only party tonight, which was muy classy. Good time :)

One week from sat 9/11 is my GRE, if you know any good words you could tell me about that might be on the GRE, please post them. 8* I am trying to learn as many words as I can, although I am realizing everyday what a small vocabulary I have. Really sad :(

School is going well I guess. As long as I stay on top of things and devote my weekends to papers, studying and fun things like that I should be okay. I am writing one of my papers on beached whales. Does anyone know anything about beached whales, or a good sight where i could find out stuff about beached whales?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/05/04 02:15 - ID#20842

Cheating on E-peeps-NOOOO

Soyeon, that image that you had with being, meeting, possessing. That was really neat. Very interesting to think about.

For those of you that know me, know that I so loved canada-going to the clubs etc. Well I went Friday with my partygirl Frannie, and even before going it was the first time that I didn't feel that excited about it, like it was going to be cheesy. And it totally was. I actually felt old and out of place which is so strange. Perhaps it is because I have been hanging out with all you cool epeeps that there is no comparison. It just seemed really silly. The whole scouting out who you like and try to hit on them. The typical "out of line" sex comments. No creativity at all, just the cheap sex jokes by DJ's that will get the conditioned response. Cheese that is all I can really say. So I realized I am no longer a canada/Rumors person. Frannie on the other hand, I cannot speak for. She ended up going home with some guy. I hope that she survived-she should be fine. I really don't want to be apart of that whole scene anymore. I suppose it really depends on the day you ask me. But I am tired of the whole trying to pick someone up for a night scene, not that I want to settle down. It just seems really tired. As am I-so here i go to bed!!! ;)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/03/04 09:51 - ID#20841

Yes THE BEACH

It was such an amazing beautiful day, I went to the beach. I was determined to go whether it was with someone else or by myself. Maureen almost went with me, but there was miscommunication. Steve (my bro-n-law) felt bad that I didn't have anyone to go with so he went with me for like an hour and then I stayed there for a few hours after that. I felt so calm and refreshed. I really think I need to live somewhere that I can go to the beach anytime I want to. The only thing it was missing was the sound of the waves. It was too calm of a day, so the water wasn't making any noise. I fell asleep too only for like a half hour, but so amazing. I am sorry none of my friends could go with me cause it was really a great time. Pry one of the last nice days of the summer/fall. Is it weird to go to the beach by yourself?-Actually there was a kid with his towel next to me there by himself too. I noticed that when I got up to leave he followed, which was kind of strange. Maybe he didn't want to be the only one on the beach by himself?? Generally when I go to the beach I like to tan without my shirt on, but I try to be tasteful about it. Today though I thought it might be weird if i took off my shirt if I was there by myself so I decided to just show as much skin as possible without taking the top part of my bathing suit off. Would that be weird if someone tanned without a shirt by themself???

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/02/04 12:08 - ID#20840

Needing More

I decided that i really need more clothes. I always like to dress fairly nicely for the first week or so of classes and then its all down hill from there. BUT i would actually like to try hard this year to dress nicely. The only thing is that 2 rooms where I have 3 classes are seriously freezing. So I will have to get some sheek (sp?) sweaters. Also note to self-get enough rest daily...so that is what I am off to do

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Location: Buffalo, NY

08/31/04 10:14 - ID#20839

Mike's night out

Tonight a few of us are going to Mister Goodbar if anyone would like to join. Its Mike's 21st. Happy Birthday my little Mike-a-roonie!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

08/30/04 11:09 - ID#20838

Dealing

So I am now realizing how much work I am going to have to do this semester, and it is going to be quite a bit. Although most college students are used to writing papers, I am not and now I have like 14 paper to write so far. Alot of them are 5 pages, (listed 5 or less) but still that is quite a bit. For me anywho. Could be a good semester if i am responsible about it all.

I am a little sad today for some reason-or maybe it just hit me right now?

Happy semester everyone!!! :)

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Words: 97
Location: Buffalo, NY

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