wow, fergie from the black eyed peas had a meth addiction!



she said it was the heardest boyfriend to quit...no wonder she's so fucking skinny.

my parents must be the most penny pinching, frugalistic (I know it's not a word), cheapskates alive.

how cheap are they, you say?

they are so cheap that after they placed mouse traps around the garage and the little mice met their terrible fate, they pry apart they mouse trap, peel away the carcass and reuse them over and over again.

i mean, how expensive are mouse traps? i found $1.29 for 2 at walgreens. is it really worth the trouble (and disgust) to reuse a 70 cent mouse trap? i mean seriously, after using aluminum foil to cover a plate in the fridge i am not allowed to throw it in the garbage but rather must put it into the aluminum pile in the garage that my step-father then goes and sells for 18 cents a pound at whatever the place is where you sell back used aluminum, and he once got $200 for a load he brought over! he steals the toilet paper from hotel rooms when he goes away on business. we have not bought toilet paper in years. the same goes for shampoos, lotions, mouthwash, soap, matches. he collects old 2 x 4's to burn in the fireplace instead of buying firewood.

but i guess this is how they have over 100K cash in the bank all the while living on a 40K salary.

So the doctor gave me a new med for my mystery illness, klonopin. I'm a little weary of taking as I usually try to stay away from downers. I don't like feeling sleepy and retarded when I'm not supposed to. So to counteract that I went ahead and bought some smart pills on the internet, piracetam. lets hope the pharmacy actually sends the pills and not rips me off, and lets hope that once they arrive here they are real and not sugar dupes.

My MRI of the brain came back normal, so now they are sending me off for an MRI of the neck and more blood work to check for some rheumatoid stuff, among other things. The doc gave me some shots in my back again, this time going much deeper. They fucking hurt like hell and today I feel worse than I did before the shots. It fucking hurts like something awful. I refuse to take the muscle relaxers and the cymbalta they gave me. The relaxers make me stupid and the cymbalta made me feel panicky, like I was going completely crazy. the only thing i'm taking now is ultram, which helps somewhat, but makes me so irritable and mean and aggravated that i can't stand being around people and their stupidity. Maybe the klonopin will give me a good high. I heard some people like it, but getting high and taking away pain, are two different things. I seriously doubt they will do much of anything for my pain. The doc says I'm all stressed and uptight. I don't understand how he came to this conclusion, when he talked to me all of 5 minutes and knows nothing about my life. I am not anywhere near stressed, except form these headaches, and I live a laid back, calm, stress-free existance. I work 3 days a week, and lounge around the other 4 days. I live with my mom, who does most of the cooking and cleaning (because i just don't clean up to her standards), and I pay no rent. I mean seriously, it doesn't get any better than that.

i just want to be headache and pain free like normal people. i don't want my whole day to revolve around the headache that may come, and how to prevent it, the headache that is coming and how to ward it off and the headache that is there and how to stop it. i'm tired of puking, not being able work, or sleep, or being able to plan any social things. everything that i plan is contingent upon whether i have a headache or not. at times it hurts so much that the only thing i can think of is putting a bullet through my skull.

But whatever. bring on the meds.

here is an interesting job prospect for (e:zobar) (e:carolinian) and (e:jason) ! you can apply to become stephen hawking's assistant. it only pays around 40K, (which is way too little for (e:paul) to leave roswell) but the fringe benefits, i hear, are great!

i can't believe i missed all the action last night. i had an engagement to attend to and then...well...as the night wore on...i kind of forgot.

see this is what happened.

my friend who is like a soccer mom, living in wheatfield, never goes out. last night she managed to drag her ass to the bills game with a co-worker and somehow ended up at goodbar. she calls me at 10pm and asks what i'm doing. now, most nights i'm in bed by 10, but i had a bachelorette party i attended and was stopping by spot for a nightcap.
she calls me and asks me to meet her.

when i get there, i see her friend is obliterated and ask who is driving home. the friend insists she is perfectly fine and will drive her home no problem. i turn to my friend and say you better not let her drive you home or you'll be on the side of the road in a ditch. she turns to me and says, "um..you know what she told me?"

i'm like...."nooo?"

she's like..."she told me she smokes meth"

and so i'm like..."oh shit...that's some crazy shit!"

so, to make the short story long.....er.....i ended up driving her home and forgot about estrip.

i've been told i missed some surprise guests, for which i'm glad. ex #1 ended up showing up, which is soooo weird. thank god for that misconnect.

oh...and ex#2 calls today crying about how heart broken he is over the girl who left him. i told him that karma would come back to bite him on the nose.

no thanks...no boy drama for me.

oh yeah and i've missed jury duty for the second time in a row.....are they going to arrest me now? am i going to jail?

i will be joining the roswell family starting september 11th! i'll be running a couple of breast cancer studies. i've been trying to get this job forever and now i've finally succeeded! now i'll be rich and will do something that is challenging and rewarding!

I FINALLY GOT A REAL JOB

this makes 4 peeps working at roswell now, that i know of.

For those who'd like to see more china pictures, i uploaded them onto shutterfly, just like i promised.

after you click the link, click view pictures, when you come to the next page, chose "view as slideshow" it makes it a lot easier to view pictures.

i feel so guilty for putting faben onto the flavor of love show. i try to use it as an example of how NOT to act, but instead we just sit there and break on these chicks the entire time.

to those who don't know......the new season has begun and it is absolutely awful, one chick has actually doo doo'd herself right on the stairs! there are white girls who wanna be black, bisexual sex fiends, ghetto rats and country bumpkins who quote, "want dark babies"! god help me for watching this smut, but i just can't help myself, i love it! and i think some of you may know just what i'm talking about.

whatever, i listen to NPR all day long, i'm entitled to this

FLAVA FLAVE!!!

BUT DAMN!

so someone rammed my ass today. i was sitting at a red light on transit, talking to my mom, and this girl just plowed into my bumper. it was like one of those volkswagen commercials where people are driving talking, shooting the shit, when they suddenly get side swiped out of nowhere.

i swear if my mom was not in my car today, no one would believe me that these accidents are not my fault. if i came home today saying that someone hit me again, they'd think that it has to be my driving. last time i had a 120 y/o judge hit me. and the time before that, someone ran me off the thruway and made me loose control of my car and plow into the divider at 50 miles an hour. luckily only my sternum was broken.

i had a doctors visit today. this is a continuing saga of unexplainable upper back right side shoulder and headache pain. x-ray and ultrasound were normal. all blood work was normal except for vitamin b-12 levels. they were about 200, where the normal range is 200-1100. so the doctor said that since b12 deficiencies can be responsible for neurological issues, this could be why i'm in pain. so she decided to bring me in every week for a month for b12 shots, starting today. this still doesn't disprove my self diagnosis of multiple sclerosis as the two are very closely associated. it has been thought that b12 deficiency is associated with the cause of MS as it destroys the myelin sheath of nerve cells, which is what MS consists of. i think i'll bring this up to my doctor next week.

also, i went to see world trade center today. i did cry the entire time, but i'm not sure if it was because the movie was extraordinary or anything like that, it's an emotional subject, so just about everyone was crying including (e:des) . i'd give it 3.5 out of 5.

the last post was a question i got today at a job interview. i wanted to see what you guys would say. oddly enough faben and i had the same answer.

i forgot to tell you that i bought myself a pipe when i was in china. a friend of mine laughed at me when he heard this and said, "ok, so, you're having NO sex, not doing any drugs, not drinking, not going out ANYWHERE....um so when are you going to start collecting cats?"

after tasting that tobacco in (e:ladycrofts) hookah, i wanted to see if it would be the same from a pipe. cigarettes taste so gross sometimes and i really want to smoke something, so i'm hoping that this'll hit the spot. i'm not even sure how youre supposed to smoke a pipe. there are so few people around that do it. maybe i should take a trip to the deep south and scour some porches.

i don't understand why it seems that i type so many goddamned journals and everyone that's new and has been here for half as long as me, has already surpassed me. WTF people! slow the fuck down! let this old crusty woman catch the fuck up.

on a sad note, i just watched the most depressing movie i've seen in a good while. if you like the artsy, indie type movie, japanese story will, without a doubt, make you weep like your daddy would if he caught you steeling booze out the liquor cabinet.

if you were chosen to design a bathroom for bill gates and you were not allowed to talk to bill, how would you figure out what he wants?