On the one hand its great to have a former professor whose opinion you trust to help you out with the planning the future career thing.

On the other hand, its not so great when it comes to her challenging you to try harder and go for that big name school you'll need on your resume when all is said and done and you're looking for work. Thereby putting on a great deal of pressure. I know she knows my limitations and won't send me off into the world blindly with no clue as to what to expect.

Nevermind the whole Ph.D./ dissertation thing, I don't even know if I'm smart enough to get into any program let alone a highly selective top school. Oy. Nevermind the cost!

Grad school is hard...and I haven't even gotten into it yet.

It's so bad how much I can't stand this woman I work with. Like I've never disliked someone that I work with thus much. Normally I can find some way to get around it but she's weird, homophobic and don't get me started on her weird personal life she enjoys sharing with us. She thinks the worst of everyone and always has a nasty thing to say. I don't know that I've ever heard her say something nice about anyone or anything. It's always mean spirited.

The other day I heard another woman i work with talking about how she overheard someone make a comment to their son about some guy, basically implying that their son was gay. And she was like "I don't know, I mean it might have been true!" and my response was "who cares?" It just blows my mind that there are people in this world who really believe that there are like 7 gay people in the world and they all live somewhere else.

I just can't handle the closed minded ignorance that comprises so much of our population.

Basically i need to quit my job and find one that pays the same but isn't working with 40 year old angry divorced women with 5 kids who have never left Buffalo and never want to.* I just realized every secretary I work with grew up in Buffalo and their parents live here too. That fact had never crossed my mind before.

Only 11 months til Grad School.

• DISCLAIMER: I have nothing against Buffalo, it's my home, but we all know those people who don't leave Buffalo and not because they love it here, but because they don't realize that there is a world outside Buffalo that they can actually go to that isn't Disney World.

Running sucks.

So my d-bag sister has "inspired" me to take up running. No for real though, she didn't try to get me to do it all it was legitimately all my idea

I officially started "training" for a 5k yesterday, I actually had to run today and it freakin BLOWS. I was so sweaty and tired and I didn't even run a mile. (I'm kinda fat and I'm in a shape, but not exactly the optimal desired shape if you hadn't noticed yet)

Spending all day in heels sitting at a desk and then running like immediately after work is probably not the best tactic, but whatev. I have like a month until the 5k, in which I'm sure my time will be awful, but at least I can say I tried it. I might grow to like it...eventually.

It took (e:mk) like 2 years to actually enjoy running not just that "I feel good about myself after I suffer through it" enjoy it, but like actually look forward to it. I hope to get there eventually.

House and Law & Order SVU premiere tonight! woohoo!!!

Ok so in my office building almost every door has a CyberLock on it which means you have to punch a 4 digit number in order for the door to unlock. Every door in the building has the same code. Let me repeat that for necessasry emphasis: EVERY DOOR IN THE BUILDING HAS THE SAME 4 DIGIT CODE and everyone uses it every single day.

However, in spite of the fact that this is the case, I am sill compelled to buzz people in. I have 2 buttons under my desk, 1 for each door. Sometimes I wish they could shoot lasers or could turn off all the lights in the building...just to keep things interesting.

Anytoot, its expected that I buzz in the attorneys at least, but I usually buzz in the couriers and the facilities people who spend their entire day going floor to floor punching in those 4 numbers. Who I don't like to buzz in are other secretaries who should know better than to assume that I'll just stop what I'm doing to let them in. Especially the women on the 3rd floor, in which, because of remodeling, they don't have people who sit in the front where they must buzz people in. If they did, they would know how annoying it is. One woman literally walks to the door, puts her hand on the handle and stares at me until I open it. I mean, really? It takes possibly 5 seconds if you're very slow to punch i n those numbers. So this morning, I rebelled, with my dictation headphones in I just kept doing what I was doing and ignored her as she stared at me for a good 30 seconds waiting for me to let her in. Someone else opened the door for her.

Bite me, punch in the damn numbers yourself. Nevermind the fact that i don't like the people who work on the 3rd floor anyway. Well, let's see what happens the next time she tries to come to this floor.

I also happen to work on one of the 2 busiest floors, meaning lots of people come up here every day, and I sit on the side of the floor most people walk to, because HR and the accounting department are over here. It's been 2 months, I'm a little tired of it.

So yeah, I know, life's so hard, hahaha.

I need to get back on track with weight watchers. I hopped on the scale yesterday and it was not a pretty sight. I have no more excuses, this summer was hectic: moving 2x, college ending, friends moving away, new job, vacation, it made it hard to stick with it. But this is it. I'm back on track. I did well yesterday and today its so far so good.

Woohooo.

This weekend (e:mk), her whatever he is, boyfriend I guess and I went to Rochester for the Rochester half-marathon/marathon. (e:mk) ran the 1/2, Cory and I cheered from the finish line. (e:mk)'s friend Nicole ran the full marathon and declared it to be the worst thing she's ever done, she looked like she wanted to crawl into bed and never get up again.

As I frequently say, I only run when chased by a knife wielding maniac. which is probably why I'm so svelte now.

Although watching these runners aaaaalmost makes me want to do it. But not really. But maybe I will. But probably not. I do hate running. That might just be because I'm so out of shape. Maybe I'd like it more if I wasn't in such bad shape.

Anywho, it was fun all around, especially the part where a golden retriever slept on me for a morning, apparently the backs of my legs make a great dog bed.

Work is still boring. Now there's a temp who is working in the cubicle next to mine, and what sucks is that she doesn't actually work for the firm like as in a full time employee so basically as long as she does the project she's been hired to do, she can do whatever she wants. She chats on her phone A LOT. For example, right now. She just said something about who ever she's talking to and their sister are just looking for love and someone spit on a manager of some kind.

She also commits a fashion crime I detest. Obviously colored contacts. I overheard her say on the phone that she is chinese and black, and she somehow has blue eyes? Unless she is secretly thath girl from Memoirs of a Geisha, I think not. They're not even kind of convincing. She looks a little zombie-esque wearing them. Although the fact that she's doing this project means the secretaries here don't have to, so welcome to Lipsitz Green, wear whatever the heck you want!

I'm not sure what I want to go to grad school for, i'm tossing around a few ideas, but I think just to be on the safe side, since some programs require it and some don't, I'm going to take the GRE. anyone taken it before that can give me some advice on it? Thanks!!

What does it say about the world when my new boss comes over to my desk in the morning just to say hello and ask what's new...and thats it. It's not a pre-cursor to him giving me work or just because we're in the elevator at the same time, he passes my desk on his way from getting coffee and stops by to say hello. Granted, he's a pretty young attorney- and probably a newly wed (his wife calls the office...for all the attorneys for whom I answer the phone, I've never spoken to another's spouse)

It's sad because we shouldn't expect the people we work for to only talk to us when absolutely necessary. I know this won't last long and in a few weeks he'll be too busy to do that. So it's nice while it lasts.

After the opening sucking so bad, I really hope that this surprise last act is Britney puling out all the stops and kicking ass.

So I'm 22. I was hit on by a 19 year old guy last night. That, in and of itself, is not weird.

When its put in the context that he's just starting his freshman year of college and I've just graduated...to me, is a little weird. Well weird for me, probably not for him. haha.

I also felt bad because my friend I was there with likes him. Therefore, she was trying to talk to him a lot and I was trying to keep it cool and not dominate the conversation. A move that seems to have backfired. crap.

Why is it that the people you don't want to see never seem to really leave your life. I just learned yesterday that this kid I went to college with, a gentleman I am not too fond of, just moved onto my street. Granted, I live on Richmond which is a fairly long street. But knowing my luck with this kid always being in my life, he probably moved in directly across the street. It's a good thing (e:MK)'s friend Lindsay already got the studio in our house, otherwise who knows with my luck, he probably wouldve moved in. Good times. He's not like a terrible guy, he just makes me nervous and he's kind of a D.

My kitty had surgery the other day and the techs at the vet wanted to keep him...basically because he's the cutest and most dog-like cat I've ever met. KITTY!!!

Perching on his balcony harness, leash and all.


he likes to climb


"his"laundry basket that sits next to mommy's computer

Missing Image ;(

So I made it to my earlier bus...barely.

This morning Oscar woke me up at an all time early record for breakfast- 5:45. I was at a point when I woke up that I could have stayed up. Then I remembered who I was and went back to sleep.

My dad, who has met Oscar, still can't picture me with a cat. It's true, I've never been a cat person- bad childhood experiences, but I love pets and I knew that I could find the right cat for me, a dog person. He's my baby!!! BTW, for those of you with cats in an apartment, I just switched him to Tidy Cats, Small Spaces. It works waaaayyy better at controlling smell than the Arm and Hammer brand I was using before. The vet told me not to change litter or location or anything, but I took a chance based on how easy-going of a cat he is... and he didn't seem to care at all, he used it basically right away. Anyone else's cats love toothpaste? (e:MK) noticed him licking our toothbrushes so we bought covers for them.

So Saturday I went down to Laughlin's to hang out with 2 of my old roommates, one of whom I haven't seen since May (my favorite roommate...shhhh... don't tell) and I was really excited about it. One of them, Jenna, still lives in our old apartment. All three of her new roommates plus one's boyfriend and little sister were there too. I was kind of annoyed mostly because I was a little bit made to feel like the odd man out at a get together they weren't even initially invited to.

Anyway, it was really really good to see her and hang out and be sweet like the old days...haha the old days of 3 months ago.

Ok so Sunday night I had some friends over and as per usual many of them who said they probably couldn't make it, came anyway, I haven't had that many people in my living room since the day we moved in...there was a chair shortage. It was fun, I love combining my 2 different groups of friends...the high school and the college. I have one high school friend who is highly resistant to this merging and always has been...I'm not really sure why...don't you think if one of your best friends of 8 years likes them....you'll probably like them too? If I act differently around them, its because they're not Debbie Downers like some people I could mention.... Brief example: if you will recall, a few months ago I was rather angry at my former roommate, Jenna, for pulling a couple pretty dickmoves as Susan, my "favorite" roommate would say . My friend who is anti-merge STILL doesn't get why I've forgiven her and we're cool again. The reason: she can't un-do it, so what's the point in holding it over her head? I'd rather forgive her for 2 days of annoying me than cut her out of my life forever.

I don't really know if its worth asking her about why she seems to hate it so much. She always acts like she feels left out because we start talking about school. I aaalways ask her things and try to get her to talk, but whatever she says is in short like 3 word phrases. It's not as though all we can talk about is school and in fact most of what we talked about had nothing to do with UB, but she still sat there silent in protest.

Anyway, it was lots o' fun. I also highly recommend these Mojito mixes by Roses. I got the mango one from Target and it was really really good.

We have this huuuuuge motion due today in our biggest case for our biggest client and 2 secretaries and a law clerk had to come in over the weekend to help put it together. Friday I spent, literally, the entire day typing 9 pages of it and the page number limit is 20. This motion is like crucial to this case...stress out much, 4th floor? For those familiar with law and stuff...the exhibits went all the way to Exhibit DD. That's A-Z, then starting over again at AA. That's nuts. Normally it's like A-E or like A-J. Needless to say, everyone's a liiiiiittle tense.

woohooo what a long entry.

I take the bus to work. This way (if I don't miss the bus) I'm guaranteed to be at work on time. It also picks me up 7 houses away and drops me off directly across the street from my house.

I get the bus at 8:32 am. It's perfect. I usually get to my desk at ten minutes to 9.

For no reason I can see (my dad claims they do careful studies,..i say phooey) my morning bus will now come at about 8:18. I am NOT a morning person and therefore losing 14 minutes blows. The next one doesn't come til 8:48.

I know, life's tough...I could always drive, but I already have my September bus pass. Oh yeah, I have a bus pass. admit it., you're jealous. a little bit? no?

Today is my favorite day of the year. Cast List day. its the day at UB when the cast list for the semesters shows are posted. The tears, the drama, the surprises, the excitement. It's great. I love it. It's my first cast list day I will not be a part of. Boooo. Cast list day comes but twice a year. The only reason its enjoyable to me is that I'm not an actor so my life is not really influenced by who is in the show, my job is basically the same regardless of the cast.

time for work!