wow I was such an asshole for like 2 years.

I'm going back and reading all of my old entries and from like March 2004 - September 2005, I mentioned how I missed my friends and hanging out in like every single entry. I kept saying like "I hope we can hang out tonight! I hope I can do stuff this this weekend! I miss you guys!"

But did I actually make effort to change this? NOOOO I just kept NOT hanging out with people that LOVE ME and ENJOY MY COMPANY and instead spent all of my free time with my awful ex-boyfriend.

Why didn't everyone hate me? Well actually I think you did probably. I specifically remember both (e:Mike) and Diana writing entries a couple summers ago that might not have been aimed at me exclusively but I know I was definitely the target partially.

I'm sorry. Seriously, I feel like the biggest jerk when I read those. I feel like I never came home, never went out, never spent any of my summer weekends with my friends. I know that people get caught up in relationships but I feel like I was really stupid. And I'm sorry. I will nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeevvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrr let that happen again.



I promise that even if my adventure tomorrow yields something that is long-lasting, I will not be an asshole! You have my word!!!

He sent me an email and I'm too nervous to read it

Sooooo here I am at school while the kiddos are in exams. Since I'm only part time, I'm kind of coming and going as I please. They don't pay me enough to sit here all day, especially since I can't even enter my grades until Monday. So I brought in an empty box and eventually I'll start packing up my desk. Eventually...

I really want this guy to ask me out on a date. I still don't know him very well but if he asked me to hang out I would say yes. We've only hung out with other people, and our mutual friend is very talkative and so she generally leads the conversations. And that's fine because we have a good time but then I don't feel like he and I ever actually talk to each other, and I get really shy and quiet if she ever gets up and leaves us by ourselves. I mean that's awkward no matter who it is. But anyway I just want to see if it's a possibility. I'm always afraid that I'm not giving the right vibes. I DID make sure to sit across from him when we were playing cards the other day so that we would be partners. Do guys notice things like that?

Well whatever...here's hoping for something to happen!

Job hunting really sucks. I feel bad for (e:Anne) but at least she has gotten lots of interviews (and a very nice new suit that we went shopping for last night). Job hunting especially sucks for teachers. There was definitely a time when there were tons of teachers retiring and positions available, but I'm pretty sure I missed it by about 4 or 5 years. There are a ton of young teachers at my school. I'm really lucky that I got the maternity leave position that I did because who knows what I would have ended up with? I feel badly for people that have to leave home and go out of state if they don't really want to just because they need a job, especially those from the Buffalo area. There's always tons of music teacher jobs posted in Long Island, but that's not ideal for most people (other than the pay).

(e:Anne) said she's going to run a race with me in July. YAY!!!!!!!!!

My friend wants to do the Rochester Marathon in September. Which probably means I have to start running again. Blaaaahhhhh. Oh well at least that means I might be more bathing suit ready when (e:Mike) and I go to the beach every day as usual.

p.s. (e:Mike) said he was going to call me to run to Target the other day like we always do but now I live far away and it seems silly and that made me a little sad.

p.p.s. I am definitely loving where I live so far though. I went running up and down the strip twice this week. I just like being out among all the e-strip dwellers, plus there are like a zillion cute dogs around to look at. I really like being out here, especially now that the weather is beautiful.

Okay, peace out, peaches. Can't wait to get internet on TUESDAY!!!!

So (e:Anne) and I are officially estrip residents.

More details, including dates of a housewarming party and pictures to follow...

wow i just checked my post its. i had some going all the way to december i never knew about. sorry (e:enknot) for never responding!!!!!!! i feel bad.

who's coming by on saturday? :)

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omg everyone is driving me crazy with all this mysterious talk about (e:mike). WHAT IS GOING ON!!!

p.s. come help me and (e:Anne) move into our apartment next weekend on Richmond. we will have breakfast AND lunch as bribery. we enjoy all the help we can get and could definitely use some strong guys.

Well, I did it. I finished the Buffalo Half Marathon in 2:09. That's two minutes, nine seconds. Ha ha ha...! It was a great time for the most part and I can't wait to do another one. I spent most of the race in the middle/back which I like because I think the people are cooler, less into getting an amazing race time and just taking it "easy." We had some good times around mile 7 quoting some Dane Cook with some random couple, and around mile 5 talking to some girls who were wearing grass skirts and coconut bras over their running clothes. I hit a big wall around mile 9 (meaning I had the strong desire to STOP) and again during the last stretch. I got really excited when I saw that mile 12 marker, which I think made me run faster, which was not a very good idea. I was pretty much feeling like it was never going to end until we got to Franklin St. and some random man yelled to us "TWO BLOCKS LEFT!" That just sounded so insanely short that I got a second (third? fourth?) wind and I made it to the end!

I must say that I feel totally exhausted and sore. And if I feel this bad, I can't even imagine how marathon runners must feel afterwards. I'll find out someday but for now I'm just going to sit back, enjoy a delicious dinner, and probably go to bed around 8. I'm sooo glad I don't have school tomorrow.

As usual, a few pics of the (very early) morning...

Me and Nicole in front of Hyatt (pre-race, about 6:30 am)


Me, Nicole and (e:jessbob) at the starting line between Chippewa and W. Tupper on Franklin. (The marathon runners started at the same place but on Pearl St.)


And they're off! I'm over in the left hand side of the pic waving my arms around at my dad.


I DID IT!!!! (This is back at my house because I didn't have a place to leave my camera during the race)


Celebrating the moment with my two favorites


Me and my medal that I'm still wearing and plan to wear for at least two more days. I'm on the phone with (e:mike) who said to me "Wow, did you beat everyone? I'm driving and there's still tons of runners!" (I wish, but he was talking about the full marathoners)


A close-up shot of my medal, my newest favorite accessory.

Come out and cheer on me and (e:Jessbob) in the Buffalo Half Marathon tomorrow morning!!!!!

(e:Anne) and I are most likely getting the apartment that we looked at last weekend!!!! We just heard from the landlord that they liked our application and thought we were a perfect fit! We just have to get him a letter from my bank, a deposit, and it's ours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!