...how and why is it that every morning I wake up thinking, "ugh I feel so fat today", yet I go to sleep almost every night thinking "ugh, I ate too much today."

My junior year of college, the discovery was made by some of my friends that I have no chin. More specifically, I have a very weak jaw line, giving the impression that I have very little change between my mouth and my neck. This spawned a new nickname for me, 'Meck'. It's a clever little name that sounds sort of like my actual nickname, but in reality it was referring to my hideous lack of defined chin.

Although I've graduated and stopped letting people call me that, I feel as though it haunts me all the time. I check in every mirror I see and basically gauge the way I feel about my body that day based on how thin I look in the face. And don't get me started on pictures. I hate posting any pictures that emphasize it! I swear sometimes I look like I weigh 20 lbs more than I actually do in some pics that are taken from the neck up. Not that I think I'm so skinny but enough of you have seen me to at least know I would probably be considered a slim person - well to anyone other than (e:Mike)- but when it comes to the neck up, I look hideous.

I know everyone has something about their body or about themselves in general that they are not happy about, and this is obviously mine. I never even really thought about it until that fateful day in 2004 when someone looked at me and said "you have like, no chin."

Ugh. Maybe someday I'll stop caring but I don't see it happening anytime soon.

And when you all see me next, try not to stare :)

and oh yeah...Happy Easter!

Check out pictures from my 24th Birthday Bash last Saturday!


Included in the album are some hot, sexy snapshots of

(e:MK)
(e:Anne)
(e:Mike)
(e:Jill)
(e:Beast)
(e:Lilho)
(e:Terry)

Enjoy!!!

I'M OLD!!!!!

tootsie rolls are totally my favorite candy. both the chocolate and the fruity flavored. the only ones i don't like are the vanilla. mmmm i'm addicted. i sample or purchase several every time i go to the store.

what's your favorite candy?

blah...

i'm getting tired of falling asleep and waking up alone...

:(

Well it's the best time of year again, folks. Not the beginning of spring, not the end of having to keep cars off the street after 2 am, not March Madness...but the time to celebrate a truly monumental occasion that happened 24 years ago....

My birth!!!!

As usual my wonderful group of friends have offered to celebrate and now I'm debating what I want to do. I enjoyed (e:Jill)'s birthday, with ice cream, a Kenmore bar, and Frizzy's, but I can't just be a copycat! I would like to save my friends money by not going to eat but at the same time who doesn't like to go to dinner??!! Hmmm I'm thinking maybe we will start the evening going out for dessert and I'm sure we will eventually wind up at Frizzy's. I had a very good time at Frizzy's last weekend. Although I guess I may have had a great time because I was very, very drunk and it was so crowded for St. Patty's Day. Well, maybe it won't be St. Patty's Day, but I'm sure I can get just as drunk if not more hopefully.

Oooh, maybe we should skip going out ahead of time but then get some delicious Jim's at like, 3. Granted that is how many Buffalonians spend every single weekend, but to me that is a treat. Hmmm maybe that's the plan... any suggestions? I love my birthday and since (e:Mike) has threatened that this will be the last year we celebrate birthdays, I better make this one count!!!!!

Mondays are the worst. I swear weekends get shorter and shorter all the time. I think western civilization needs to restructure our entire plan. We should work every other day, and every other week, or maybe just not work at all.

I put up a whole big post yesterday with pictures and captions and then all of a sudden it was gone. I wonder if I pressed the trash can button accidentally but that seems unlikely.

I'm writing for the sheer fact that I don't want to get ready to teach today.

While (e:Jessbob) was home this weekend, he told me that he is running the Buffalo Half Marathon in May, too! I'm so excited! Our friends are becoming so sporty. :) I'm starting a new training program this week. I was way too discouraged last week when I wasn't following my original plan exactly. This one should be a lot easier. Courtesy of Runner's World (my favorite magazine), it is called "Your Better Half" and it's a 3-day a week training program. One day of speedwork, one day of "tempo" (a run of relatively short distance at a quicker speed) and one long run (between 6-12 miles). Then I cross train 3 other days, and have one day off. It sounds so much better. I'm going to join a new gym this month soon, because my Aquatic Center membership ends and I don't like it there anyway. It is too small. I think I'm going to join Gold's Gym because I'm going to be moving out towards Depew/Lancaster next year and will be closer. Plus it's huge and they have lots of classes for members, including spinning!

My favorite Disney movie is Sleeping Beauty.

I bought a few organic food items the other day, because for some reason, I decided to start eating organic out of nowhere. I've heard people say that you just feel better overall when you eat organic. So I bought some organic yogurt and peanut butter and almonds. Well, my organic phase ended quickly. Maybe when I live on my own and am forced to buy more of my own food, I'll go for it. If someone can really convince me that it's worth it, I'll go for it. But I figure I eat well enough without being organic, and it's been that way for my whole life. Why change now. Well, perhaps I will choose a few things to be organic about. I'll tell you though, I'm never getting another jar of organic peanut butter again, or at least not that brand. When I brought it home, (e:Anne) was visiting, and she tried a spoonful before I did. I asked her how it was and she said "Um, it's okay." So I tried it, and it was SOOOO GROSS!!!! As soon as she saw that I didn't like it either, she took a napkin and literally wiped it out of her mouth. I don't think I've ever seen that before. At least she was nice enough to let me form my own opinion. It was gross. So now I have a jar of nasty organic peanut butter in my house. It will probably be there when I move out.

Okay the bell just rang. I guess I should take off my coat and put away my lunch and get ready to teach. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!


Okay now the pictures post just appeared below this one. Well, enjoy!



p.s. I turn 24 in 9 days.

So I'll write about last night and put up our many many funny pictures, but I wanted this one to have its own slot because I think it is hilarious.

wow i'm tired.

i had to go to fredonia today to go to court for a ticket i got for rolling through a stop sign. HONESTLY WHO STOPS AT STOP SIGNS?!! i know that you're supposed to and of course it's the law but i bet you a million bucks if you set up a camera by ANY random stop sign for ten minutes, you MIGHT get two cars that come to a complete stop (if they don't have another car to wait for). so anyway, what a joy that was.

then i still hadn't done my running for the day (i'm on a schedule since i'm training for the half marathon) so i drove home from fredonia to go to the gym, but i was so tired that i decided to take a nap in the parking lot to be "refreshed" for my run. well, screw that. i just ended up coming home so exhausted and cranky. i freakin hate missing days on my schedule. i'm starting to wish i had never signed up for this thing.

i guess the moral of the story is i should make more "me" time in my days. i didn't have any today because i stayed after school just like i do every day working with kids and then another voice lesson and then my stupid ticket and ahhhhh.

oh well stop complaining. can't wait for this weekend - two fantastic celebrations - st. matty's day and (e:jill) 's b-day. hope i can stay awake for both of them.

so the show is over!

(the whole reason for this post...)

look what my kids got me as part of my director's gift... :)