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03/06/07 11:22 - 9ºF - ID#38386

follow the yellow brick road

As I have already mentioned, my school is in the midst of its spring musical production. Though I'm not the director, I did direct the vocals and have been there every night to give notes and warm the singers up and stuff. And it's crazy (to me) how much I really enjoy it. I'm very disappointed I won't be there tomorrow for the final dress rehearsal before the show.

Lately, as I'm slowly getting better at my job, I come home and I just think how much I love it. I love working on NYSSMA solos, I love hearing the chorus sing, I love teaching my Music Appreciation kids, I love working with the musical, I love being an important part of some of my students' lives. I love it. There are some days when I don't, but when it all comes down to it, I'm doing something I love...

...and I DON'T THINK I LIKE THAT!

...because it's not what I've been planning on! I didn't want to feel committed or attached to this job because I want to go to graduate school after next year, and I want to go somewhere outside of Buffalo for that. I DON'T want to never go to school or learn a lot of cool things again, and because of New York State and their standards, I have to do it before 2010 (possibly 2011 with an extension, but I don't know how easy those are to get). I know that I can do summer programs, and I can always go somewhere around here, but that's not what I wanted to do. Grad schools for music just aren't good enough around here....I wish they were. (with the expensive exception of the Eastman school of Music in Rochester)

The things, what would mostly make me want to stay is the kids. There are a lot of sophomores this year who I would feel soooooooooooo terrible leaving behind, and that's what would happen - I would leave the summer before their senior year. And so I think, okay, I could stay maybe two more years and then try to get an extension on my Master's from the state. But whose to say there won't be more kids coming up that I wouldn't want to leave? There will always be kids I won't want to disappoint.

I guess I just thought leaving would be easier than I'm anticipating it's going to be. I know I could say screw New York and just teach until I feel like leaving, but that might lead to a lot of annoyances that I won't want to deal with if I don't have to.

Ughhhhhhh, what to do!??!!?!?!?!


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REGARDLESS...you should come see the show because it is really really cute and I love it and the kids are doing a fantastic job:

John F. Kennedy High School presents The Wizard of Oz
Friday and Saturday 7:30 pm
Sunday afternoon 2 pm
Tickets $8 general, $6 seniors and students, Children under 5 free



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03/04/07 11:04 - 28ºF - ID#38359

world traveller

Ok so I figured I wouldn't get to post about my trip before (e:anne) (see ).

and to think i recently posted a journal full of the many fun things i'm looking forward to this year, and this trip hadn't even been thought of yet! AHHHH 2007 why do you have so much potential to be fantastic?!?!

i think it's funny that this trip came along mostly because i was whining about how i've been to europe every other year since 2001 and i was bummed because this one would break that streak. in 2001 i went to London with the family, then in 2003 I went with chamber singers to london, wales and scotland for probably the best and most special trip i've ever been on, and then in 2005 i went to scandinavia and paris. AAAAND now i get to italy and spain for a week! (e:Anne) was right about us not being an impulsive family AT ALL, so for the three of us to sit down and spend an entire afternoon full of valuable free time to compare itineraries, prices, is just crazy, but we did it and all of our flights are booked. we just have to book our hostels and we are all set! AHHHHHHHHHHH it is going to be fantastic. i LOVE travelling. i seriously don't understand how anyone can dislike travelling. i understand how some things i love would not be loved by everyone (including hunchback of notre dame, standing up in front of people and singing, and the song "when the lights go out" by five) but how can you not love just getting away and seeing the world and all it has to offer?

i'm so freakin excited.



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03/04/07 12:56 - 28ºF - ID#38351

it has been three weeks

...since i last ran, approximately. i feel like such a blob. i feel as though any hint of muscle definition or tone has completely vanished from my existence all together. i mean thats a long time to go without doing much exercising!!!! granted i know some people go their whole lives, but i'm not trying to live up to those standards. luckily, training for the half marathon starts on monday. i've made up a little running schedule based on several training plans i saw online. i sort of combined them into one. i really hope that i can stick to it exactly as it is. it's hard because i generally prefer running in the afternoon/evening, but there is almost always SOMETHING that comes up that i can't work around, or i don't eat enough to give me proper fuel earlier in the day and then i feel sluggish and end up not getting in nearly as much as i should/could. probably the best solution is to use the fact that i don't have to be at school until 9:30 to my advantage and get up and exercise early. man that is super hard when its cold and dark out. who wants to crawl out of bed? ahhhhh, such a dilemma. when i think about it logically it makes the most sense to get up and get my exercising over with early. but i don't know if i believe in myself enough to do it consistently. haha what a terrible thing to say but i know myself pretty well.
we'll see. regardless of what part of the day, i'm determined to get back into shape, hopefully the best shape i've ever been in! that way i can continue to eat the way i have been without feeling horribly guilty. it's really not good how guilty i feel when i eat like crap. it like consumes my thoughts the rest of the day. this is probably a signal of some kind of disorder, really. well, as i said, running will either make me change my eating habits, or just make me feel less guilty about it. it's easier to stay thin and be active as the weather gets warmer, too.

the movie black snake moan with samuel l. jackson and christina ricci is good. i really enjoyed it and i recommend it highly. two thumbs up. can't wait to see the 23409283049235 other movies i've been meaning to get to lately.

come see my kiddos sing next weekend (kiddos = students, not children i have birthed). the wizard of oz at jfk - march 9th thru 11th. ask me for details (or just read (e:mike)'s journal). i think i will be sad once it's over. being at rehearsals is fun and keeps me too busy to notice what day it is and before i know it, it's friday! i really do love being busy, especially with great stuff like music and nice kids.

last but not least...............i'll be 24 in 24 days!!!
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02/26/07 10:58 - 28ºF - ID#38292

looking forward to lots of stuff

I officially registered for the Buffalo Half Marathon yesterday!!!!!!!!!!

I have so many things to look forward to in the next few months and I'm so excited about all of them:

march
wizard of oz
my birthday
NATS competition (a singing competition)

april
rock and roll hall of fame
my cousin's wedding in Alabama
bringing my kids to the NYSSMA solo festival

may
running the half marathon

summer
giving a recital and wearing my BEAUTIFUL DRESS
finishing my first full year of teaching
harry potter
going to NYC with (e:anne) :) :)
going to the beach everyday with (e:mike) (e:jill) (e:beast) etc.

fall
Rochester Marathon in september
being a bridesmaid in my friend Nicole's wedding
getting an apartment
auditions/applications for grad schools


yup, i guess life is looking pretty sweet! i'm still hoping to add something else to that lineup though...
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02/25/07 04:11 - 32ºF - ID#38277

computer question

Are '.exe' files not compatible with Mac OS X?

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02/24/07 05:09 - 19ºF - ID#38268

bubble trouble

I cannot stop playing this freakin' game.
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It's so addictive.



I wish I could figure out how to get Snood on my computer too. :(
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02/22/07 09:33 - 34ºF - ID#38237

i'm on winter break...

...from school. This year has really been wierd - I feel like I haven't had any long stretches of school at all, just a bunch of days off. Not that I'm complaining...

Last night we went to Century Grill. I didn't like what I got but everyone's else's food looked really good, so I'd like to go back, preferrably on a day when I can eat meat. I love trying new resturants in Buffalo...there are sooooo many good ones it feels like such a major life decision when choosing where to go to dinner, up there with grad school and marriage proposals.

Mike called me this morning just to tell me to listen to the JC Chasez song to hear his Carole Channing impression, and I must say, I do hear it. Ahhhh, she is so terrifying in that part in Alice in Wonderland!!!
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I've decided it's about time where I'm throwing in the towel on being single. I think my time of independence and recovery has run its course, and it's about that time to shake things up a bit. Maybe not necessarily anything serious but at least someone who adores me and worships the ground I walk on not in a stalker way hopefully. This isn't too much to ask right? The trick is where to begin my quest. Work is totally out. Teachers are so boring and I feel like most of them already have their lives pretty much mapped out once they get their first teaching job. So I guess it's up to me to step up the effort when I find myself in social situations. In my head I like to believe in fate and destiny but I know that can only take you so far (ahh, the life lessons you learn from Can't Hardly Wait!) and I can't sit around waiting for fate to throw something at me forever. I'm getting antsy here!

Do you ever accidentally hit copy and paste and end up pasting something extremely random? I just did that and got the lyrics to 'Anticipation' by Carly Simon. Actually maybe that's appropriate??

I leave you with my favorite tongue twister, to entertain you and whomever you may be with today. Say this five times fast (or even once):

A box of biscuits,
A box of mixed biscuits, and
A biscuit mixer



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02/19/07 01:12 - 8ºF - ID#38205

elmwood heights

Welp, I sang in the concert tonight. Can't believe it's over...

Has anyone ever lived in or know of anyone who lived in the Elmwood Heights apts? Im looking into getting a studio apt sometime in the near future. I'm ready for a change in a major way. Anyway that seemed closest to my price range and i like the location. Thanks!
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02/17/07 09:57 - 17ºF - ID#38192

artvoice

Just voted for estrip in the Artvoice's Best of Buffalo Survey! EVERYONE ELSE DO THE SAME! I'm sure Paul will do this but here is a link to the survey:




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02/16/07 12:48 - 17ºF - ID#38181

victory!

There is a girl in my chorus who began this year not liking me. At all. And she was veeeeeery clear and vocal about it. She liked the other teacher and that was it. No ifs ands or butts. This girl has total anger management issues that i hope she deals with as she gets older (she's only a freshman). She used to make it a point to say "Hello" and "Goodbye" to only the other teacher and not to me even if I was standing right there.

Well HA HA HA looks like the tables have turned. I've gotten several "hellos" and "goodbyes." WITH a smile. AND she has even stayed after class to tell me stories, and she is going to try a solo for me sometime.

...HAAAAAAA!

Don't think that I place a lot of value on how my students feel about me. I know I'm not here to win a popularity contest and I really couldn't care less if the kids liked me - it's totally about respect. But this time, I feel like I should do a little victory dance. "The angry girl doesn't hate me anymore, the angry girl doesn't hate me anymore..."





And oh man thanks for the comments you guys. Seriously they made me laugh so hard. Would you believe I never even thought to do anything violent but now that y'all mention it...and (e:Anne) is right. As far as dress and general attractiveness, there's no contest...and that's all that really matters.

Thanks (e:peeps). As always.
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