"Bobby" written by Mk on estrip.org

Category: movies

12/04/06 12:21 - 28ºF - ID#29334

Bobby

I just went to see the movie Bobby. It was written and directed by Emilio Estevez and has every celebrity you could think of. The movie takes place on the day that Bobby Kennedy was assassinated in 1968. The majority of the movie is dedicated to meeting many people who either work at or was staying at the Ambassador Hotel that day, where both the campaign rally and assassination took place.

I thought it was so well done and such a good movie. It made me cry my eyes out. Each person you meet in the movie, you are drawn to or feel some sort of connection to; whether you like or dislike them, you form an opinion about them. And though I don't know as much as I would like to about the whole event and Bobby Kennedy, it was clear that he had a large following and important ideas for our country and that his death was extremely devastating for so many people. It was just so sad to see clips of the actual night of the assassination, with him making speeches about his hope for the Presidency and for the future, and to know that moments later he would be shot in a kitchen. It was very emotionally draining but in a great way. I highly, highly recommend it!

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12/02/06 11:26 - ID#29333

one year and look at me now!

I realized yesterday that it has been one year that I have been single. I can't believe that it's already been that long. When I think back to that night, to the end of that awful semester, and about how devastated I was...and I think how I am today, and it makes me feel really good. Virtually every aspect of my life has improved since then, and in general I am very proud of myself, both in how I handled the situation and the person I have become. Sure I have made some mistakes, I probably said some things I shouldn't have, or NOT said things I should have (that is for sure!), but overall, I was mature and adult about the whole thing, and I can't believe how I didn't call him ONCE, not ONCE!!!! I never called or went to him crying or begging him to come back. And I really think he expected it, and I DIDN'T DO IT! I think it made such a difference in the whole process. I mean I really can truly say that I'm....over it....!! Wow! I mean granted, if I went in a room with him and his new (ugly...seriously she is) girlfriend, I'm sure I would be uncomfortable and a bit unhappy, but I think that is probably natural. But the fact that I can think about it anytime and never feel sad or jealous is something I'm very happy about! Because I realize there is totally nothing to be sad about and I know things are working out for me in very good ways. I hate to sit here and toot my own horn or whatever, but I just wanted to say that I can't believe it's been a year and look how far I have come. Well you don't have to really. But I am looking and I am very happy about it. And thank you to my friends and all the estrippers who have helped and made me laugh and smile and think with your comments and responses to my previous journals. Everyone has really been great. I am so proud of me!!!!

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12/02/06 11:17 - ID#29332

Nostrils

So I was shooting a video with my lap top and I leaned over to check something on the screen, causing my nostrils to block out almost the entire screen. It makes me laugh every time. I hope you enjoy.

::Download Flash Video::

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12/02/06 05:11 - ID#29331

Pablo

Paul I hate to say it but I still don't think Gather is looking like it's supposed to.

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12/02/06 12:04 - ID#29330

picture

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11/20/06 09:54 - 33ºF - ID#29329

i want happy friends!!!!!

What is going on. I feel like all of my friends from Fredonia are depressed. Honestly all of them. They are all depressed about one thing or another...their weight, their current relationships, their current jobs....if I could give ANYONE advice it would be major in something "real" in college because most of them didn't and now they have jobs they hate. And I don't know what to say to them except if you are sad then DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I know it is not always that easy but no one should be sad. You only live once as far as I know so if you are unhappy just freakin do something about it!!! I'm saying this in here because i can't say it to them in this blunt mean way but it is true!!!! Does this happen to all recent college graduates??? I mean I was definitely deperessed when I left college too and not that I'm 100% super thriled with my life, I feel that I have at least made efforts to be comfortable with myself and my current situation and it drives me nuts when I hear my best friends complain so much!!!!!!

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11/19/06 12:12 - 39ºF - ID#29328

Live from New York, it's Saturday Night!

Do you think Kel is upset that Kenan made it to SNL and he didn't?

Although I don't generally find SNL that funny anymore, I think Andy Samberg is pretty funny. He just did a funny skit with Ludacris, which is why I am thinking of him.

I miss Weekend Update with Amy and Tina. I like Seth Meyers but I don't think he will be as good as Tina. Weekend Update was always the high point of the show when they were on.

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11/14/06 06:50 - 43ºF - ID#29327

I'm a posting MACHINE

Ok a) I need to switch my user pic now because I didn't realize how my chest was such a focus and that is not generally the look I go for.

b) I want to take a French and/or German class this summer. Kinda for fun, but it would also certainly be helpful towards my Master's. Anyone have any suggestions on where to look for that? I'm sure ECC is probably the easiest and cheapest.

c) Though it is far away, it is fun to think in advance: I'm thinking about getting a part time job for the summer, just for fun and of course to make money. I was thinking possibly a waitress? I feel like everyone should be a waitress at some point and I could see myself being okay at it. But there are many things people can do. I'm sure I can count on the estrippers to give me some suggestions for a fun yet productive (?) summer job I could look into? Also feel free to tell me any funny or ridiculous jobs you may have had yourself!

d) I just took out some anger on some old clothes that I still have left behind from HIM. (I don't mean Jesus...that reminded me of the way the word LORD is always capitalized in like church books). I took some scissors and pretty much went to town and cut and ripped until they were no more. I'm not normally that kind of person...I've never like set fire to old pictures or slashed any ex's tires...but I have to say it was kind of fun. Though I know I can't erase memories, and someday (soon), it won't bother me, it seems to be in my best interest to get rid of stuff that reminds me of him. Though it may seem childish, I think it helps. I can't bring myself to get rid of pictures, so I will at least have those around forever. But running shorts...I can bear to part with those...just means a trip to Target to buy more! Darn.

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11/13/06 09:54 - 44ºF - ID#29326

done crying for now!

thanks for the advice and comments you guys. you always make me smile. after i wrote that post i grabbed the only piece of paper i could find...a jet blue credit card application...and just wrote and wrote which always seems to help me. seems to help me organize my thoughts and figure out that being upset over someone who has caused me nothing but pain and anger and sadness in the last year is totally ridiculous, and there is actually no good reason whatsoever to be upset about the whole thing!

i DO like jason's comment as well. not to divulge too much information about myself but i've had my eye on this one guy in this choir i sing in. i don't believe i've ever been so attracted to someone in my life! maybe it's just been long enough...perhaps it's time i actually did something about it... ;)

mk writes at 10:45:15 11/14/06 - Comment #12852: enknot, just for the record, i was definitely not crying because she is prettier than me because she is not! she is also very boring and has no personality. i honestly would have said the same thing before. so there's no way that i'm worried she's better than me in any department! ok she's skinnier than me. she looks anorexic. i suppose some would say that's an advantage??!!

enknot writes at 05:42:56 11/14/06 - Comment #12831: Hey MK. I Haven't read many of your posts, so excuse me if I seem a bit outta the blue, but in a really twisted kinda way it's really awsome that you can hurt about this situation.

Lemme explain. If you didn't have real feelings for this dude you wouldent care... ok maybe it's something more shallow and baseless like you thought she was prettier than you so your crying about it, but I'll just give you the benefit of doubt.

When I broke up with my ex (ok it was more mutual than that) I was glad she was gone and I missed her presence more than her. Actually I hated her. She was pretty selfish and really sucked in general, but that's enough dirt.

My place is still rather empty with just me in it, but at least I like all the occupants and none of the are cats, which I miss, but am deathly allergic to.
Either way I look at your situation, you win, since you had something real even if your ex didn't share your joy. Wish I could say that much about Becky. Now that your not with him you can find someone who cares about you as much as you cared about him.

Besides, I bet that even with a turtleneck on your still rather atractive, so have a few more good crys then go get that chior boy he don't know what he's in for!

jason writes at 08:21:37 11/14/06 - Comment #12819: Well I think you should definitely show some interest. I mean why not? I was told by my friend last weekend that this one chick thought I was cute, but hell if I knew, she more or less just broke my balls.

mike writes at 11:28:08 11/13/06 - Comment #12816: can't wait to hear more about him. And holy boobs in your user pic!

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11/13/06 12:30 - 38ºF - ID#29325

fuck

So here's what's not fun. Looking on Facebook and seeing your ex-boyfriend in his user picture with a girl. Granted the picture is so small that you can't see who it is but you're pretty damn sure it's a girl and you also know pretty well who it is and are not fucking shocked at all who it probably is. What's not cool is sitting in the middle of JFK. crying your eyes out around a bunch of strangers. What's cool yet embarassing is someone you don't even know giving you a packet of Kleenex. I want to just die right now. I just can't even stop crying and I don't know what to do with myself.

jason writes at 02:53:40 11/13/06 - Comment #12798: Ugh, I hate squelching the temptation to write disgusting filthy things but in consideration of the mood I have to do what's right!

joshua writes at 02:10:54 11/13/06 - Comment #12797: My brother is so right here its not even funny - ignore the second thing he said but pay close attention to the first. It is fabulous advice - you will see. Holding a torch for an ex that has moved on is useless.

Anyway you are beautiful and talented. Time will repair how you will feel, like Lee says. There will be a guy that comes along and will give you what you need - don't worry so much and enjoy yourself in the meantime.

hodown writes at 01:12:11 11/13/06 - Comment #12796: aww, im so sorry. we've all been there. heartbreak is the worst.

jason writes at 11:52:35 11/13/06 - Comment #12793: Another thing I've heard is the best way to get over a guy is to get under a guy, but hey I'm not in that position so I have no clue.

leetee writes at 11:20:43 11/13/06 - Comment #12792: ((((( (e:MK) )))))) Heartache sucks. But that ole dumb line that time heals all wounds is true. Time will fade the pain. Hang in there!

And just think, if you were still with that guy, you might not be available for the wonderful beautiful charming guy that is going to come into your life!!

museumchick writes at 09:35:26 11/13/06 - Comment #12789: I think Jason had some good advice- but I definitely know how you feel. Its as if someone churned your heart out and then stopped on it.

lilho writes at 08:56:28 11/13/06 - Comment #12788: i feel your pain, and trust me, mine is probably multiplied by a million.

jason writes at 08:38:34 11/13/06 - Comment #12787: "I just can't even stop crying and I don't know what to do with myself."

One thing you can do is remember that he is one of many, and that he's not the first or last guy in the world. Ex's are ex's for a reason. It wasn't meant to be. What if you ran into a really great guy? Don't waste any opportunities because of an attachment that serves no purpose.

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