10/12/04 03:57 - ID#34817
Two Hair Dryers.
Anyways, [inlink]u=soyeon&id=106[/inlink] I got two new hair dryers at some point right now. Well, my friend Leah kept saying that she has two hair dryers so that she can give one of them to me. Finally, I got one from Leah on Sunday. I stopped by her house to help her about photoshop and I lent my photo flesh to her before. I haven't taken actual still photo for a long time.. So, my photo camera and lense, flesh are sleeping these days and Leah needs the flesh as an MFA photo student plus I love Leah. well, but my video camera is busy.
Then, I got new one from Adriane as a gift yesterday. It was a surprise gift. She emailed me that she has a present for me. But I didn't guess it would be a hair dryer. Well, I helped Adriane sometimes that is my pleasure actually, I love Adriane's work so much. These days, I'm helping her website. Last Friday, I was at her office in school and we talked about the concept of my work.. -being alien in between Korea and USA-,.. and I mentioned that I'm becoming not to care of a lot of stuff these days, which is quite different from how I used to be in Korea. Then, mentioned about the hair dryer as an example. Anyway.. I was so surprised, she said.. "it's going to be cold soon.. you need a hair dryer.." It was very thoughtful. I was so touched. See? I'm not that bad..
Anyway.. I felt little sick yesterday.. finally I fell asleep as soon as I got home after my evening class. I just got up.. then actually, I'm freaked out from the fact that I have a lot of paper work that has to be done by this Friday from now on. I don't know.. Help me out.. I'm too tired. :(
Oh, by the way. I didn't know J3sse is Jesse whom I know and PaulnotPaul is Paul whom I know.. Cogratulations!! Paul and Trisha.
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10/11/04 03:45 - ID#34816
Sickness.
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10/09/04 01:22 - ID#34815
One thing that I want to do the most.
I want to go to shopping with my mom. I want to chat with my old co-workers. I miss them a lot. We can talk about all kind of stuff. Economic, Politice, life,..
I'm too stressed out and too cynical these days. bad.. bad..
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10/07/04 02:53 - ID#34814
Thoughts for today.
Everything in human being is fucked up already.. if you are aware of that, you have to be fucked up too which can make you feel sane, not insane way. if your thoughts are too serious in a right way, you must be insane. So, I've already joined the sane way, I am funked up. Make sense..?
Perception or Consciousness is no longer necessary for those who are sane these days. You know what I mean..? So, please don't make me so sad. I'm already sad enough.
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10/07/04 01:51 - ID#34813
I finally made up my mind.
I just finished my new video today which is related to my thesis. It's just a practice.. but it gave me a lot of thoughts. I had a presentation today.. and I showed it to people. I don't know. So, seems like I've just started my thesis thingie.
Well, I have to prepare to get beating up in Photo grads seminar in 2 weeks. Oh well, they never say good thing to any students. So,, I should prepare for that.
One thing.. fuck. I just figured out something tonight at the pink. I saw something clue as I was talking to one of my professor in front of the pink. What can I say.. Just fuck off. That's all.
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10/04/04 05:23 - ID#34812
Thoughts.
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10/03/04 04:34 - ID#34811
I really wanted to stay home.
We always go to the old pink with some professors. It's like another requirement course for media and art students. So, we usually start week party on Wednesday night. Of course, I went to the pink this wednesday night. It's okay, I don't have any class on Thursday. And, last Thursday, Robin finally moved out. We helped her moving almost midnight. It ended about 2 AM in the morning and I stayed her new apartment till 4 AM. Okay. Then, Friday night, I had a dinner with Robin and Steve Kurtz. Then, later.. I met media gangs again. Then, ended up at Steve Kurtz's house. I came home around 4 AM. Then, slept little while, got up around 9 AM, and ran to school for the shooting. Sooooo tired.
Actually, I was planning on watching movies with Holly last night, Saturday night, I fell asleep. but I figured Holly fell asleep as well since she didn't call me and she sleeps so little these days. Then, went to grocery shopping.. On my way back to home from Wegman, I got a phone call from one of my professor and he was telling me that it's his birthday. So, he wants to go to the pink. Oh well, I'm a nice person. So, I went to the pink again. Although I'm so tired and have a lot of stuff to get done.. I can't refuse his birthday going out. But, I came back to home earlier.. but.. still so tired. 4 nights straight I went out. Crazy. I really wanted to stay home.
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10/02/04 08:55 - ID#34810
So tired
I had to take a nap after finishing shooting. So tired.. and I'm so up and down to think of my work. Not somebody's work. I have a big presentation for my work in 3 weeks, (especially I have to show the direction of my thesis projet). But, I haven't done anything yet. Deleuze makes me think too much. Even I can't approach the direction for my thesis. I know what I want, but something makes me frustrated. I don't know. I'm just stressed out and tired.
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09/30/04 09:09 - ID#34809
Ramdon Thoughts
I never liked or enjoyed drinking when I was in Korea, well I'm not a heavy drinker here either. I got a headache from drinking last night. I know you would laugh a lot if I got little drunk with 2 glasses of drink. That's my maxium actually. More then 2 drinks, I can be blur badly.
I still don't understand why people like drinking. After drinking, you can mess up your day, and get headache and stomacheache. You can be sick. Also, I still think the taste of beer is so bad. Very bitter. I've never enjoyed beer.
I had to leave the old pink as soon as I finished my second drink. I already felt my body was getting remote. It's funny, I never wanted to show people that I got drunk. Now, I'm getting not to care of it or I'm getting mess. I was very undercontrolled. Not anymore.
It's weird though, after drinking I feel like I drive so cool. Last night, I felt it again.
In Tony's class yesterday, we were talking about influences. That was my questionable subject for a while, still it is.. (I'm little sick because of the headache right now) Since I've studied media art, I realized a lot of people talk about it. I didn't have any one and wondered why I have to have one whatever. I have favorite artists though. What is the differency between influence artists and favorite artists?
Eva Hesse, Maya Deren, Kiki Smith and Peter Sarkisian.
I felt how Eva Hesse was going through from reading her biography. Every her sculpture work is attached with her feelings and emotions. She was struggling how she can be succeed independant female artist in male dominated art field in 1960 period. She never considered by herself as a feminist. She died at an early age.
I want to write more about my favorite artists, but I'm sick right now.
Feminist, I don't know if I like the statement or not. Actually, I don't accept the statement of feminism. Ah, I want to write about that more.. but I'm sick and it is a heavy topic to talk about it right now. I will write it later.
Deleuze says..
"The still life is time, for everything that changes is in time, but time does not itself change, it could itself change only in another time, indefinitely"
Do you get it..?
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09/29/04 02:24 - ID#34808
The Long And Winding Road.
I'm listening to Beatles' the long and winding road. Yeah, our lives may be like the long and winding road. Long and winding... If the road is just straight.. how we can understand the illusive human beings. So.. it has to be winding... so.. we are not able to see ahead. I realized it long long time ago.. but I'm still not wise.
I'm listening to Beatles' the long and winding road over and over. I loved Beatles when I was young. I do still love Beatles.
Maybe I was just 9 years old or 10 years old.. it was probably around 1980.. I remember one recorded concert on TV show in Korea; one girl in audience seats was holding a flower and crying while listening to one band's music. I found out that music was "yesterday" maybe few years later.
I didn't know anything about Beatles at the time. I just simply thought that the girl crying was so beautiful and the music was so beautiful. One day few years later, my dad was listening to music in his office and I realized that the music was the same as I heard from the TV show. But, I couldn't ask my dad who they are because I was so scared of my dad at the time.
One day, my cursin who was a college student visited us and I wanted her to find the record in my dad's music collections. At the time, I couldn't read English.. I was in elementary school. So I tried immitating the song to give her some idea what it is.
She found it for me. That was Beatles. And, now I know.. the girl holding a flower grived for John Lenon's death.
It's okay I can find out the road. I feel better now.
The Long And Winding Road
The long and winding road that leads to your door,
Will never disappear,
I've seen that road before It always leads me here,
Leads me to your door.
The wild and windy night the rain washed away,
Has left a pool of tears crying for the day.
Why leave me standing here, let me know the way
Many times I've been alone and many times I've cried
Anyway you'll never know the many ways I've tried, but
Still they lead me back to the long and winding road
You left me standing here a long, long time ago
Don't leave me waiting here, lead me to you door
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