Can you see the real me, Can ya, Can ya?
69 confession questions

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Someone asking me to do something fun.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
YES i hate when people don't return their carts.

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
listener.

4. Do you take compliments well?
yes, and criticism too i think.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
no i tried it once but couldn't get into it

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
um, i think that depends on how hungry the wild animals are that could potentially be surrounding me.

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
well, girl scout camp. and day care.

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
I just asked my mom and we both said in unison "Hungry Hungry Hippos"!!!

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
nope

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
yeah I have.

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
i would like to be pursued. I did ALL of the pursuing last time.

14. Use three words to describe yourself?
sensitive, caring, perceptive

15. Do any songs make you cry?
yeah

16. Are you continuing your education?
yep, next year.

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
um no i guess not

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my dogs

19. How often do you read books?
not nearly enough. i just started reading wicked but i don't really like it

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
future

21. What is your favorite children's book?
"The Best Christmas Pagaent Ever"

22. What color are your eyes?
Brahn

23. How tall are you?
5'5"

24. Where is your dream house located?
somewhere warm and european

25. Best vacay ever?
either Seattle 2003 or Paris 2005

26. Coolest picture?


27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth
i heart Frizzy's

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
last Saturday, mmmmmmm

29. How about the movies?
last Saturday as well...i saw Dream Girls

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
a church about 2 miles away

32. Do you like mustard?
Yes

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
eat

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
dad

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
5-10 minutes

36. Can you do a split?
hahaha no waaaaaaay

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
father of the bride, i love that movie and haven't seen it

39. What did you do for New Year's?
got drunk at my house, stopped by PMT's briefly, then went downtown, then to Fredonia

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
didn't see it

41. Do you laugh a lot?
i think i laugh a decent amount. (e:mike) would describe the amount a way that i refuse to.

42. Do you own a camera phone?
used to, my new one does not

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
no she played the cymbals

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
N

46. how many hours of sleep do you get a night?
like 6

47. Do you watch MTV?
don't get it. ii'm sure if i got it i would

48. Do you like care bears?
yes

49. What do you buy at the movies?
popcorn and huge drinks

50. Do you know how to play poker?
how funny you ask. i just learned today at this great website.

51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
100% of the time

52. What do you wear to sleep?
lately i've been wearing a sexy sweatshirt and my favorte fredonia pajama pants

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
um, criminal activities.

54. How many meals do you eat a day?
9?

55. Is your tongue pierced?
no

56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
half the time

57. Most visited webpage?
it's probably a tie between (e:strip) and Facebook

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
ummm...i'm usually the serious one, so i like funny people as long as they aren't obnoxious (but then again who likes obnoxious people)

59. Ever been to L.A.?
nope. Well, Lackawanna.

60. Did you eat a cookie today?
do Teddy Grahams count?

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
no

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
mostly steal, but i have my share of itunes downloads.

63. Do you hate chocolate?
not at all

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
my parents like have never fought

65. Are you a gullible person?
sometimes?

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
no

67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
some kind of musician who gets to travel and make a ton of money doing it.

68. Are you easy to get along with?
yaaaahhhh

69. What is your favorite time of day?
hmmmmm....i think 1 pm. i'm finished teaching and the possibilities for the afternoon seem vast!!

...is definitely a pain in the ass.

but i think this person could have taken just a tad more time with theirs...

i think i'm addicted to food. i seriously can't stop eating. i mean i eat fairly healthy things but i just eat a lot of it. if anyone notices me start to double in size please let me know.

i'm also watching my american idol tape from tonight (the new york auditions). taping this show is definitely the best way to go, because you can tell when a person is going to get all emotional and angry or upset and you can choose to fast forward if you don't want to subject yourself to it. otherwise i do find this show so entertaining, and i think i might actually watch it through till the end this time.

ok i probably won't. but it's a nice thought.

i'm running in the penguin race for cradle beach camp on sunday. come join me or cheer me on!!!

happy belated birthday (e:paul) !

We were in the middle, well, the end, of High School Chorus rehearsal. It was already kind of a shitty day - girls were talking and getting annoyed with each other - and then I heard a cell phone. I ignored it for like, 10 seconds, and I really mean 10 seconds, which is a LONG time to ignore a phone ring. And it just kept going and going and then I actually saw kids laughing. So I stopped playing. And I yelled. And I took the phone away. And it wouldn't stop ringing which was somewhat amusing but made me even more frustrated. And the kids were dead silent, and terrified. I mean, I don't get angry. But for some reason, that phone pushed me over the edge. The bell rang right after that, thank God. And the girl whose phone it was, who is usually a loudmouth - a nice kid, decent singer, but an ego/attitude problem - came up to me and said she was sorry. Her voice started to crack and I could see tears forming in her eyes. I couldn't believe it! She said "I don't want to be in trouble, well I know I'm in trouble, but I don't want you to be mad at me." So I gave her a hug and told her I had to keep her phone until the end of the day and she still looked so upset, and scared, so I hugged her again. And then I walked very quickly to the faculty bathroom and burst into tears.

I know this is a big step as a teacher - letting the kids see me get very angry. And I'm sure it means something that I made her cry. It would be one thing if they saw me getting upset as a joke, but obviously that wasn't the case. This is not a girl that cries at anything!! But regardless of how big of a step this is, it still makes me feel awful. I'm sick of blaming everything on myself. I blame EVERY classroom issue on myself and the way I teach. I can't admit to myself that kids can just be plain old bad sometimes. I hate being angry. I hate that I am not a great teacher yet. I hate it. I know I'm a perfectionist and I'm too hard on myself but I hate not knowing everything. I mean that sounds ridiculous but it's true. I hate it. When will it all be easier?!?!

I gave my first detention today!

Going to the nurse's office, my a*%!!!!

i hate ex-boyfriends.





particularly mine.






i need a distraction.





something other than teaching or running.




or someone.

Yesterday, I reached a running milestone. I ran 10 miles without stopping. Although it took a long time, I'm super proud of myself! And the marathon I'm working for is in September, so I have lots of time to add on the miles and take away the minutes! Wooooo!!!

There is nothing worse than the way it feels to pull apart cotton balls.

I missed out on most of the estrip festivities. Thank you to my esecret Santa for my gift card. It will be well spent! I ended up going downtown to see a friend I haven't seen in awhile. I would have put up more of a fight to stay at Linwood but one was the DD! So we ended up at Soho for the actual countdown, and then drove down to Fredonia to meet up with some people down there. I don't remember most of being at Linwood, SoHo, or the drive down to Fredonia (during which I drank classy boxed wine and also fell asleep...it's a long drive for a drunky!). But I had a pretty good night. Wish I could have been at PMT's more, as I said, but I trust it was a great time anyway!!!! Here's a couple pics from my evening. It's not from my camera though. Get this. The memory card in my digital camera was missing when i woke up in the morning. Isn't that weird? And a little creepy? And also annoying...those suckers aren't cheap! Anyway, onto photos!



laura, me and nicole (two of my best friends from Fredonia) at SoHo


laura, me, nicole and joel


nicole and i at a bar in downtown Fredonia. I don't remember getting that crown at all.


nothing like open containers of alcohol in a car! :)

I love these things...

Where were you when 2006 began?
Drunk in downtown Fredonia, standing outside a bar because my sister was only 20.

Who were you with?
My sister and two good friends from Fredonia

Where will you be when 2006 ends?
either at the PMT's or downtown at the ball drop (I would prefer the first choice!!)

Whom will you be with when 2006 ends?
either everyone at the party or my friends nicole and laura

Was 2006 a good year for you?
It was way too weird. I wouldn't say it was bad but I definitely wouldn't say it was good, either.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
I suppose getting my first teaching job.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Bursting into tears in the Jet Blue Terminal in November in front of everyone there

Did you keep your New Year resolutions of 2006?
I don't remember, but probably.

Do you have any New Year resolutions for 2007?
Just to run a marathon, and be happy with myself of course.

Did you fall in love in 2006?
nope

Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
nope

Did you make any new friends in 2006?
yeah!

What was your favorite month of 2006?
Actually despite its craziness, I've enjoyed December a lot.

Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
awww, no! just to Canada. I NEED to go to Europe next year!!!

How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
Ohio, Pennsylvania, Massachusetts, Colorado, New Jersey

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
a friend of the family

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yeah...it was a rough year...most of my school friends are far away from me now.

What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
probably Bobby. I liked Confetti too.

What was your favorite song from 2006?
Hmmmm...I don't listen to the radio. But I do have a little crush on "Hips Don't Lie" by Shakira

What was your favorite album from 2006?
I have no idea.

How many concerts did you see in 2006?
Oh wow I have no idea. As far as "cool" concerts...uhhh...0??? Wow what has happened to me?!

Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
No

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
not really.

Did you do drugs in 2006?
well yes i sort of did. how exciting!

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Nothing that immediately comes to my mind. Even if I did some things that I look back now and feel stupid about, I know that anything I did or felt was probably for a good reason.

What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
Uh?

Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
No way jose!

Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
Indeed

What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Doing my first concert with the high school kids :)

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
hmm I'm not sure.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
I woudln't have eaten so much this past week! Damn holidays!!!!

What are your plans for 2007?

Give a recital
Figure out where I want to go to grad school
Get a full time job or at least something very close to it!
Go to Europe
Run the Yonkers Marathon
Visit my cousin and his new baby in Colorado
Save some money
Run away to the South Pole and live among the penguins!

happy new year everyone!