Journaling on estrip is free and easy. get started today

Last Visit 2015-03-25 11:48:46 |Start Date 2003-09-20 03:20:19 |Comments 256 |Entries 383 |Images 514 |Videos 1 |Mobl 3 |Theme |

12/22/06 12:32 - 37ºF - ID#29341

randomness as usual

a) I am the worst gift wrapper ever. Period. I am awful. I always manage to cut just slightly less than is needed to make the folds on the ends of the box, causing me to either cut out more paper and awkwardly attach it somehow, or leave a little bit showing so that the person opening the gift gets a sneak peek before they've even taken off the bow.

b) Thanks to everyone for suggestions about the spa. I ended up getting my mommy a gift card to Euphoria at the Galleria. Convenience. And they had some nice stuff it looked like, so I'm sure she will be happy.

c) I'm very excited because I decided that I'm going to take both of my classes on a rockin field trip to................the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame!!!! I think they will be so excited. Almost as excited as their dorky teacher (me).

d) I would like a White Christmas. Just for like, 4 days. Stupid global warming.

e) This is the second time I'm writing this post because it got erased before. I remember that my list at least went to F, but I have no idea right now what E and F were. So I guess I will say that I'm super excited about Secret Santa and New Years at PMT's on Linwood!!!! A party thrown for the estrippers has yet to disappoint, and I hope to see everyone there ... !!! :D

f) Bye!!!
print add/read comments

Permalink: randomness_as_usual.html
Words: 245
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/19/06 10:29 - 31ºF - ID#29340

massage needed...STAT

Well actually I'm looking for a spa/massage place so I can get a gift card or gift package for my mom for Christmas/birthday. Does anyone know of any good ones???

print add/read comments

Permalink: massage_needed_STAT.html
Words: 32
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/15/06 09:05 - 42ºF - ID#29339

Nakedness

So, tell me what you think this means. I know that everyone dreams every night and I can remember my dreams fairly well. I think I used to be better about remembering, I must be slipping in my old age. Anyway, for as long as I can recall, there is a recurring theme in a lot of my dreams, and that is this: in very many situations, I am not wearing any clothes. Or, I will be wearing like, just a shirt. And oddly enough, no one seems to really care, yet I still feel slightly uncomfortable. But I never seem to go put on more clothes. Or sometimes I can tell that I'm hoping to get somewhere to find some clothes, but I don't know if I ever do.

I wonder what this means? I've considered it may have something to do with self-confidence, or maybe I'm feeling vulnerable, or something. It really has been a part of my dreams for a long time! Any dream experts care to share any insight?

Also, just as a little survey, when you dream, do you see it through your own eyes, or do you see yourself? I know I've asked my friends this. I can truly that I've never seen myself in a dream. I remember a friend of mine in high school (who I think was full of herself and her looks) told me she always saw herself in dreams.

I wonder if dreams really symbolize anything or if it is all nonsense.


print addComment

Permalink: Nakedness.html
Words: 253
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/14/06 05:23 - 51ºF - ID#29338

my best friend is in my dad's hat

My dad just showed me the tag on his winter hat, and look at it says:

image



print add/read comments

Permalink: my_best_friend_is_in_my_dad_s_hat.html
Words: 19
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/13/06 01:49 - 48ºF - ID#29337

someone's got a case of the wednesdays

do you ever have one of those days when you just don't feel like smiling? i feel like i've had those all week. and maybe if you have a job where you don't work with people or you can be on your own, it's not as big of a deal. but my tired and bad mood and sad looking exterior rubs off on my students and i hate it. i'm sick of blaming my issues with students on myself, because i blame everything on myself, but i can completely understand if they feel like crap because i look and feel like crap and apparently i'm not very good at disguising it. i don't know how to do it! one of my students said to me, i haven't made you laugh all week. how depressing. kids notice everything. i'm sick of feeling so blah but there is nothing that is making me excited right now. like NOTHING. even christmas. i hate that. i just want to be a super wonderful awesome teacher who everyone loves and listens to. no scratch that. i just want to be better. and more respected. i want to be the kind of teacher that i remember and admire - the ones who took their jobs seriously, who knew what they were talking about, who knew how to get kids to be interested while at the same time keeping control and maintaining a classroom of focus and concentration. it's not that i want to be everyone's favorite teacher. i mean there are tons of kids who like me. the problem lies in that they look at me as a young, cool teacher that they can talk to and relate to, and not someone that they need to listen to so much. it's like, i know most people don't look forward to getting older but i really am in a lot of ways. while i love being able to talk to my students like normal human beings, i don't like being so close to them in age to the point where i feel like i could be in their class. it's a problem with being a young teacher in a high school setting. at least when i'm older there will be a bigger gap between us, both literally and figuratively. of course i'm leaving after next year anyway. but man it's only december. i have a long way to go. i want to sleep.
print add/read comments

Permalink: someone_s_got_a_case_of_the_wednesdays.html
Words: 406
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/11/06 11:58 - 41ºF - ID#29336

heartache

i hate when people break up. it is just so sad. no matter how it happens, people are hurt, sometimes devastated, and they can't even control it. and it's like you do your best to reassure them that it isn't the end of the world and things will be okay, and even if they know you're telling them the truth, they are still so sad and there is nothing you can do to make it all better. and i hate that. no more breakups.
print addComment

Permalink: heartache.html
Words: 84
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/10/06 11:45 - 44ºF - ID#29335

just writing

Well, don't have too much to write about...but felt the urge...let's see

I can't believe how busy Christmas time is. I had a concert three nights in a row with different singing groups. Plus my school concert was last Wednesday, and I have another concert THIS Wednesday. Besides shopping and having to still plan for 2 weeks of school before break. It's nuts. But really if you think about it, it is all good things that I'm filling my time with, and so I'm happy about that.

(e:Mike) and I went to see Rent today. It was my first time seeing it, his second. I am really really happy I went to see it! I have listened to the music so much and it is okay but you really need to see what's happening on stage to understand. It was very good. I know my mouth was hanging open during some of the songs because I was just in awe and very in the moment and I had to keep reminding myself to look normal. The people next to us kind of gasped and shifted in their seats whenver there was a swear word (and there are many!) And it was very funny to listen to the conversation of whoever was behind us during intermission. This man was saying things like "So these people do all these terrible things to themselves and we're supposed to feel bad for them? They choose this lifestyle and we're supposed to care?" It was very interesting. (E:Mike) and I were talking about it, how we forget that there are people who look at Rent in that way. For us and people we know, we don't judge or think of the characters in the show like that. I just finished a unit on Rent in my Music Appreciation class, and I think I will tell them about those comments, because I presented to them using the idea that Rent was very edgy and controversial and brought many issues to the stage that no one had before, and there are lots of reactions, and now I heard one for real!

I had a very good time at the party last night even though it was brief :( Hope everyone had a great time. Makes me want a pinata at my next birthday!!!

Uhhh, that's it. Good luck to everyone with their holiday plans, etc. Christmas and 2007 will be here before we know it!!!


print add/read comments

Permalink: just_writing.html
Words: 409
Location: Kenmore, NY


Category: movies

12/04/06 12:21 - 28ºF - ID#29334

Bobby

I just went to see the movie Bobby. It was written and directed by Emilio Estevez and has every celebrity you could think of. The movie takes place on the day that Bobby Kennedy was assassinated in 1968. The majority of the movie is dedicated to meeting many people who either work at or was staying at the Ambassador Hotel that day, where both the campaign rally and assassination took place.

I thought it was so well done and such a good movie. It made me cry my eyes out. Each person you meet in the movie, you are drawn to or feel some sort of connection to; whether you like or dislike them, you form an opinion about them. And though I don't know as much as I would like to about the whole event and Bobby Kennedy, it was clear that he had a large following and important ideas for our country and that his death was extremely devastating for so many people. It was just so sad to see clips of the actual night of the assassination, with him making speeches about his hope for the Presidency and for the future, and to know that moments later he would be shot in a kitchen. It was very emotionally draining but in a great way. I highly, highly recommend it!
print add/read comments

Permalink: Bobby.html
Words: 221
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/02/06 11:26 - ID#29333

one year and look at me now!

I realized yesterday that it has been one year that I have been single. I can't believe that it's already been that long. When I think back to that night, to the end of that awful semester, and about how devastated I was...and I think how I am today, and it makes me feel really good. Virtually every aspect of my life has improved since then, and in general I am very proud of myself, both in how I handled the situation and the person I have become. Sure I have made some mistakes, I probably said some things I shouldn't have, or NOT said things I should have (that is for sure!), but overall, I was mature and adult about the whole thing, and I can't believe how I didn't call him ONCE, not ONCE!!!! I never called or went to him crying or begging him to come back. And I really think he expected it, and I DIDN'T DO IT! I think it made such a difference in the whole process. I mean I really can truly say that I'm....over it....!! Wow! I mean granted, if I went in a room with him and his new (ugly...seriously she is) girlfriend, I'm sure I would be uncomfortable and a bit unhappy, but I think that is probably natural. But the fact that I can think about it anytime and never feel sad or jealous is something I'm very happy about! Because I realize there is totally nothing to be sad about and I know things are working out for me in very good ways. I hate to sit here and toot my own horn or whatever, but I just wanted to say that I can't believe it's been a year and look how far I have come. Well you don't have to really. But I am looking and I am very happy about it. And thank you to my friends and all the estrippers who have helped and made me laugh and smile and think with your comments and responses to my previous journals. Everyone has really been great. I am so proud of me!!!!



print add/read comments

Permalink: one_year_and_look_at_me_now_.html
Words: 359
Location: Kenmore, NY


12/02/06 11:17 - ID#29332

Nostrils

So I was shooting a video with my lap top and I leaned over to check something on the screen, causing my nostrils to block out almost the entire screen. It makes me laugh every time. I hope you enjoy.

::Download Flash Video::



print add/read comments

Permalink: Nostrils.html
Words: 42
Location: Kenmore, NY


Search

Chatter

New Site Wide Comments

joe said to joe
Never send a man to do a grandma's job...

sina said to sina
yes thank you!
Well, since 2018 I am living in France, I have finished my second master of science,...

paul said to sina
Nice to hear from you!! Hope everything is going great....

paul said to twisted
Hello from the east coast! It took me so long to see this, it might as well have arrived in a lette...