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10/13/04 12:30 - ID#34818

New Work that I'm working on.

In my head, all about my work and Deleuze these days.. I'm getting too obsessed..

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by the way.. Paul.. sorry to hear that you have to stop eating Korean food.
Happy birthday to two ladies.. and J3sse is not the person I know..
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10/12/04 03:57 - ID#34817

Two Hair Dryers.

Some point.. I think I'm nice.-- Isn't this bad to talk about me like that?, actually, I'm bad, for example, I talked about someone's presentation in the class last night like, "I hate your presentation, you didn't prepare anything, keep searching clip during presentation that made me headache. so, I didn't get the point. yike, see? bad? Isn't it.. too critical or too honest?-

Anyways, [inlink]u=soyeon&id=106[/inlink] I got two new hair dryers at some point right now. Well, my friend Leah kept saying that she has two hair dryers so that she can give one of them to me. Finally, I got one from Leah on Sunday. I stopped by her house to help her about photoshop and I lent my photo flesh to her before. I haven't taken actual still photo for a long time.. So, my photo camera and lense, flesh are sleeping these days and Leah needs the flesh as an MFA photo student plus I love Leah. well, but my video camera is busy.

Then, I got new one from Adriane as a gift yesterday. It was a surprise gift. She emailed me that she has a present for me. But I didn't guess it would be a hair dryer. Well, I helped Adriane sometimes that is my pleasure actually, I love Adriane's work so much. These days, I'm helping her website. Last Friday, I was at her office in school and we talked about the concept of my work.. -being alien in between Korea and USA-,.. and I mentioned that I'm becoming not to care of a lot of stuff these days, which is quite different from how I used to be in Korea. Then, mentioned about the hair dryer as an example. Anyway.. I was so surprised, she said.. "it's going to be cold soon.. you need a hair dryer.." It was very thoughtful. I was so touched. See? I'm not that bad..

Anyway.. I felt little sick yesterday.. finally I fell asleep as soon as I got home after my evening class. I just got up.. then actually, I'm freaked out from the fact that I have a lot of paper work that has to be done by this Friday from now on. I don't know.. Help me out.. I'm too tired. :(

Oh, by the way. I didn't know J3sse is Jesse whom I know and PaulnotPaul is Paul whom I know.. Cogratulations!! Paul and Trisha.

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10/11/04 03:45 - ID#34816

Sickness.

Finally, I'm sick. Too much intensive and stressful emotions.. Now, I don't know how to figure this week out. This week will be dead. I'm getting obsessed of my work as well. I don't feel good, but I can't go to bed either. The effect of my medicine is making me feel weird right now. I have to call my mom, but keep forgetting and I don't feel to call her right now. I will eventually. Thinking of arbitrarily united images.. abstract relation.. perception-image.. trying to figure these words, and now I'm smoking.
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10/09/04 01:22 - ID#34815

One thing that I want to do the most.

Ah, I want to go to a summer trip with my family. I miss the eastern ocean in Korea. I just want to lay down on the beach with my niece and nephew although they are out of control. My youngest sister said, we should try to arrive in Korea at the same time in December.. I haven't seen her over 2 years. We go back to Korea always different time. But, this time we will try to be there together at the same time. I want to go to spas in the middle of night with my best friends in Korea.
I want to go to shopping with my mom. I want to chat with my old co-workers. I miss them a lot. We can talk about all kind of stuff. Economic, Politice, life,..

I'm too stressed out and too cynical these days. bad.. bad..
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10/07/04 02:53 - ID#34814

Thoughts for today.

Yeah, One of my professor told me at the pink like "Soyeon, you are very optimistic" with giving me an odd face. Yeah, I'm so optimistic... which is good.. isn't it..? He was being sarcastic of who I am.

Everything in human being is fucked up already.. if you are aware of that, you have to be fucked up too which can make you feel sane, not insane way. if your thoughts are too serious in a right way, you must be insane. So, I've already joined the sane way, I am funked up. Make sense..?
Perception or Consciousness is no longer necessary for those who are sane these days. You know what I mean..? So, please don't make me so sad. I'm already sad enough.

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10/07/04 01:51 - ID#34813

I finally made up my mind.

Yeah, I was being wish-wash about my thesis committee for a while, also I was being lazy to make up my mind who I want to be in.. because I wanted to have Caroline, but she is not here, she is in Germany this moment. Yeah, finally I made up my mind. Tony, Steven, and Sylvie.. they are my thesis committee.. From now on, I'm going to start my real world. Oh, Scary..

I just finished my new video today which is related to my thesis. It's just a practice.. but it gave me a lot of thoughts. I had a presentation today.. and I showed it to people. I don't know. So, seems like I've just started my thesis thingie.
Well, I have to prepare to get beating up in Photo grads seminar in 2 weeks. Oh well, they never say good thing to any students. So,, I should prepare for that.

One thing.. fuck. I just figured out something tonight at the pink. I saw something clue as I was talking to one of my professor in front of the pink. What can I say.. Just fuck off. That's all.



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10/04/04 05:23 - ID#34812

Thoughts.

All matter is that it is a part of my memory and it imprinted on my heart. So, memory is always melancholy.. whatever it is good memory or bad memory.. something left behind in the invisible world and you have lost... That's my word.
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10/03/04 04:34 - ID#34811

I really wanted to stay home.

I've been going out since Wednesday night, the media gangs night. No wonder that I'm so stressed out and tired.

We always go to the old pink with some professors. It's like another requirement course for media and art students. So, we usually start week party on Wednesday night. Of course, I went to the pink this wednesday night. It's okay, I don't have any class on Thursday. And, last Thursday, Robin finally moved out. We helped her moving almost midnight. It ended about 2 AM in the morning and I stayed her new apartment till 4 AM. Okay. Then, Friday night, I had a dinner with Robin and Steve Kurtz. Then, later.. I met media gangs again. Then, ended up at Steve Kurtz's house. I came home around 4 AM. Then, slept little while, got up around 9 AM, and ran to school for the shooting. Sooooo tired.
Actually, I was planning on watching movies with Holly last night, Saturday night, I fell asleep. but I figured Holly fell asleep as well since she didn't call me and she sleeps so little these days. Then, went to grocery shopping.. On my way back to home from Wegman, I got a phone call from one of my professor and he was telling me that it's his birthday. So, he wants to go to the pink. Oh well, I'm a nice person. So, I went to the pink again. Although I'm so tired and have a lot of stuff to get done.. I can't refuse his birthday going out. But, I came back to home earlier.. but.. still so tired. 4 nights straight I went out. Crazy. I really wanted to stay home.
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10/02/04 08:55 - ID#34810

So tired

I didn't get enough sleep last night as niether did Holly. I was so grumpy while I was shooting video today. Just don't like people watching me shooting, or still don't agree the idea of having an editor. Think about this example, what's the job for graphic designers? do they need someone to find out some image for their design..? So, it doesn't make sense to me at all about having an editor. Also, this work is avant-grade style. How come I can be a video art person then? I don't know. I just need few people who can help me out. I asked someone to take care of the lightings, and I just needed few models. Well, this is just for a job. It doesn't really matter. Still grumpy. Oh well.

I had to take a nap after finishing shooting. So tired.. and I'm so up and down to think of my work. Not somebody's work. I have a big presentation for my work in 3 weeks, (especially I have to show the direction of my thesis projet). But, I haven't done anything yet. Deleuze makes me think too much. Even I can't approach the direction for my thesis. I know what I want, but something makes me frustrated. I don't know. I'm just stressed out and tired.






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09/30/04 09:09 - ID#34809

Ramdon Thoughts

I've just got the first email for today as I'm writing now. I have the MSN messenger so that I can notice whenever emails come up if I sit in front of my computer.

I never liked or enjoyed drinking when I was in Korea, well I'm not a heavy drinker here either. I got a headache from drinking last night. I know you would laugh a lot if I got little drunk with 2 glasses of drink. That's my maxium actually. More then 2 drinks, I can be blur badly.

I still don't understand why people like drinking. After drinking, you can mess up your day, and get headache and stomacheache. You can be sick. Also, I still think the taste of beer is so bad. Very bitter. I've never enjoyed beer.

I had to leave the old pink as soon as I finished my second drink. I already felt my body was getting remote. It's funny, I never wanted to show people that I got drunk. Now, I'm getting not to care of it or I'm getting mess. I was very undercontrolled. Not anymore.
It's weird though, after drinking I feel like I drive so cool. Last night, I felt it again.

In Tony's class yesterday, we were talking about influences. That was my questionable subject for a while, still it is.. (I'm little sick because of the headache right now) Since I've studied media art, I realized a lot of people talk about it. I didn't have any one and wondered why I have to have one whatever. I have favorite artists though. What is the differency between influence artists and favorite artists?

Eva Hesse, Maya Deren, Kiki Smith and Peter Sarkisian.

I felt how Eva Hesse was going through from reading her biography. Every her sculpture work is attached with her feelings and emotions. She was struggling how she can be succeed independant female artist in male dominated art field in 1960 period. She never considered by herself as a feminist. She died at an early age.

I want to write more about my favorite artists, but I'm sick right now.

Feminist, I don't know if I like the statement or not. Actually, I don't accept the statement of feminism. Ah, I want to write about that more.. but I'm sick and it is a heavy topic to talk about it right now. I will write it later.

Deleuze says..

"The still life is time, for everything that changes is in time, but time does not itself change, it could itself change only in another time, indefinitely"

Do you get it..?






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