11/16/04 10:37 - ID#34838

Road Trip (1) - Cleveland.

I left Buffalo about 3 hours ago, which was around 7 AM in the morning.
While I was getting ready to leave Buffalo, I was thinking.. oh no.. This is the time I usually go to bed. But, I got up. I think I was very tired last night.. Couldn't get enough sleep.. and ran around to get work done all day long.

I'm in Starbucks having some bread and coffee around Cleveland. My back was so hurt while driving. I think I should take a break here for one hour.. I hadn't done road trips for a long time. So, it's been kind of okay so far. I will see how exhaust I can be later.

For this trip, I had to change all my tires yesterday. Well, one of them was good shape, but Walmart didn't put the right tire in January, so they gave me one as free. It wasn't that expensive.. Since I'm driving so long time, I had to do that.

I think I like here. It seems little urbanized than Buffalo. Yeah, I like urban style. But, it doesn't mean that I don't like Buffalo. Buffalo is okay. Too much snow, that's the problem.. but.. I like my friends in Buffalo.

I have my video camera with me.. so, I can probably take pictures on this trip.. Oh, my video camera has the function of digital camera as well, just it looks really bigger than normal digital camera. Oh well.

Okay, I gotta look at my map again.. make sure one more time.
Oh.. AAA is so cool.. they gave me a very nice map and highlighted on the map where I have to take.. That was so cool.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/13/04 07:33 - ID#34837

More Halloween Pictures.

Robin: "I gotta take care of my new VHS, I'm not a halloween thief"

Alan: "I'm the blue man.. spooky enough?"

Anna: "I'm already tired of wearing those high-hills"

Aaron: "Matthew Barney? no way, I'm the new cremaster"

Julie and Soyeon: "what's up..? Witch?", "hey.. pinky.. look at here?"

Alan and Soyeon: "hey.. halloween is here! come on in"

Steve and SeonHyung: "see? the happiness is here, come on in"

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/12/04 05:23 - ID#34836

at Julie's party

I got really offended by someone telling me that I'm hyper..
This person must not know that I'm very sensitive as well, which means he doesn't know me enough.. Well, I know what he was just saying that was not to try to offend me, anything on purpose...... I know.. why do I care then..? I don't know..
I think I have some psychological unstableness...... I'm scared....

After Paul, Terry, Matthew left, we had crazy moments for a while..
I got crazy to make everybody's hairstyle with Julie's punky hair stuff..
I made Paul Vanouse, Steve Kurtz and Tony Conrad's hair style like party ladies..
All of us got crazy.. dance.. loud music.. birthday tunnel,,, taping all those crazy moments.. I really had fun.... but soon... I got feeling meaningless again..

Nothingness... meaninglessness.... what is all about..? it doesn't' make me feel full enough.... Rather it gave me bitter smile... hollow feelings..

So, I had to take off there soon...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/11/04 12:12 - ID#34835

Movie list that I should watch...

1) The Mirror --- Andrei Tarkovsky (I've watched it once, but have to watch it again)
2) Stalker --- Andrei Tarkovsky.
3) Nostalgia --- Andrei Tarkovsky.
4) Sacrifice --- Andrei Tarkovsky.
5) Heart of Glass --- Werner Herzog and Norman Hill.

And, I really want to watch Eternal Sunshine..

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/10/04 04:10 - ID#34834

Read Me To Sleep

The last day when I finally close my eyes from leaving all my memories behind, what I will miss the most in my life..? What thing I want to hold and bring into my grave..? Too many people have come and left me already. People are just there, and I'm just running into them as my life goes. How many times can I have the attachment to people.. who can be..? And if I lost the person I have a feeling or an attachment.. Should I just walk away because the time or the moment goes away everyday..? Who can read me to sleep on the last day of my life..?
Will the person know what I have loved in my life..? Sometimes, I feel like I'm ready to sleep because no one will be there..... it will go away beyond the irretrievable moments....
And, you will be the one who left me behind.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/08/04 09:51 - ID#34833

The First Snow of the Season.

I'm not feeling romantic at all right now. But, I have to write something on the first snow day of this season. So, the first snow of last year was November 14th.
It's November 8th today.. so.. 7 days eariler than last year.. [inlink]u=soyeon&id=1[/inlink]

Well, still don't have anybody to call up for today.. Well, I called Robin.. my sweetheart.. Robin.. I love ya..

Wait... here more halloween party photos.
Robin, Julie, Anna, Steve Kurtz, Holly, Me, a friend of Vince.

Anna, Robin, Me, Steve Kurtz, Vince, Julie, Holly.

Me, Aaron and his girlfriend, Holly.

Steve Kurtz and Tony Conrad.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/08/04 01:49 - ID#34832

If I leave this country.

1) I want to see my ex-boyfriend. I was too mad at him, so I didn't allow him to talk to me although we had to see each other all the time. We could be friends, but I had to punish him for a long time. I still keep seeing him as my memory sometimes.

2) I will drive for 16 hours to be there for sure, actually I will do that soon.

3) I will give my computer(not powerbook), TV, DVD player, VHS to Robin.

4) I will give my Dishes and Wine glasses to Julie.

5) I will give some of my stuff whatever Alan wants.

6) I will also give some of my stuff whatever Paul wants.

7) I will give my small plants to Matthew.

8) I will give my scanner to Terry..

9) I will invite all my friends for a party.. maybe

10) Then, I will start writing letters to people I appricate in US.

11) Final thing, I will go to see Craig... and cry.

Then, I don't know what else I will do.. I was just thinking about that..

Well, I will miss my first costume for Halloween Party.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/07/04 04:23 - ID#34831

Great. No Books for People.

[inlink]u=terry&id=350[/inlink]
What is the next step to distroy human society in this country..?
Don't read books from now on.
Wow, that sounds really great to make people stupid like the host of this country.
Let's just be ignorant all together that would be better to live.
Oh!!!.. by the way, the bible will be available in any church in this country. Right..?

I am Furious.
I might have to take off this country as well sooner or later.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/05/04 02:10 - ID#34830

Everything is meaningless

I know everything is meaningful in human being, but I keep confronting feeling that everything is meaningless. I wanted to try hard to find out that there is something for me feeling worth. But, now I don't feel to find out anymore.
I miss my nephew and niece so much though.

So depressed from all kind of situations surrounding me right now. I don't have any energy to get off this depressing line. Rather it keeps pushing me down into the hell. I can't trust anybody in America. People are so individual and selfish somehow. Probably a lot of people who came here as abroad students had some expectation how this society would give them some kind of opportunities to find out valuable ideas in the long run. But, it's very blocked to those who are like me.

I already mentioned to Paul earlier that the re-elected guy is a nationalist, not a globalist, which means, he's gonna do whatever he feels right to have benefits. And, actually this society is based on these conservative value structure like what he wants, which I didn't really realize it before. I thought it's more like conflict value system between individualizd liberity and uptied sexuality. But, there is something more than those issus.

I always don't feel safe. Probably I just realized that nationalism or patriotism is more expanded than how the re-elected guy is in this country. It can be the supremacist structuralism.

I always don't feel safe, then why I have to do that again. I don't know.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/03/04 04:27 - ID#34829

So depressed.

It rained yesterday, but I was impressed from finding out some people in rain coats held a sign "Kerry and Edwards" on the sidewalk, while driving own my way to school yesterday. But, it was rainning. Something already implied that all of us in the world will have the saddest day soon. And it turned out the truth.

Wish people in every countries of the world could vote for this election. I really want to know what the world think of this..? I think nobody is happy with this result.
I'm not feeling good because I know it will affect on every single country in a bad way in the near future again. Please look at what's going on the world.

No peace for the world because the peace has been owned for only this country.

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

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Location: Buffalo, NY

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