A man, who has no home, misses home,

A man, who has home, misses the wind on the empty open field,

I, thinking on a street after leaving home,

Nothing earned, Nothing lost in my life,

Everything is just gone away with years,

Like the wind on the empty open field,

A man in crying misses the day laughing,

A man in laughing fears coming the day crying the end of the day laughing,

I, asking a blooming grass on a street,

For what I have lived,

And, for what I will live,

An alive man worries the death,

A dying man yearns for the days being alive,

A man, who has no liberty, misses the liberty,

A man, who has liberty, is dying on a street with his excessive liberty.

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SJ

I'm still feeling hurt from what has happened to me yesterday. Oh well, I need to just wait. Anyway, last time I was trying to upload my niece's story but there was errors on elmwoodstrip.com, so I couldn't do it.

It was my second younger sister's birthday few weeks ago. Since me and my youngest sister are in overseas, only my first younger sister had to treat for my second younger sister's birthday. (by the way, I have three younger sisters and I'm the oldest one) My niece loves my second younger sister because there is only one her aunt in Korea right now. My second younger sister always buys something for my niece and bring her to trips whatever. Since me and my youngest sister are students, we are not able to buy lots of gifts to my niece, my second younger sister has a job and money so she buys pretty stuff for my niece all the time.

My brother in law noted that my niece wants to be an artist, but he is concerned that he will spend so much money to support my niece whatever as a joke. Yeah, me and my youngest sister are art students so we need a lot of money for our work although it's not a promise to make a lot of money after graduating. :( But, I'm supporting my niece if she wants to be.

Anyway, my niece gave her birthday drawing to my second younger sister. She drew a heart and wrote. Aunt, I love you, come to visit our home in incorrecting spellings. Of course my second younger sister posted this on her website and it made me little jealous. I think my niece doesn't remember me well. I know she knew she has a big aunt in America, but.. you know.. she is just 5 years old and I'm not in Korea all the time. So, it's understandable.

Look at my niece's drawing.. even she drew a cupid arrow too. how cute she is.
Do you wanna see the futural artist.?

Okay.. I'm having really really a bad situation right now. Finally I got my car back today and I was very happy with that. Before going to my mechanic, I needed to get some cash for them, so I stopped by my bank. Then, I realized that there is no money left and I got so surprised because I knew that I have money in my bank.
So, I went back to my friend's car and told him that I don't have money in my bank. It's weird. I thought I had money at least 1000$ and I got so confused.
My friend told me that I should check my bank blance whatever. So, I went back there again asked a banker what's going on. Then, she said, on 9/7, Tuseday, I bought something at T-mobile and it was 1,399,99$. So, I told her that I never bought at T-mobile. I have a cell phone.. what are you talking about..? She said, I should talk to the bank adviser. Then, I talked the bank advisor.. My friend was with me at the time.. I got too shock and I couldn't calm down.
The bank advisor told me that somebody must have used my card number at T-mobile on 9/7.. and all my money went though on 9/8. What..? and He tried to call people and figure things out. Then, he said.. they closed my bank account by the time and he cut my debit card right away. He said.. it will be okay because they can find out who did it whatever. But it takes time about 10 days. And he said, I can get my money back too. I was almost passed out. What has happened to me.
The bank advisor told me that the investgator will call me sometime next week and will ask me a lot of questions whatever. And they will find out. I don't know..
I heard this kind of stuff before, but never knew it would happen to me.
I'm so upset. 1.400.00$ has been stolen in my bank. I buy something through on-line sometimes.. it is probably becasue of that. I don't know.. I'm so upset.
Hopefully everything will be fine soon.

I love my new user Pic. It's so funny although I put it up here.

I'm very annoyed by this stupid assignment. I bet Holly is annoyed as well.

Yesterday, we, Tony(video professor), Robin, Julie, Liz, Seonhyung, went to Toronto to check some galleries there. We got lots of funny things because of Tony Conrad. It was really a long day. I slept 11 hours today. This one is created by Seonhyung. She is a new graduate student. Yes, She is a Korean too. ;)
Robin, Thanks again for driving us.. This is better picture than those crazy pictures. [inlink]u=soyeon&id=90[/inlink] [inlink]u=soyeon&id=89[/inlink] Don't you think so..?

do you think it's possible..? I don't know.. wow.. it looks crazy.

tatoo..? I'm not against with getting tatoo, but I think it's too much. what do you think..? --- sorry, I'm very distracted from reading Deleuze, too complicated, so I had to take some break, but this tatoo is too much for my little break

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I got almost heartattact from my presentation in [inlink]u=soyeon&id=82[/inlink]the photo graduate seminar today. Yes, it was a very intensive critique course. As my acceptance was previsional, I got so nervous and scared while the class was going on. Also, I'm not familier with the photo faculity, they are not Media Study faculty whom I always talk, so it was more than twice scary situation. Well, I remembered that a photo MFA student told me last time.. "hey, Soyeon, don't tell me that I warned you" and finally I realized why he told me like that. Oh well.

Okay, after I got his email back, I was so scared so I had to talk to someone I know in the art department about the course everything.. She said.. don't worry and brought me to his office. So, I had a chance to talk to the professor. At the time he was very nice to me and everything what he said was totally make sense. Well, he saw some media students work, but it wasn't enough for graduate level and photo MFA students are very selective, they did all portfolio review but mine is not.. and he added "we won't kill you"

It was challenging to me.. should I back off..? I was thinking of that.. nope.. I can't. It's already started.. So.. I had to look at all my work for two days.. but.. I thought everything what I did wasn't good.. getting scared.. I selected some work I have made and put them together on a DV tape and I wrote about my concept and description everything because I knew I wouldn't talk very well in the class whatever.

I went to the class.. I felt that I'm totally an alien there. My audition started it..
After watching some my video and installation, performance.. they started asking me a lot of questions and they pointed out every single problems.. Wow. Even someone said one video I made 2 years ago was immature. I thought so too at the time, but I didn't realize it yesterday.. why.. why..

After all, the professor said, "you can stay in the class" I passed my audition.
Even though what he said was so blunt.. but.. he didn't kick me out of the class. God.. I got almost heartattact.. It was so intensive.. I thought I could be kicked out of the class from what they were talking about my work. I don't know I feel really weird about it.

I ran into the professor after the class outside of CFA.. and he came up to me..
"We didn't kill you.. it was just tough" Yeah, I can handle it.. it's good for me..
I can handle their critique.. I'm old enough.... everything is good for my work everything.. it's good.. I need it.. I need it. They gave me the direction what I have to do.. it is good..

Love Cycling...