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i decided that i am not only going to abstain from relationships for a loooong time, i am also dropping sex and masturbation. funny it's not a hard decision to make right now, as i am not even able to masturbate without wanting to cry as i orgasm! i don't know why, but it makes me want to sob myself to sleep. so i'm quitting them all together.

it feels like the break-up happened weeks ago, when it's only been one week. i saw pics of the ex at a party he attended this weekend and i am happy to report that he looked like absolute shit! he looks like he's been literally smokin crack! quite shocking. someone told me that he was miserable the most of the time and stayed to himself.

good, i hope that bastard drowns in his misery.

i want us to remain friends, he said. FUCK YOU! you can befriend my fucking vomit as i puke up the fucking bullshit that spews out of your fucking mouth, you foul, selfish, self absorbed fuck. YOU LOOK LIKE FUCKING SHIT, and it now matches to your fucking personality, you slimy cockroach!


and with that, goodnight.