went to the saloon last nite and ended up in an interesting conversation with this old guy about music. apparently, according to scott (the old guy's name, though i don't think scott is a good name for an old guy) all of the best muscians who died in the 60's and 70's died at 27. thats what he said. so , who was i to argue when shots of irsih mist were being bought for myself, and my friend meghan. really though irish mist can be very persuasive. saw my friend buffalo kim last nite also. the reason for calling her buffalo kim, is first off she is from b-lo, second i know about 4 kims who all live in long beach so that is how we dfferentiate who is who. buffalo kim is great. we go to McFaddens to watch bills games. it is surreaal.you are in this bar and everyone there is a bills fan, thsy play the shout song, have buffalo wings, labatts and molson on tap, beef on kimilwick (sp) and then you look out the windows and you see manhattan. its funny i have been missing home a lot lately, especially reading everyone's posts, and seeing how people from estrip are connecting and becoming friends. it is great. just wish i could be part of that. seriously though irsih mist is very persuasive. boogied down last nite, yup, sure did. damn mist

YEAH!!! finally resolved my internet problems.....well actually my friend down the hall helped me out. he know's computer stuff. how bad did that just sound. Hey i tried to build a network for my roomate and myself, just was not very good at it. i think i right clicked a few to many times. anyways it is working and i am happy about that. how about this weather!!!! went to the beach today and walked and walked and walked, and picked up 6 good pieces of beach glass. it is amazing what washes up from the ocean. huge pieces of wood, thick rope, plastics, bottles, lighters, MANY MANY lighters. there was a lot more glass, but none of it was "beach glass" in case you are wondering what makes it beach glass, the glass has a frosted look to it, and the edges are softened from the salt, sand and the crashing waves. yeah i walked for a few hours listening to the Garden State soundtrack. seriously love that. i can just listen to it front to back, top to bottom, over and over again. it was great being on the beach today. i was so happy. it is strange how you can be missing someone, and still be very happy at the same time. i was walking down indiana towards the ocean, and i looked down oceanview ln, and saw kerri and her roomate outside. kept on walking though.i emailed her last week and said that i would like to take her to dinner. i was suprised that i got no respones. though i did say that i would call her. ahh.. got a call last nite from an old friend that i have not spoke with in oh....probably a year and a half. my friend kat and i got to know one another when i lived above her on richmond ave with my then girlfriend. kat and kim lived below us and they went to school with kristen at dyouville. so naturally i became close with them and when they graduated, kim stayed in buffalo with her boyfriend (and my friend) josh, and kat and kristen went back to long island. we all stayed very close, and kept in touch. i was working at bullfeathers before i moved to long island and when i got down here, kat and i remained friends, and everything was fine. well issues arose and kristen and kim fell out of friendship. kim moved here and then got married to josh. Well Kat was kim's maid of honour. now most people give that to someone very close to them, it is a position that means something in a person's life experience. or at least thats the way i see it. everntually for what ever reason, kim and kat fell out of favour with one another. i tried to keep the two of them talking, by saying that their friendship was important, and all friendships evolve, but to work on it. well that didn't happen. kim would try to reach kat, and her attempts were not returned. kat did not know that kim and josh had moved to albany, and she didn't know that kim was pregnant last year. the way she found out about josh and kim's baby braeden was i texted her the next day with his "stats". so christmas nite i received a text from kat saying she was thinking of me and my typewriter that her father had given me 3 years ago on easter. i returend her call and then voila last nite she called me and we talked for almost two hours. it was good to hear from her, and by no means have i let her off the hook for her actions i guess you could say. i plan on broaching the issue when we are face to face. kat had a lot of things going on in her life, that most people would need to speak with a friend about. i mean i made it more than clear that i was there for a shoulder to lean on, she could vent to me, talk to me, or we could just go out and have fun, do whatever. i feel that that was well known. and i undestand that people deal with issues in there own way, but to throw away friendships because you are handling things in your own way? that does not make sense to me. if you need space, let me know. sorry about the rant, but after talking with kim, i started thinking again about the whole thing. well at least we are talking now, and kat says that she wants to keep in touch, and actually hang out sometime. we will see. hahaha i got in trouble last nite from one of my buddies for opening the door for my buddy jeff's girlfriend. last friday i had an interview and it was total shit. i got the job, but the job blows, so i am not taking it. anyways. i got out and wanted to go for lunch. so i called shauna. she is a nurse and is dating my buddy jeff. well i pick her up and we go to this place in rockville centre called macaurthur park. i opened the car door for her, it really didn't occur to me not to. (jenks door story reminded me of this) so last nite i go to hang out with the "boys" and drink beers, smoke cigars, and play cards and complain about how wicked women are. so jeff says hey eric, what the fuck man, i say what's the problem? he says you opened the door for shauna. i was confused and then started laughing. he says great, now she keeps saying that"ERIC OPENED THE DOOR,WHY CANT YOU. all of course in a little voice with some attitude. priceless. shit like that really cracks me up. ok, enough torture. gonna wrap this one up. talk to you later all.

correction: It is the Your messages box that comes up ever change of page.

ok, so i finally have the internet at home again and i hooked up my wireless router. problem is the connection comes and goes, yet the signal is still listed as excellent, PLUS my computer is on my desk, which is about a foot or so away from the router! any suggestions, comments. another problem is that when i hook up the ether net cable, i get no connection. it says i have one, but i can not get online.wi really know nothing about networking, and such. i have to attempt to build a network for my comp and my roomates comp so the signal is secure. maybe that is why i am having difficulty with the connection. not sure, but it could make sense. oh yeah and one more question, why every time i bring up a page does the your comment box pop up. i am psyched to get comments, but how do i make the box go away permanently once i read the comment? yeah i had no coffee this morning.

im back....so yeah my roomie is back with his ex, ex...and well i am not going to lie, it gives me hope. a foolish thing i know, but what am i supposed to do. i actually went out saturday nite with my roomate in long beach. he has not been out, free and unfetered in 2 years. it was insane. the drinks that were being consumed, and the dancing. we ran into a group of girls that are friends of mine, and just seriously boogied down. it was an awesome time. he left me at the Inn, i don't even remember him leaving me there, that is how much fun it was. I know its alittle delayed but i hope everyone had fun on new years, i had a pretty good time at a party in astoria. even came up with a haiku for the fridge.

gardens felt like you
and a sea of aching petals
worship delirious language

i need to start writing more. i need to start writing and get the broken string on my guitar restrung. i have time to do both. i just need to do them. anyone have post its?? going to bed, it is supposed to be nice here tomorrow. 50's i think. maybe i will go down to the beach. probably lots of beach glass. talk to you all later.

We finally have internet in my apartment again!! no more going to starbucks, or running to my buddy calvins house to plug in. hooked up my wireless router and everything. now i just have to figure out how to make a network that is secure for my roomate's computer and mine. the signal is just out there and i am not sure if that is a good thing or not. well no job as of yet, went on an interview, and the guy talked me out of the positoin. it was another recruiting job. my friend courtney works there and wanted me to come in just to see if i was interested. i am kind of, but i feel that i am at the point in my life where i have to start building a future, i mean 29 is not to early, hahaha. i want to feel more secure and have the ablility to do more of the things that i want to do. so i did not want to take a position that i would not be happy with in a few months or even more so, not be doing well at. that leads me to another trouble area in my life. kerri. well i have decided that i am going to take her to dinner, and say listen, i think about you a lot, and i don't like what we were doing. going out, and then spending the nite together and not talking for two weeks. i am going to propose that we see each other again. with more space than the first time around. now with that, though i am going to ask if it is something she wants to do, or if it is something that she will just do. does that make any sense? i have to do this to move on. i think about her entirely too much. this weekend will be the the 1 year from when i met her. martin luther king weekend, the sunday. i called a bunch of my friends to go out, i said there would be a lot of cute teachers out because of having monday off. well i was right. my friends were hitting on her and her friends, and she walked away from them and sat down next to me at the bar and said hi. and then we started talking. i said i would meet her out that wednesday at open mic, but i was really sick. we had no heat in the apt for that whole week. my friend roland told her, and then the next time i saw her i didn't think she was interested. finally 2 weeks later she came over to me and said are you going to talk to me or ask me out or what? i walked her home, and we spent the nite kissing, cuddling and talking. it was great. from then on, it was always kerri and eric. i don't want to move on, i would like her back, but if i have to, then it has to be like that. my roomate has started seeing the girl he moved her for. they broke up 5 years ago. they had talked about marriage, houses, kids. now he doesn't know what he is doing. i told him that sometimes things like that happen, don't let your pride get in the way. however if it is something that you really feel is not the right thing to do then, well i guess you have to do what you think is right. i personally think that they will get back together, and pick up where they left off. though i did see what happened to him when they broke up. i am going to get kicked offline. have to finish up in a min......

Leaving for Long Island tomorrow morning. Hopefully i will be up early enough so that i can get a good start. I would like to be on the road by 4:30 am, thats right kids, i said 4:30 am. that way i will be home by noon or a little after that. this was a pretty good trip. ran into a few people i have not seen in years, met a couple new people, and well spent time with my family. Tonite my mom, dad and i went to dinner at Ilo DiPalo's. I really like that place. its homey, very family oriented. Had french onion soup, salad, and canneollo something...this long pasta stuffed with spiniach and veal with a alfredo sauce. very good. had to bring a lot of it home. While we were eating my dad asked me why i like living on long island so much. I gave him a slew of reasons. though i must say, i would probably like living back here too. Though i would have to live down off of Elmwood in order to maintain my sanity. my parents live out in the burbs, west seneca/op border. to quiet, nothing going on out here. i do miss buffalo, and a lot of things about it. i could definately see myself moving back here some day. that day, however is not anytime soon. at least i do not think it is. Last nite at mr. oneills was a classic one to say the least. he got into some wine, and my buddy mike and i got into a little johnny walker black label. whew, what a nite. his dad is so quiet, and the things that come out of his mouth, are just way to funny. he is not one of those good time charlie guys, with a big belly laugh, or back slapping hugs, but very sheepish, and maybe that is what makes what he says so funny. i don't know, but i almost pissed my self a few times. gotta love mr. oneill. there is a picture of the queen and prince phillp hanging above his toilet. so standing there, you give the queen a show. i took a pic of the pic using my phone, now i just need to send it to my email so i can load it on here. not the most tech savy guy here people. so it may be awhile, but i definately want you all to see this picture. it is hilarious. they are just sitting/standing in pose, and you are standing "in pose" really funny. Kinda like a PEEP SHOW! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA yeah that was a cheap one, had to slipe it in there. it is funny though especially after 2 scotch and waters! well that is enough for now. kinda tired and bored. gonna go find something to do.

Went cruising around down on Allen St. last nite with a couple of buddies. Started out at Colter bay, then hit frizzy's the pink and brick bar. It was quite an evening. we ended the festivities at bullfeathers. I have to say i was having a pretty good time at the pink, pix messaging to haikuster. Since she couldn't have a molson, i took a pic of one and then sent it along. it looks pretty good with the red tint. I couldn't help but wonder while i was at the pink and frizzy's if anyone in there was an estripper. anyways, tonite it is off to crystal beach to have dinner at one of my good friend's father's house. i have not seen his dad in almost 4 years, since my buddy's wedding. It should be great Mr. O'Neill never dissapoints. I know that it is only over the peace bridge, but i just love going to canada. unfortunately i missed the boxing day party last nite at mike's brothers house. I think now i am going to write about the comment i made about one of jenk's posts on ex's. Kerri and i broke up in june, and i had asked her not to call or speak to me. During our relationship we spoke about what we wanted in the future and goals, and came to the conclusion that we both wanted the same things, and of course we loved being together. ok that is the short clean version, anyways. we broke up in june as i said, and of course she would call, text, and run into me on a regular basis. so it made things very difficult. of course i didn't help things out myself, i was like a moth to the flame. i wanted to spend time with her, i loved her she is beautiful and just being with her was well, i felt at ease. so then it became a monthly thing where she would call and we would go to a movie, dinner, or drinks, and then we would spend the nite together. of course no good. i mean it was good, but doing it was not good for me. the last time this happened was the saturday after thanksgiving. she said somethings that were, well honestly fucked up. She knows how i feel, hell everyone knows how i feel. So now we had not spoke since thanksgiving. she didn't even ask if i was coming home, and i wasnt, had to work. last thursday i was out with some friends in garden city, and we ran into her sister karen. it was good to see her, she said she asked kerri about me all the time and wished that i would be spending christmas eve with their family. that is the big nite for them. we talked and it was nice. i explained to her that i had not spoke to kerri in almost a month. so after talking for a good long while, my friends and i left and then friday, around 4 or so Kerri calls. she asks if i am going home for christmas, and then wants to have a conversation. we talk for awhile, and then asks when i am coming back, and makes a point of saying that she will be around this week because she is not going away. normally she goes away during christmas break. i was like great, then she asks me about new years. now honestly, i want to talk to her, but i would rather not because after everytime i speak to her or see her, i have to "reset" and begin all over again. i know that it should be easier, but it is not, i don't hater her or anything like that but that might make it easier. ex's just suck. especially when you and everyone around them/you knows they had a great thing that they threw out. i guess maybe thats one reason why it is hard. you see a family with someone, a future and then it's gone, like that. she still does have the poem i wrote her on her wall with the beach glass in the jars. i guess that is something.

i was not able to put everything in my last post, for some reason aol timesout everytime i access estrip through AOL. anyways. i have an interview next week that i am very excited for. i am pretty sure that i have the job already, if i want it, and that the interview is a formlaity. see i was let go from my other job 2 weeks ago. yeah no shit. who fires people this close to the holidays? I know this other guy who was fired recently. at least keep people around until after the holidays. as anyone ever had the discussion on who cheetarah was hooking up with in the Thundercats? i am at my friends house right now and the discussion about Lion-o, Panthro, and Cheetarah. I am just sitting here while they dicuss this pressing issue. hahaha....well i will put more in later on. gotta run to dinner. Outback tonite.