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Category: ramble

03/19/09 02:16 - 43ºF - ID#48123 pmobl


Sitting at my desk, I've been thinking about how little choices really are like a pebble dropped in a pond. Whether they be decisons made in regards to love, finance, living arrangements, even something as simple as a 5 min window at a grocery store. Now just so you know nothing dramatic has happened. But recently I've been thinking a lot about my relationship "status" as facebook so delicately puts it.

I thinks it partially due to the fact that my uncle passed away on Saturday. He had been sick for a while, and after undergoing radiation and chemo he was weak. Understandably so as he was not a large in stature, and 80yrs old, he lived a long life. He immigrated from the Phillipines in the 50s and became best friends with my nana in med school. He became part of our family (well before I was a thought! Lol)

The reason for a lot of reflection recently stems from something my sister said sunday nite while she was sobbing in the phone. She made a comment,and I immediately understood where she was coming from. It was an emotion that I had been experiencing since my nana and pop passed away. My childhood has ended. Sarah felt that our uncle was the last tie, whatever was left of our childhood, our nana and pop. It was the end of Christmas, summers in Chatauqua, helping in the garden out back, sun warmed raspberries right of the bush...a lot of great memories. Nothing was the same after they were both gone, but Uncle Fran was there, he was what was left of all of those moments.

Now being that I am 33, and my sister is 29, I have no illusions about the fact that I am no longer a child. Its more the idea that my is further away than it has ever seemed to be, yet at times the term adult does not seem to fit.

I would suspect that this recent bout of reflective melancholy is because I have been looking back at certain instances in my life and been wondering how things may have been different had I made a different decision. I'm not saying these are regrets.just that had I made different decisons my life would probably be drastically different. I would not have meet the people I now know and have known. I would not be living where I am. I would also not be going to London for a week long holiday. I think the reflection is more a mental monday morning qb type thing. Yes there are certain things I wish were different. Who doesn't. But there are many things in my life that I enjoy and that I am thankful for.

I am worried though that this trip will open a pandoras box. One that I feel is rattling, and shaking, waiting to be broken open. We will see what happens. Well I've said enough for now. Sorry for the verbal walkabout!
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Category: story

03/12/09 11:38 - ID#48038 pmobl


I think the fact that Madoff's bail was revoked and that he will be spending the rest of his life in jail is great. The unfortunate thing is that many more are getting away with robbing the American people and driving this country into this current recession.

I was getting new front tires about a month ago when I ended up speaking with the gentleman in the waiting area of Mavis. A few of his good friends had lost all of their savings with Madoff. We started talking about it because it happened to be on the little tv sitting on the table in the corner. The gentleman explained how the friends of his got involved. It happened at an exclusive private country club in Florida. Apparently Madoff had "two guys" who would carefully screen propsective investors who would only be accepted if they were in a certain income bracket. He also explained that there was a "referral" system through other members to Madoffs guys. After all of these "formalities" the prospective investors would begin investing with Madoffs firm.

While listening to this, I was watching the cars being serviced in the garage area through the large glass window. My silver jetta, another guys blue gti, and then this gentleman's jaguar. My mind was spinning trying to imagine the lifestyle one must have had before being swindled by Bernie Madoff. Meanwhile the guy with the jaguar looks at us and says "wow am I happy I didn't get referred by anyone, and I wasn't considered special enough to invest with that firm." He then began to ramble on about how he was leaving for florida in the morning.

It was all kind of bizzare in a way. Everyone has been touched in one way or another by this recession. Some more than others. Nothing profound here, just wanted to share that story
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Category: travel

03/11/09 11:04 - ID#48017 pmobl

London Town

I am going to London in May. I don't know if it has really sunk in. It was kind of a impulse decision to be honest. I'm going to be there for my birthday, which I now have mixed feelings about that. I'm in the process of trying to recruit people to go, as it is just me right now. I have friends just outside of London and a goody buddy in Dublin, so I could go to ireland as well. Right now I have to flesh out the details such as hotels, itinerary and anything else. Ill let you all know how things are progressing.
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03/06/09 07:04 - 50ºF - ID#47971 pmobl

light reading

Just read an article in the Atlantic Monthly that I wanted to recommend. Its called How the Crash will Reshape America, by Richard Florida. Good article. Buffalo even get some face time, not that flattering, but hey. Its a really interesting article. If you go to the website, its in the magazine section.
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Category: little pleasures

03/05/09 06:14 - 51ºF - ID#47965 pmobl

newcastle stories

The outback is very underated for a chain/corporate restaurant. could be that I'm biased catching up with one of my good friends who happens to be behind the stick. Swapping stories and the goings on of the past few weeks while I enjoy a Newcastle.
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Category: lunch time travel

03/05/09 02:02 - 44ºF - ID#47958 pmobl


Usually at lunch there are a few things I do everyday. I guess a routine if you like. I read the Times, Buffalo News and the Newsday. Usually its my second helping of the BN, sometimes when I get in in the morning it seems to be yesterdays news.

By read, I mean I scan to see what interests me and read that. I have to say I prefer the Times, only because of the wide variety of pieces I can dip into. The buffalo news helps me keep up to date with what's going on back at the ranch haha.

Recently however, I have started going on "lunch time vacations" I go to flickr and search a destination, then flip through the vacation memories of others. Its interesting seeing what people snap pics of while on holiday. Of course you get the obligatory shots of monuments, tourist traps, and government buildings. I find the other pics much more interesting. Of course some of them can get quite racy, not that I mind, but its funny how everyone is truly the "same". By that I mean people do the same types of things around the globe. Not that I ever though otherwise, but seeing it "done" in locations all around the world is reassuring I guess.

Traveling abroad during lunch always leaves me with a mix of emotions. It keeps a fire going inside of me that desires nothing more than to pack it in and travel. Working along the way. It reminds me of what else is out there, not that I need that. But it feels like people my age seem to forget what is outside of their world. They have homes and a family and their focus changes. Rightly so, but there is a loss of wonder about the outside.

Well that was quite a rant. May be a bit wild, you'll have to bear with me. Just gettin back into the swing of this. I also have to learn how to load pics from a mobile post!
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Category: first time

03/04/09 03:56 - 26ºF - ID#47945 pmobl

First mobile post

So this happens to be my first mobile post. One of the reasons I have not been on here in about a year is my laptop is possessed. Using it it online is pointless, because it does what it wants. I have turned to my work computers for everyday, non restricted use. As I speak I'm at my desk going through files on one computer and watching Manchester United v. Newcastle United on the other.well itsk the second half. Time to get back to the match and do some work!!
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