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Category: friendship

06/10/13 12:58 - ID#57790

Brandy +Soul Night + Allentown Art Festival + Noms

Brandy is in town for the weekend. Friday night we went to Soul Night at Milkie's. Honestly, I had an amazing time. Soul music is a truly wonderful thing. I danced my butt off!

The next day, we met at Nektar for breakfast... i got a sweet crepe. the food was awesome. Seems like the merger with Ambrosia went well.

I'm happy Daniel and Brandy seem to really be working out :) After Nectar, we hung out with Sandy at her shop down the street, and then headed down to the festival. we met Daniel after he got his haircut. I was actually pretty tired-grumpy. i think i was way over stimulated... I had some fun none the less. i feel bad that most of the time i spent with brandy was me being quiet/grumpy. i just didn't have it in me to be bright and energetic... we got to dance, though! so that was fun.

later, we went to wegmans and brought back some sushi and wine and goodies to feast upon. i seemed to perk up with not so sweet foods. after a full day spent with Amanda, Brandy, Daniel and Sandy, I was ready to head home. We never ended up playing the board games amanda brought.

I rested at home for a bit, convinced i was going to go to sleep, but got a last minute invite to (e:paul) and (e:terry)'s house. The wedding shower was man men themed? so i had to dress up. i wasn't as dressy as everyone else, but i think i pulled it off.

I wish i'd taken more photos. We ended up having a spank-off, or something? haha... i guess it was to see which was most painful... the copper pan, the wooden spoon, or the woden fork. I'm always kind of amazed at the shenanigans i find myself in the middle of. Not that i'm complaining..!

Very fun times indeed.



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Category: nature

06/10/13 12:46 - ID#57789

Gardening (Barely)

The other day i began cleaning up small amounts of debris and clutter in the backyard. i planted the mint at the base of two trees. i had a few stalks of it, and some of it seems to be doing fine, while the others are not so hot... i think it will survive. i also think the soil may not be the best back there. i planted 2 flowers in the back and they seem to have died. i more or less just wanted to plant a few things just to do it and see how it goes.

there's so much shit to get rid of, that i don't think it will be ready to to anything with until next in the spring.

I took photos, but for some rason, they were all corrupted? hmmm....

I'm excited to do more. i've gotta get some supplies to actually do any of it, though.... garbage bags, rakes, shovls, etc...

i also got a ton of garbage out of the basement. i don't know what i will actually use the basement for ever, but i went down and there were bags and bags of bottles... so i just put them out. they disappeared pretty quickly!
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Category: health

06/07/13 11:23 - ID#57775 pmobl

glasses

My vision is so bad today. When i close just my left eye, my right eye can't even read things across the street or see faces.


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Category: family

06/04/13 02:19 - ID#57762

Oh, joy

Well, my mom admitted herself to buffalo general the other day. it was actually friday, but she didn't tell anyone until saturday.

I ended up not finding out until much later that day after receiving an upsetting text message at work from my roommate Michael. After calling around and texting every family member a zillion times, i finally got the information out of Sarah. It was a non emergency, and she's fine, physically. She is getting released, today, tuesday after they monitored her for a few days and upped her dose. I went to visit her yesterday, an she seemed to be doing well.

I confronted April, finally.

Last night after she had been causing a raucous for a few hours, i finally hit the wall. She'd been playing loud music and being loud with my other sister, then fought with my other sister, then fought with her boyfriend a few times on the phone... In the middle of her creating drama on the phone with him again, i i finaly got out of bed, walked to her room, and made her hang up immediately.

I began to explain that I was done, that I had had it with her screaming, etc, and it turned into a full on screaming match for a moment. It quickly turned civil, though. I am just not a screamer. I don't have it in me. I was so... repressed? anxious? angry? that when we sat on the couch to talk about things, i was physically trembling. I couldn't stop for 20-30 minutes while i tried to explain myself and my frustrations. This naturally upset her, because she'd never seen me like that before.

I think it was my body just kind of dealing physically with how emotionally upset i was with her. I've never trembled like that before. I was quaking.

Towards the end of it, i think i got my point across... That when I'm home, I just want to feel safe, comfortable, and secure. That when she yells so much like that, it's impossible for me to feel comfortable or safe.

She did the whole crying "i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm so terrible, i'm the worst, you hate me" thing but that's not what i was looking for.

i don't care if she's sorry. I wasn't there to talk about how terrible she is. I was there to talk aout how i feel about the way she acts, an that i want a change, or something. Sorry doesn't solve anything. Sorry doesn't work.

it ended well, i think? i got my point across, she seemed to understand my frustrations...

I don't know if anything will change.
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Category: pride

06/04/13 01:45 - ID#57759

Gay Pride Buffalo 2013

Was a great pride this year. The best one that i can remember going to in quite a long time... or ever, really.

I had an awesome weekend despite some family issues that kind of snuck up on me.

I feel like things are going well in ways i didn't really expect and I'm grateful for that. I mean, of course there are things that stress me at the moment, but... i manage. i think?

I think if i just accept that i am perpetually surrounded by crazy people, it will bother me a lot less.

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omg i had such a crush on the purple boy. He can sex me.

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Category: food

06/04/13 12:44 - ID#57758

the wonders of paper+lunchytimes

Last thursday, i worked the lunch shift, and then went out to lunch at cafe 59 with (e:terry) and (e:heidi). i got the barbecue portobello sandwich. 'twas quite a lovely lunch :)

after, i went up and took some food to erica. w sat and talked for a while. she has these cool pads of paper with lots of art and designs on them, and you can kinda just use them for crafty things... she made these folded up things that i shot would be pretty cool to turn into lanterns if you put the fat bulb christmas lights in them... i wanna try making them.

she has a beautiful singing voice.

i got some laundry action in, and then met with john to rehearse a few scenes with him. honestly, it went pretty well. seems like we'll get a long just fine. he kind of reminds me of myself. Which makes me worry for him.

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Category: clothes

05/30/13 03:22 - ID#57732 pmobl

old shirt given new life!


this was my favorite thundercats shirt for years, but it got too tattered to use... so i cut it up to see if i could make it wearable again.

i guess it looks okay? i am shy to wear it out... but we'll see.

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Category: memories

05/28/13 11:45 - ID#57728 pmobl

ribbons


cleaning my room, i took out my keepsake boxes to put some new things in, and i found my old summer camp ribbons. i loved going to summer camp!

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Category: holiday

05/28/13 10:13 - ID#57726

Memorial Day 2013

honestly, i think this is the first memorial day i've actually done something? I can't believe i didn't take a single picture. I had too much fun observing, me thinks.

the BBQ at (e:paul) and (e:terry)'s was an awesome time! :) I was surrounded by nothing but good people. I didn't bring anything, but i became (e:hodown)'s little kitchen helper, and helped do a lot of cleaning once everyone was done eating.

It was really fun to be in the kitchen chopping and cooking away with everyone packed in there together, laughing and talking. I got to meet little Zoey and her sisters (sue me, i forgot their names, lol). How adorable and bright is that kid? It was a hoot watching their antics. I love kids. Maybe I'll interact more next time :)

I think it is officially time for me to go into hiding for the next week or so. After 7 days of full throttle, I am exhausted. I will never know how some people live like this all the time. I am way too introverted for it. I need recharge time, and i barely got it this week. But it was fun none the less.

My fingers are so bruised from frisbee. I kept slapping it instead of catching it, haha... I've never had finger bruises before? it's a weird sensation.

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Category: friendship

05/28/13 09:22 - ID#57724

friendly times and foodly times.

I could not get to sleep last night. I think i should have gone home... i had to go home to get proper shoes anyways. shoulda coulda woulda! :P

i had a great day today. i ended up working the lunch shift, then went to the bank. most of the rent is there already, so that's gonna be good. i also had a talk with april about money... seems like things will sort themselves out like i thought.

i'd like to complain less.

After that, Stevie and Michael picked me up after they left the burchfield penney. We went for dinner at Amy's Place. I got the biff sandwich and we all split veggie wet shoes. they both got lentil berry sandwiches... everything was so good! i had a lot of liquid... coffee, water, cream soda... i've peed a lot today. my tonsils were feeling swollen last night and earlier but now i feel fine?

We were having conversations about all of these transitions and such, and then stevie discovered my coffee cup and turned it towards me. what a coincidence... my life is just one big coincidence. a grand synchronized dance.
it really is weird how many seem to be happening.

we tried to find a book store to go to after, but everything was closed early? We ended up going to sweet_ness 7 for desert drinks and ended up playing a really fun game of scrabble. Soon after arriving, the storm began. it was kind of magical, the way the air felt, the music, the sound of the thunder and rain, the dim lighting, the feeling of closeness with my friends... I live for those small moments of magic. They make me feel human again.

Brandy is coming, soon. She comes the 6 - 10? of june. I can't wait to have her near again. We always resume right where we left off. Much fun will be had. If possible, i will take her to that soul night event. i had an unbelievable amount of fun the last time i went. i have to go to this one. i missed the other ones.

when i got home, i sat on the porch, watching the storm. it was nice.

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