Here are a few things that have occurred in the last few weeks:

+ I broke/fraactured both my right and left radial head (those are in the elbows), as well as my left triquetrum in my wrist. It was from a bike accident, and sucked a lot. I'm finally no longer wearing a splint and slings. It seems like everything is healing pretty quickly.

+ Mickey asked me (by telling me) to move in after he'd asked me to stay here while my arms recovered. I don't plan to move in until my lease is up, and I'm going back to my own apt this sunday night.

+ Had a bazillion and one doctor and vet appts to go to, which all cost a lot of money.

+ I can't work until June 2nd which really sucks because i'm basically down to less than 40$ until then, except for rent that i have set aside. So I plan to ask my father to take me grocery shopping once or twice to float me until then, or pay my rent instead while i use my rent money for groceries etc. I asked my mom for help with groceries but she couldn't. Luckily i am fully stocked to the brim on pet necessities. I really really really hate this aspect of being injured and unable to work. I really really hate asking for help and rides and money and food. I hate feeling like a burden, i hate looking like i can't do it myself, and i hate seeming like a mooch or a leach. I did take an application for temporary assistance, so we'll see how that goes.

+ spent a crap ton of my tax refund before I got injured, some of it on superfluous non-essentials, others on useful, or sensible nonessentials.

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next tuesday, I have an appointment at Evergreen to have my blood work done. I've been taking this pill since november. since then, my count was ~88,000, then it was ~750, then it was ~107... I hope byt this visit, I am undetectable. As of a week or so ago (I'm not sure of the exact date anymore, i've got it somewhere in my files) this marks 6 months of having been hiv+. In my case, I'm extremely lucky - I was diagnosed probably mere weeks or days after it would have been possible to test positive, and immediately began a treatment regimen.

My hope for this next doctor's visit, is that once the results come in for my blood work, I will be undetectable. I don't know how rare or common it is, what with the new medications of have a viral load of 0 in your blood, but it would give me an amazing sense of comfort and achievement if that happened.

I'm still super sick... :( it feels like my tonsil is going to burst. Now, i'm just waiting for prescriptions to be ready. antibiotic, ibuprofen, and a steroid... i hope i'm feeling up to rehearsal today.

I'm not renewing my lease. so.... the hunt for an apartment is on, now.

I'm really sick... light fever, swollen tonsils, head ache, body ache...

if it's really bad tomorrow, i'll go to the doctors. i have been falling asleep basically wherever i happen to be sitting today.

My vision is so bad today. When i close just my left eye, my right eye can't even read things across the street or see faces.