I wrote.. "Nothing", he wrote me back, "Nothing".......

School is starting tomorrow, and I have to figure something out in the morning. I'm not taking any class for this semester. Well, I could take one, maybe.. seminar course again in art side. All I have to do for this semester is doing my thesis. I decided to finish up everything by next Feb. So, one year I have time to finish up my thesis. I told him like that. He said.. "why did you do that?" I just want to take a time. I don't want to get stressed out too much. I don't want to run around too much. I go crazy for my work easily and get really stressed out. Maybe I need it again. Maybe not or I will enjoy travelling sometimes. Trying to find out a job. I miss working in company. I miss having conversation with my co-workers at bar after work. I don't know what I want after graduating.. going back to industrial world.. or staying in school to teach. Be an artist..?

Life is short. I'm afraid that I lost feelings of being attracted to men. I'm not naive or innocent anymore. I know things very well and I'm not curious anymore. I'm not sad anymore. I'm not angry anymore. I'm not happy anymore. So, I'm worried if less of my life is like that all the time. Ah, life is short.

I'm reading a book called dictionary of Critical Theory for these days. I think Freud left too much complicated words. It's good to re-organizing things though.

I think I miss having conversation with Ivan at coffee shop although I get annoyed by him sometimes. But, I know I can drive him crazy as well. He emailed me with his baby while I was in Korea. He is Father right now. Yea,, I think he needs to grow up that way.

I will be there to figure things out.. running around.. going crazy.. driving people crazy... maybe.... I'm thinking of coming to visit my youngest sister in London sometime in May. I will be there anyway..

Is she cute..? She is performing an extream little girl for me here at my room.
It's 6 AM in the morning.... How sweet is that..

A day before leaving Korea, I went to a restaurant with my friends for a dinner. This restaurant created a new style food called "fire chicken", which is very very spicy. I couldn't eat without rice soup called Nooloongi. Okay,, I will show them for you.


we sat in table number 18.


Kimchee and Pickles served as side dishes.


Rice Soup called Nooloongi served.


The cook started making "Fire Chicken" for us.
Look at him how to make it


This is the "Fire Chicken".. Hum.. I will explain it later


Of course, we had some beer.. and my friend's cell phone.


I ordered a spicy squid dish too. Hum.. very spicy.

I've been living in a very weird time schedule these days.. I hope my jet-lag can go away by now. Also, I haven't really had good meals these days either. I just got back my car yesterday. I think I should go to grocery shopping really soon, but I've been lazy and in a jet-lag.

(e:Robin) and I went to Korean restaurant for a dinner last night. After having meal over there, I got sick.. I think my body system is messed up now.

Paul, Terry and Matthew's new house is so nice. I'm glad they moved in that house. It's huge and warm. And they got very nice neighbors too. Their neighbors came over while I was there. So, we kind of had a small party. All of them are very friendly. That's good for Paul, Terry and Matthew.

Yea! (e:Paul) you live in the Korean evil haunted house.. god... whenever I go over your house, I should bring the cross and some garlic. Then, it can make me safe.

While I was shopping with my mom in Korea..!!!

Very tired. I left Korea on Tuesday at 11 AM and I arrived New York on Tuesday at 10 AM. So, I went back to one hour past. Isn't that weird..? I had to wait for my flight to Buffalo about 4 hours in JFK. Then, Robin picked me up at the airport. But we had to go to school to get my apartment key from Alan because he was working on his project. As soon as I got back to Buffalo, I went to school..? That sounds like I'm a good student.. doesn't it..?

Yeah, all my stuff is all over my place right now. My house is so mess with my unpacked stuff. Then, took a nap little bit.. then Anna and Alan came over my house. Well, I went to the pink with Anna, Robin and Steve Kurtz. As soon as I got in Buffalo.. I went to the pink..? Funny... I just came back from the pink.

I'm so tired.. I don't wanna think of my unpacked stuff right now.. I'm just going to bed right now.. tired.. too tired... Fuck.. I'm back to Buffalo again.. Fuck..
I thought I would forget how to speak English and roads in Buffalo. But, I remember every single road and place.. Oh my god.. So sad..

I'm leaving for Buffalo in 9 hours. It was a very busy day again. I just came back to home. No one is at home right now. My mom left for her trip today. Oh well, I'm sad again. I feel so weird. I don't know.. See you some of you in Buffalo soon.

(e:Robin).. I miss you too.. I need to go to shopping with my mom right now.
She is also leaving for Australia as a trip on Monday.. So, we have to go to shopping together right now.. Then, I have to go up to Seoul later tonight again.
Busy.. Busy..

After having some drinks with my old buddies at ArbGuJeongDong(this area is one of famous hot spots in Korea), I went to night shopping with my second younger sister. In Korea, night shopping is really a famouse thing to do. There are big malls around DongDaeMoonDong in Seoul for night shoppings and these malls open from 2 PM to 4 AM. Actually, things in these malls are suppose to be cheaper than regular malls. But I don't think it's not that cheap. I couldn't buy anything. I just got a pair of earings and neckless.

These photos are from my night shopping.









I'm staying at my second younger sister's house for tonight. Well, it's already 4:30 in the morning. We came back and stopped by a conner shop to buy some snacks.
Here are my second younger sister pictures, which I took randomly.

I'm already too scared to go back to Buffalo. I don't want to deal with snowy and cold weather.. stressful school, emotional baggage.. loneliness.. everything..
Help me!!!...

by the way.. I saw an amazing Japanese animation.. "Howl's moving castle"
It was so beautiful and warm-hearted.. there are a lot of messages we should think of.. what's the most important in human being...?

Do you like girls who are pretty looking or girls who have good-heart..?