Man, I need to get laid.

Love, Mrdt

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Stopped by Berts Bikes yesterday to look at a few road bikes for the summer and some charity events. (See previous post). They seem really fucking expensive not to mention about 100-150 dollars cheaper online. Maybe I'll buy something used off of ebay cause when you crash on these bikes forget about. they fold like and bend like spoon jewelery. then your out the money. i have my tax refund coming soon and i just got a tuition refund check but this is money I sould invest in futures/ira's/stocks/mutuals or save for a rainy day. my mountain bike makes a fun ride but its slow and made for the extreme trails. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing this event no matter what but its the difference between easy/fast or hard/slow and 30 miles or 60 miles. top speed on the mountain bike is like 15-20mph but I could get the road bike up to 25-35mph which is a huge difference.

Here are the bikes they showed me:

'06 Trek 1500 for $1,100


'06Trek Pilot 1.2 for $950


I am leaning more towards the red one but I don't know it seems like an aweful amount of money to spend for something I'll only use about 20 times a year (till I move to warm weather). My buddy Steve who is considering the ride might not be able to get the day off and he could lone me his Cannondale Hybrid.

I want to clear something up for ya'll. My last post was not asking for pledges. I'll do most of that in school and at former jobs. I was/am looking to put together a team of riders, mechanics, drivers and cheering section for those who are interested. we could do this as a communtiy under the (e:strip) flag or I could do this by myself. either way I'm in and I've already printed the pages for pledges and such.

I believe in truth, beauty, freedom and above all love, MrDT

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I have decided its time for me to give back some of the athletic prowess I have developed over the past year in the form of charity.

I saw this flyer in the gym today for a fund raiser for Roswell Park Cancer Institute and decided this is my chance. What could be better than riding my bike for a cure for cancer??? http://www.ride4roswell.org/app/index.php?pid=1

Ofcourse I'll need to collect the minimum amount of pledges but I'm not sure if I'll ride the 33 miler or 62.5 miler. Over the next 2.5 months I'll be testing my endurance to see what I can handle then the day of I'll decide if I want to push the 62.5 miler. I don't have a road bike yet which would be the biggest spoiler on the 62.5 but I'd do the 33 no prob on my mountain bike.

By the end of the month I want to put together a team and maybe even fly under the (e:strip) flag. We'll need riders, someone to drive, a mechanic or two and some individuals to cheer us on and hand us gatorade. I'm as serious as a heart attack here so any of you who want to participate sould sign up. I'll probably have some friends that will accompany me but as my mama always says, "The more the merrier." and its for such a good cause.

By the end of May I'll have my pledge sheets finished and I'll make a decision of whether to buy a bike or not. I've never really covered this type of distance in this type of fashion so it will be a challenge for me.

Well, I guess that's it for today. you don't have to get back to me right away but if anyone is interested let me know.

With love and peace or else, MrDT

Just a quick post from finance.

I love quotes... I have set up my Google home page to always give me three new quotes per day.

Here is one of them:
The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you'll never find it.
- CP Snow

We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aids, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn, which does not forsake us in our soundest sleep. I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestionable ability of man to elevate his life by a conscious endeavor. It is something to be able to paint a particular picture, or to carve a statue, and so to make a few objects beautiful; but it is far more glorious to carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look, which morally we can do. To affect the quality of the day, that is the highest of arts. Every man is tasked to make his life, even in its details, worthy of the contemplation of his most elevated and critical hour. If we refused, or rather used up, such paltry information as we get, the oracles would distinctly inform us how this might be done.


I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion.
--Henry David Thoreau, "Walden"

Why do things have to be so complicated??? The buddhists believe in nonattachment because our wants & desires will eventually consume us preventing enlightenment. Easy come easy go I always say. Life's dealt me another bad hand -- ow well-- should have expected it. what else can you do but move on and try to be as happy as possible.

Beware
Of entrance to a quarrel but, being in,
Bear't that th' opposed may beware of thee.
Give every man thy ear, but few thy voice;
Take each man's censure, but reserve thy judgement.
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy,
But not express'd in fancy; rich, not gaudy;
For the apparel oft proclaims the man;
And they in France of the best rank and station
Are of a most select and generous chief in that.
Neither a borrower, nor a lender be;
For loan oft loses both itself and friend,
And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry.
This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Farewell; my blessing season this in thee!

--Shakespear, Hamlet

I guess I've learned to self soothe at some point. It feels good. Life is shit but everythings good.

With Love, MrDT

top 5 music soundtracks of all time:

5. Gone in 60 Seconds
4. Almost Famous
3. Tomb Raider
2. Great Expectations
1. Jailhouse Rock

Alternate: Moulin Rouge (just cause that shit makes me cry).

L8er Love, MrDT

man it gets late around here preety fast. seems like I was just in class an hour ago. i've been rippin tubes for hours and I'm berely coherant. I actually made it to the gym to train with weights today with my trainer and friend who's name is also Dan. He kicked my ass but we had to hold back because I skipped last week to kick a virus. hits from the bong make me lazy. all work and no play make jack go crazy.

oh and speaking of which I was watching this reaity show today on fittv called The Gym...its fuckin hilarious. right in the middle of the episode the show stopped and was like you watch too much tv and i was like your right so i turned off the tv and started surfing the web. is that the new idiot box??? wait which ine was i talking about???

i was thinking about buying a new bike that maybe one day i could use in a road race. somebody got me thinking about triatholons and other really incredible indurance tests. what people don't understand is that yes it is a physical journey that you are on, it is also a spiritual journey where you really get to know yourself and the things you are truely capable of. its so much for the mind to. maybe one day i'll be able to explain it.

well actually here it is plain and simple I have the need to achieve... my career, while extremely interesting, is kinda stagnat. why do something half assed? and why not tell a whole bunch of people who will help you to stick to it?

there's love in the clouds, Mrdt

Well, I had a rewally shitty day today. I'm not quite sure how to feel but I think there are a few things I need to put behind me quickly.

And when in the hell did Ari Gold get a show on the travel channel.

heart, MrDT

Well here I am again. Its 1:00 and I'm the only one up in this camp (except the (e:lurkers)).

I've decided to that I want to share my favorite song with you. Its my user sound that hopefully you are listening to right now. if somebody posted a chat don't worry, just hit the play button again and it will play all the way through even though people are chatting. This is my favorite song because it was my first slow dance ever in the seventh grade with Tracy Settaducato. I had such a chrush on her. It took me all night just to work up the courge to ask her to dance then this absolutely fuckin' beautiful song came on and I got the chance to dance with the most beautiful girl in junior high. I'll never forget it ever. And Tracy, thank you for saying yes even though people told you if we got married your name would be Tracy Tracy.

Actually, the real reason I'm posting this song is because I'm trying to reach out to someone who reminded me what its like to touch and to be touched a few days ago. It's been so long and I've been so busy working on myself that I forgot how good it could feel. So this is for you.

Accepting all Ive done and said
I want to stand and stare again
Til theres nothing left out, oh
It remains there in your eyes
Whatever comes and goes
Oh its in your eyes

Not much else other than I'm meeting with my old trainer tomorrow to discuss my goals for the next eight weeks. I need some coaching and motivation to push myself to the extreme. not to mention I have some symmetry issues to work out. i have to make sure that my dominant side doesn't start to look different than the other. I'm gonna try and put on two more pounds of muscle which isn't easy. my diet has to be perfect...too many calories and I'll get fat which will produce estrogen and not testosterone which is needed for muscle growht. not enough calories and my body will go through atrophy and not grow. my goals are to increase and widen my pecs; round out my shoulders (which will give me a wider appearance); add some height to my biceps; define my tri's; strenghten and straighten my upper back; add some muscle to my famous glutes and add definition to my perfect thighs, hams and calves.

with the greatest love in the world, MrDT

It was the best of times it was the worst of times. I just turned off Bill & Ted's excellent adventure not because it is a stupid movie but because the overwhelming feeling of nostalgia came over the top of me and bummed me right out. The first time I saw the movie I think I was in the seventh grade when all I worried about was making it to soccer practice, delivering papers/collecting, singing the national anthem before the pro-sports games began and my parents were still happy together. life was so much easier then and it was such a happier time for me. I had friends, a bike, incoming cash flow, a happy family, small acting/singing roles at Studio Arena & Shea's and not much responsibility. It seems to me that when I hit high school my life just went downhill getting further and further is this uncontrolable depressive state.

I woke up pretty sad this morning. Last night I had a dream that my friends from high school (the g-clic, much like the T-Birds, a group of about 12-15 guys) and I had gotten back together to hang out in southern florida for spring break. it was like all of us forgot about the reasons we stopped hanging out and started to have some reckless fun in the sun, the way we did after high school. it was a great time horsing around with the old gang, pushing each other around playfully; picking up/seducing girls with ease and arguing over who the man was. i guess deep down i long to get us all togehter again but it would never happen. even though some have moved away the rest of us don't talk anymore for some serious reasons. I could go into it but it would be rather lenghty and petty but I can tell you the reasons range from ratting one another out to the police over drug busts to fucking somebodies girlfriend or soon to be girlfriend.

At the end of january I stopped talking to my longtime friend who I have spent the majority of my time with over the past 12 years or so. I realizd, as most of my friends had previously stated, that he takes advantage of people and uses people for his own personal gain no matter the consequences. Well what he did was the last straw so I just stopped talking to him. he calls from time to time but i don't answer and i don't return his phone calls. although one time i did be mistake and he asked me if i was still mad and I was like yah. then he was like "thats to bad because he knows some easy girls we could have gotten with." then i was like okay bye and that was it.

i'm really tired of the way the people of the world treat one another. its like we make these phony assumptions about who people are and never really give anyone a chance. then we use these people as stepping stones to get to the land of instant gratification. well, not me and probably not some of you. actually, a lot of you are really nice people and it has been a pleasure to get to know some over the past month or so. you all are like my new friends and you couldn't have come at a better time. i've been really lonely and sad longing for the good ol' days. but i realize now that these days can be the good days to cause life is what you make it - you only get out what you put in. half the reason i went back to school was because i wanted to meet a few people that shared some of the same interests i have. but i realized the other night at opm, after one of my canisius classmates walked by me like 6 times looking in the opposite direction everytime, that most people don't give a shit and the reason they say hello in class is so they don't have to sit in silence and stare at the wall. I have to say that (e:ladycroft) and (e:theecarey) are two special people and thank you for the concern you showed by keeping me fully stocked with bottled water.

that's all I have. i still feel like shit but I think its because i haven't been to the gym in a couple of days on account of this cold I have (its better to let your body heal before you puond the crap out of it in the gym).

This was a picture of my garbage can this morning....i've cleared almost a whole box of kleenex:



its time I get my lazy ass to the gym then I have to reheat some food for cash. once again I give you all the greatest gift I can:

Love, Mrdt