The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now

Neon heart day-glow eyes
A city lit by fireflies
They're advertising in the skies
For people like us

And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground

Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

Don't look before you laugh
Look ugly in a photograph
Flash bulbs purple irises
The camera can't see

I've seen you walk unafraid
I've seen you in the clothes you made
Can you see the beauty inside of me?
What happened to the beauty I had inside of me?

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And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground

Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

Time...time...time...time...time
Won't leave me as I am
But time won't take the boy out of this man

Oh you look so beautiful tonight
Oh you look so beautiful tonight
Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

The more you know the less you feel
Some pray for others steal
Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel... luckily

---U2, City of Blinding Lights
From How to Dismatle an Atomic Bomb

Sitting here again wondering why I gave up the bottle and the pipe. it seems that those were my only connections to human kind. nobody calls me to smoke anymore.
i prefer the gym everyday, though. wouldn't have it any otherway. i think i'm past the point of needing to have a lot of friends. it doesn't seem to matter anymore. and if all else fails i'm in grad school now so i'm sure i'll meet a few people that will share my interests and not looking to hook an eight ball.

rehabbing was tough. for those of you who think smoking or drinking or snorting is okay because you're still young i think your crazy and blind to what you are doing to your body and mind. it took me over five years to kick every addiction i had aquired from my late teens and let me tell you it was ugly.

im all good now. i do worry about the effects that my troubled youth will have on me sometimes. but i can't go back and change it--- not that i would want to. i just have to go on and encourage people away from the road of excess.

well this is my first blog and let me say i think its fun sharing my thoughts with some of you. i love to crank nasty sexy dance music allnight long, workout everyday (sometimes twice), cook(professionally) and study very hard in MBA progam at Canisius. i don't drink, smoke or eat much junk food anymore but i still know how to have fun.

does anybody go to raves anymore?

love u all, MrDT ;)