So I'm watchin this movie that I ordered through Showtime on Demand and like half way through it took a shit. I hate it when this happens and now I have some video error. what the fuck, like $170 a month for cable/internet isn't enough for good service. (Sorry to bitch but this movie was just gettin good and I tried like 10 times to get it back on).

But anyway the movie, which was The Assassination of Nixon with Sean Penn, got me thinking about some of the books I have on my reference shelf. It's funny some people have dictionaries and thesauruses on their reference shelf but I have books that have helped me to become a better individual in my personal and professional life. I'm looking at books like Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Persig, Norman Peale's Power of positive thinking, Dale Carnegie's How to Stop Worrying and Start Living and the Guide to Vitality and Wellness, among others. Even though all the books are completely different they have one common theme in mind. They all come down to the fact that life begins in your mind and through the power of thought you have the ability to control your outlook on yourself and life. "I think therefore I am," the old saying may offer a different metaphysical meaning but for me it means that if I believe in myself I will achieve. It all comes down to the way I look at something. If I'm feeling negative then I participate in negative behavior that will bring upon negative consequences and vice versa with the positive. The other day I kinda felt like shit but I told myself I was gonna crush the weight at the gym and wouldn't ya know it, I had one of the best leg workouts ever. (I still can't walk after a week!!!) But it goes to show you that you have to unlock your true potential by having faith in your abilities to do well. Otherwise your mind will hold you back and prevent you from succeeding.

Believe in yourself and anything is possible. Things you aren't so good at become easier. You'll find solutions to problems that have been bugging you for years. The answers you seek are all inside of you and no one can help you find them better than yourself. Just start chipping away at it a little at a time. And when all else fails try to reframe. I've been told that I'm a natural at this but really it's not so hard. You just need to step back for a sec and look at the problem in a different way with a more positive mind set. The answers there but you won't find it all pissed off and frustrated, you just have to let it flow and let yourself go...low and slow that is the tempo

I love you all dearly and I'm here if you need me, MrDT

oh yeah, and now I'm gonna watch tonights episode of the Simpsons and go to bed.