Is it a bad thing when you come home and feel like you're on vacation? I can't figure it out. It's just so quiet and chill here, a far cry form the screaming little bitches that were my next door neighoburs in sunny L.A. I like the solitude. I just took a cat nap on my deck for no other reason than I could. It was warm. It was quiet. I was in a shaddy spot (very key for those of you that have met me and know that I would burst into a ball of flame were I to sit in the sun for more than ten minutes- AH, the joys of being Anglo-Saxon and Polish!) I do, I feel like I'm on vacation. Of course, I have a TON of thngs I need to be doing, none of which I am. I am posting because this is really the first chance that I have had. We moved in on Monday, but the computer stayed at my brother's house (aka- my old house). And I didn't really have the time to sit and write and work. That, and I have a new boss that actually like and so I'm trying to be actually productive. For works, a line from "Officespace" was going through me head, when Peter Gibbons was speaking to the Bobs- "It's not that I'm lazy. I just don't care!" And that was my problem in a nut shell. Honestly, I still really don't care, but I do care more than I did.

It's really nice here. I think I might go for a swim. Than again I really ought to unpack. Almost everything I own is still in boxes. Craziness. Ciao.

Okay, so after getting home from the phenominous E-peeps party at around quarter after three in the A.M., I woke up at around 7:30 and was out of bed by 8, which, frankly, sucks but as the moving odyssey continues, and will be over tomorrow, (Woo HOO!) I just have to put up with being constantly tired for a *wee* bit longer, than, I get a chance to return to "normalcy" prior to school beginning on the 29th. I feel like I'm just spinning and spinning and spinning, and being propelled forward but still spinning and I just want to stop and hang onto something solid, if only for a moment to catch my breath, but I suppose if I did that, I would start to dwell on everything and that, for me, is very, very bad. (On a side note, I really am the queen of long sentences. Nice to know that Somethings haven't changed!) It was so nice to meet LadyCroft and Jason and Josh! Good times, good times. Thanks to Paulnotpaul and Dimartiste, there was many a moment where I was laughing so hard I was crying. Dude, I am really frikken' tired. Off to hopefully finish book six of Harry Potter and then crawl into bed in my old room for the very last time. God, that's a depressing thought. Must look forward not back, must look forward not back. Okay. Night, all!

What does it matter anymore? kept running over and over and over again in my head. I just want to crawl into a cave and lie there until, I don't know, Jesus decends, or some other equally improbable event occurs. I can't wait to be finished with "the Move", which ought to be Monday, just so that some sort of normalcy will return, whatever that is, before I am plunged back into the depths of chaos with the beginning of full-time work and full-time graduate school, where I most likely *Will* disappear, at least from the strip. I will become a hermit, vegging out, and getting angry anytime anyone asks me to do a God- damned thing. I know this, as it tends to be my pattern. And much as I love my puppy, Ella, I'm really not a dog person. I am a cat person. I think that's about it. Oh, I might be there tomorrow. I might not, depending upon how much I get done, if I get a nap in, and what my attitude is by the time 11 o'clock rolls around. I'm going to read Harry Potter now. Maybe it will prevent the slide into depression. I certainly hope so.

Have you ever been so tired, so drained that you actually considered calling in sick just to get some much needed, much deserved, heavenly sleep? But, alas, I did not and now I'm trudging through my work day. Blast being short staffed!

For the past several days, I have been splitting my time between the old house in sunny LA and the new house in Colden, also known as "Ski Country" or "the snowiest place in WNY". It's amazing. Well, frankly, the house isn't so great. It's a white hillside ranch, modular house built in 1955, very different from the house we currently live in which was built in the 20's and definitely has, in my opinion, more character. And we have a lot of work to do. The people who lived there before us, didn't actually seem to do anything but paint and put up border paper. They were really big on border paper. What is so great is the land that the house sits on. It's just under two acres, totally surrounded by evergreen trees. In the front yard is an old Oak tree. In the back there are two maples and a crab apple and about five apple trees. I'm planning on being an apple pie baking machine this fall. We'll see, though. I do make some mean apple pies, from scratch, including the crust! But I digress... We also have a blueberry bush, blackberry bushes, elderberry bushes, and I suspect red currants and raspberry bushes. What's also awesome is the inground pool! Hallelujah for the pool! Especially in the weather we've been having. Off of the pool is a screened in gazebo. Towards the back of the property is the barn. It's not one of those dilapidated barns you see around, it's a really nice, really sturdy Amish built barn. I'd never been excited about a barn before now. I don't know what's happening to me.

It's so quiet out there, it's like a whole 'nother world. I can't wait for autumn just to see all of the leaves change colour. I am not, however looking forward to all of the snow, and the drive to work and school is not going to be quick and fun. But it's a trade off, I guess.

My new favourite activity, asides from swimming, is sitting on the back steps of the deck and watching all of the bumble bees gather pollen from the clover. It just makes me smile. And there are so many butterflies! It's just beautiful.

It's such a huge change but it's one that my parents have definitely needed for a long time. Right now, we're knee deep in paint and cleaning supplies and it seems overwhelming and yesterday I didn't get to finish what I wanted to accomplish, although I did assemble the patio furniture, but we have to keep focused on the fact that it is worth it. I think everytime we step outside, or watch a rainstorm from the sunroom, we are reminded that we absolutely made the right choice for us now.

I think the heat is making people crazy! Anyone else notice people being particularly whackey today?

So, I finally broke down and ordered Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I'm going to have to wait until next week to read it, so NO ONE SAY ANYTHING, should you read it before I do. Also, today, for those of you not in "the Know" is Sexy Underwear Day. Let your imaginations take that wherever your little heart desires. Adieu!

Yay! Today, I got to jump in our new pool, despite the rain! And it was awesome! Everything I thought it could be and more! Oh, and Happy Bastile Day everyone!

I'm tired right now and my job is making me nuts, but what else is new. Doesn't it just suck when you need to take off a day really, really bad and you can't! I can't take care of my school things that I need to, I can't take off to help my parents move, I can't take off because there is at least one person off in my bank branch until God knows when. I'm feeling the pressure, like I'm going to snap. If I didn't have a car payment and car insurance and student loans and credit card bills to pay, this week I would totally have told my boss to fuck off! Some days, what I would give to go back to being 6 years old again! I think that's about it for now. My best friend is away. I'm surviving without her. I can't wait 'til she comes home, but I hope very much that she's having a good time. Ciao.

Is there anything better than a compliment, except perhaps a compliment from a stranger? Last week, I had someone tell me that I look like Nicole Kidman. I don't, but thanks! ( I'm much too short and chubby.) And today, I had someone tell me I look like Drew Barrymore! (That one, especially when I was thinner, I would buy.) Sweet! As the rest of my day is pretty, "Eh", I'm clinging to these spontaneous moments of joy. And they are two of my favourite actresses that are still living. Sweet!

Tomorrow, my mother and I are going to be picking up the newest addition to the Szymanski family- our new puppy, Ella. She's about 8 weeks old and 20 pounds already! Isn't she just adorable!



She is our Bernese Mountain Dog. I cannot wait to see her little face! And pinch her little fat butt! (We're big on pinching chubby animal butts in my family. Don't ask!) I did not pick the name, surprisingly enough, my mother did, but as if *I* would ever object to the name Ella. So today, my mom and I went to buy last minute things like a Kong and a stuffed, squeeky cow and some treats.

I can't believe it! A puppy! We haven't had a dog in our family in like eight years. Nothing but cats in that entire time. I get the feeling we're in for a pretty big adjustment. So are our cats. YIKES! They've never seen a dog up close before, except for my little Jack, may he rest in peace, so this shall be interesting. I'm so excited! Ciao!