05/27/04 04:16 - ID#34727

Going away

I always get feeling strange whenever I go away from Buffalo. I feel like I will never come back to here again or see here again. So, I have to check every single thing in my house before going away. But, I'm not sure that it is because of this feeling or not. Well, Iâ€™m going away for NYC for couple days and get this feeling again. Of course, I already checked all my stuff in the house. I know I'm strange. Oh well, I need to go to bed right now because I have to get up by 7 am.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/18/04 03:19 - ID#34726

Robin just left for her hometown

I took her to the airport. I will miss her and her crumsy although she is going away for a week. Of course when I got in her house, she still hadn't packed anything yet. I love seeing her like that because it is very different from me. Although she is like that, she makes everything work. Me..? I'm trying to organize but I can't make everything work. That's ironic.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/11/04 09:30 - ID#34725

I'm broke

So, I was getting my coffee and some snack at the starbucks today and realized that I'm broke.
I thought it was gonna happen soon but didn't know how fast it could come.
I was suppose to go to New York with Alan tomorrow but I can't. Fuck it. I really wanted to go to see Whitney Biennial thing. I told Alan about my sistuation today and he said, he might go to New York sometime in this month again. Well, I felt so much better after hearing that.

I think I'm seriously broke but am wondering why I'm not really depressed by this happening. Well, probably I know I will get my one pay-check in the end of this month.. That's why..? Hum.. Getting spoiled.

I've been hanging out too much again. I tried to get some work done today but I had to come home because I was so hungry. Remember..? I'm broke.

It's okay. Really okay..?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/10/04 05:34 - ID#34724

I miss all my family.

I just talked to my second younger sister on the phone. She tried to help me to log on family blog website and I've been looking at all my family pictures there. I miss them so much.
Here my niece and nephew are.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/04/04 03:45 - ID#34723

for today.

I don't remember how my spring semester has gone. I just remember it was so quick and there is no more snow in Buffalo right now.

Now, I'm finally sitting in front of my computer to do something. I need to sit in here to read, to write or to think. I want to start writing something. I like writing in Korean, but I don't know how it would be okay in English.

I was out of my mind for a long time so that I couldn't have a time for myself. There should be a time for myself, but I don't know where I was.
I liked my lazy day for myself. I haven't listened to music or watched movies anything for a while. I lost myself.

I need to stop wasting myself. It was hard to hold it back. Painful emptiness was stayed in my heart for a long time. Why.. It was over long long time ago. Why I haven't realized it. I don't know.

I'm going to bed right now. That's better idea for now. Then I can start my day eariler tomorrow.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/23/04 04:45 - ID#34722

The poster for Robin

I made Robin's poster the other night.
I emailed her with this. She said, "it doesn't show my style" Yeah.. I know, so I told her that she should be the legend of video artist. Make sense..?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/22/04 02:14 - ID#34721

I'm getting frustrated to upload image

I don't know. I've been trying to upload image on Elmwoodstrip.com. But it isn't working at all.

Paul.. What's going on..?

I kind of gave up now.

Well, it is working right now.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/22/04 01:58 - ID#34720

A photo from London

My youngest sister is no longer mad at me anymore. She got mad at me because I took her bag in Korea over the Winter Break while I was in Korea.
She left one of her bags behind Korea. That one I really liked it, but she wouldn't give it to me when I was in Korea for Summer 2002. Well, I found out that she left it in Korea and I just took it. Then she found out when she went back to Korea on March. She got so mad and told me "What kind of big sister are you?" I was kind of avoiding her a little while. But the other night, we finally chatted on the messanger and she never asked me about the bag anymore. She was just happy to talk to me and suggested that we should go back to Korea at the same time. She misses me a lot. I love my youngest sister. She was always on my side whenever I had arguring with my first younger sister. I miss her a lot.

Here is the photo of her that she sent from London.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/23/04 04:31 - ID#34719

What a suprise night.

My grandmom used to say herself like "People who got old should die" when she was alive. I don't know that I traslated her words very well or not. This is a kind of Korean expression when old people make mistakes. I know Americans could think "that so bad whatever" But, Koreans are sometimes very self-conscious so that sometimes they use torturering words for themselves. So, don't misunderstand it.

Well, I felt that way last night. Sometimes I forget something easily but most time I remember everything. It was weird. I forgot my keys where I put them at the pink last night. I thought I lost them. My car was in the parking lot but there was no my car key and house keys.
I got little scared because I couldn't go home also I don't have extra house keys.
I was looking for my keys all over the pink with the security guys. But, we couldn't find them. Then, later around I remembered that I asked Arzu to put my keys in her bag because there were so much stuff on my hands and I didn't carry my bag last night. Oh well, I totally forgot about it. I think I should carry things smaller. In my porkets, there were my cell phone, cigarrets, big wallet, and stupid big key chains. I think I gotta change my key chain accessary.

Oh well, I'm happy because nothing I didn't really lose last night.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/22/04 03:08 - ID#34718

Please take a look at my journals

I posted 5 journals today.
This one should be last one.
There is one more show coming up, but I'm not excited about that.. and this is the poster for the show that I made.