I love Fredonia, obviously. But sometimes I get really sad about how disconnected I am from where I grew up and everybody who I grew up with. We're all doing different things and have grown apart in so many ways and sometimes I think, well that's just life, but sometimes it makes me really sad. And no matter what, that's how it's going to be...different. So much has changed, but we always end up where we started, and maybe that won't happen anymore. And if that's the way it is, I have to be okay with it. But I don't know if I am. I just know that right now I'm sad too.

Is there a song that has that name? No, that's Joaaaaanna. Maybe?

So here's my answer to whether or not I'm looking forward to being home this summer...I've been in a computer lab working on one worksheet for my theory class for two hours. I was asked to sing in 2 concerts this week and I got the music...this week. I have a 15 page paper to finish...and start. I have to finish a big research project that I've been planning for the whole semester, and I have a grand total of 2 paragraphs written. I recieved mail from the Commencement Committee addressed to 'Mary Jane Maloy', leading me to believe my diploma may be printed with that name...

So I think I'm ready to be finished.

And yes I will be in Buffalo this summer, yessss. I really hope I get to teach lessons for work and not have to do anything else. Cuz that would be okay money. : )

Want me to teach you to sing??????

Let me know!


MMMM CHEESE BREAD

ps everyone check out for shakespeare in the park cast lists!

Lately I feel like nothing interesting is going on in my life. That's kind of an absurd feeling because there are plenty of things in my life. But yesterday and today I felt so completely blah.

Ew my user pic looks awful on this computer, or maybe it looks awful in general. Time for a change.

My choir is supposed to go on this tour to Finland at the beginning of the summer for 19 days. As of now, we don't really know if we're going. Helloooo...a little more than a month away...the reason is because our spring tour of New York State was totally disorganized and messed up, and the same person who did that tour is supposed to do this Finland tour. But I personally would not want to spend $1000 on a plane ticket to get overseas and have nothing to do for THREE WEEKS. Sure, my trip to Great Britain two years ago was one of the best times ever, but it's because we had concerts every night and everything was planned and nice. If we have a vote on this trip, I have a feeling lots of people are going to say no. That's sad because travelling is life-changing and amazing but I don't have all that time or money to waste doing nothing.

A few of us also were planning on staying an extra week in Paris afterwards, and we have our apartment booked for the week. I still really want to go to Paris, but who knows...it kinda stinks.

The Fredonia Chamber Singers will be singing at Kenmore Middle School tomorrow at 7 pm. We are good. Honestly, it's not a boring concert, we sing fun music. So, please come. It makes me sad that it's my third year in the group and none of my friends have ever even heard us.

Wow everything is making me sad, HA! That's not good.

I am starting this crazy workout routine where every day of the week I do something different, and all of it gets the heart pumping and muscles tightening. So get ready for some sexiness this summer. By sexiness, I mean a very pale and ghostly white figure. But maybe with slightly less flab....slightly...

what a fun weekend!


p.s. does EVERYONE KNOW WHAT [size=l]TODAY[/size] IS?!?!?!


p.p.s. thanks paul for fixing my name in people's journals.


Happy Dyngus Day!

So here i am on tour in binghamton, ny. Today would have been Lauren's 21st birthday and we are in her town and sang at her church tonight. My director decided on the spur of the moment to start the concert by singing Happy Birthday to her. Well that's a super idea because I burst into tears before I got a note out! And apparently like everyone noticed too, but how could you not. Anyway it turned out to be a nice evening. It's a lot to handle though...being with her family and at her house and seeing all these pictures...it's not like I don't think about her every day anyway, but being in this situation just opened up all these old feelings.

So anyway, tour will be wrapped up in less than a week. We'll be on Long Island and have a day in the city and then I have to fly home all by myself to Buffalo! Wow crazy.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY (e:jill) : ) As usual I was touring it up, but I'm sure you made the most of things without me...haha...

Well better get to bed and stop hogging the computer of this random host family. Happy Easter everyone if you do that sort of thing.





and happy birthday lauren!...we would have had some crazy times on this very special day... miss you

Mike remember when we were mildly obsessed with travel mugs for like 2 days? How no one should ever settle for cheap travel mugs because they are pure crap and it is totally worth it for the extra quality??? Maybe we were only obsessed for a day. Or maybe just one mall trip. Anyway I hope you actually remember and I'm not crazy.

Ok what is going on? Why is that people constantly write (e:MK) and that's how it looks? I guess it should be (e:mk) because of the small letters? or maybe (e:Mk)? Or maybe I'm not really a member of this website anymore and I'm pretending to update...

Let's see if any of those work

This weekend was soooo great for so many reasons. I guess mainly because of my recital. My hair looked pretty, my mom's dress THAT SHE MADE FOR ME looked super and my voice teacher did my makeup so people could actually see my pale white face from the stage. And even though I was nervous right before going on, I think I did really well. Of course I went back and listened to stuff that I know I could have done better. But I also listen to stuff and think "...hey that sounds pretty good." Which is an understatement in comparison to what people said. Everyone really seemed to like my songs and everything and that makes me feel really great. I especially love the people who hadn't really heard me sing and their comments, such as, "ok, where was the recording in the background that you were really singing along to?" I guess people were even telling Chris later that they were sad I was leaving this year because they wanted me to give another recital sometime...what?!?!?!

So along with the recital, I had all sorts of people come visit me and it was really fun. My dad's family all came from Georgia/Alabama, and my mom's dad from Pennsylvania, and Chris's family from Albany, and of course (e:mike) and (e:jill) from the B-lo. It was so fun. The opera was entertaining and I had a lot of fun going out even if the end of the night was sort of fuzzy.

And then on Sunday I went and had dinner with my family, and then at night Chris surprised me with a box of Nerds, some cards, and a bracelet for a great recital/our one year. Although our one year is sort of sketchy, since it was such a gradual process of us getting together. We've sort of decided that there really is like a two-month span that could be considered our anniversary. Anyway so that made my night.

Overall it was such a nice couple days. I love when (e:mike) and (e:jill) come down to hang out, and we will again so we can drink out of embarassing moment shot glasses!!!!

I'll post pics sometime from the weekend. Thanks to everyone who made it one of the best weekends I can remember.

(CDs, cassettes, and DVDs will be available for purchase soon. Rated R for RAAAAAAWWWWWWRRRRRRRR...)

Ok here's the cover of my program...hopefully...I love it : )

So my recital is less than 48 hours away. In reality, a recital isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things. I'm just going to get on stage and sing in front of people which I've done dozens of times, sing songs I've been practicing for months and then go eat food, hang out, and move on with my life. It just happens to be that I'm wearing a really pretty dress with a pretty hairdo (hopefully) and I'm the only one performing and I sing for half an hour.

I'm excited about it. I'm not THAT nervous...yet. I've worked hard and practiced and done research on my songs and basically put a lot of time into this recital. I don't even get graded on it. It is just a nice mini-concert for my family and friends. There really is no pressure whatsoever, but of course I want to do well and will get worked up about it, but in the end, I know I will sound fine and no matter what, my grandparents are going to cry. And probably my mother and father and maybe even my sister. And I'm sure Mike will shed many tears. After the whooping and hollering that is always appropriate for the concert hall. Hopefully any tears shed will be years of joy and admiration and not the bad kind, like "why did i spend so much money on a plane ticket to see this crap???!!!"

: ) P.S. my programs are going to look so great provided I can find a color printer and print out a copy of the front. I tried to take a picture of the screen and show you but I don't know how to do that on these new computers, I guess. So anyway once I figured that out I will add that to this entry.

And now I am finished. Ta-da.