Can I just say it is very fun to read my journal in German. I really like German, it's my favorite language to sing in. I should learn more of it.

Everyone liked the dress we made. Except they kept saying, "this is the dress MK made", and I kept correcting everyone, because I hated to take credit for it. Really it was my mom and my sister that did most of the work. They have both made lots of things before and if it had been left up to me, well, the end results most likely would have resembled a burlap sack rather than a dress. Anyway I love weddings. And Chris's family. So the combo was great.

Summer is winding down. One week of work, Cape Cod, Fredonia. This summer has been very different from the last two or three...since high school at least. I've worked more than I have any other summer, which is okay I guess. Money is all right but I hate it anyway. I don't know. I don't mean to say that this different summer was good or bad. I guess it was kinda both. I know looking back won't be nearly as filled with the memories that summers used to bring with my friends. But I know that is my fault. And I guess I just don't know what else to say about that considering I just stared at the computer for a solid five minutes without typing.

What effect does being really tired have on most people? I'm realizing that it makes me sort of crazy and very emotional. Everything seems to bother me much more and I start crying very easily. I've had some random outbursts on the phone with Chris and later I realize they have no relevance at all, and it's just because it's very late and I'm so exhuasted. And I feel bad taking it out on him, or anyone for that matter. On Wednesday the same thing happened, only I did it in front of my family and that was weird. But they insisted I take the day off and everything, and I'm glad I did. I got to hang out with (e:mike) and hang out with my sister and stuff. What am I even so stressed about? It's freakin summer and it's not like my jobs are so demanding. Well they are boring so that doesn't help. Wow this is a really long entry. I'm sorry. I think I'm just gonna cut it off.

Ohhhhh wait, if anyone wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park one night this week, let me know!!!! I need to go at least once more before Friday, and I want everyone else to come too. So let me know cuz it would be fun.

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I sort of hate everything right now. I guess staying up till 2 or so and then waking up at 6 to drive for 4 hours kinda sucks, but why do I STILL feel exhausted? That was like…3 nights ago. I mean I know I’m generally a loser who goes to bed early, yadda yadda…but I just feel so tired and blah. And neither of my jobs are very uplifting or energizing, so I just sit and wallow in my crappy feeling. I’m hoping after work I’ll at least feel better…voice lesson, running 3 miles (or trying) and shoe shopping…of course after all these activities I’ll still be exhausted. But maybe I'll feel better. And maybe go out...we'll see, we'll see.

I decided to make my dress for Chris’s sister’s wedding. I know, who makes their own clothes…at least, nice dresses. But after trying just about every mall in the area and trying on like 30 dresses…my mom suggested looking for a pattern and doing the damn thing myself. So, here goes. Well, she will help a lot. I feel like Chris is worried that I’m not going to look as nice or something because it’s like homemade or whatever. Well, he may not be. Frankly as long as the dress fits me, that’s all I care about. I tend to have issues with that like…constantly. I guess I have a weird body. Anyway stop bitching. I picked out a cool pattern and I also can’t wait to pick out shoes. That may just be the key to dragging myself out of this crap rut. I have a friend at school who said she would rather go shoe shopping than have sex.

Yeah.

Anyone agree with that?

Starting tomorrow night, there's still time to get in your summer fill of Shakespeare. This one is pretty different from Henry IV...it's shorter and much lighter. It's supposed to be very funny and I'm sure it will be a great time. So, head out to the park!

Matt or Paul or Terry...where did you camping this weekend? If it is in Westfield, then that isn't far from Fredonia at all. It looks really nice and I'd love to get in some good camping time in the beginning of the school year, since that is about the only time when the weather is nice.

In other news, my cell phone is either in the Adirondacks or Albany, soooo if anyone wants to get in touch with me, call my house. Hopefully I will have it back in a week, maybe two...presuming that it actually is in one of those places and didn't fall out of the car or in a lake, or I drove away while it was on top of my car...who would ever do something like that...

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(e:Springfaerie), along with that top ten list (which are all great...well ok I've read half of them but they are good titles)...I really enjoy "To Kill a Mockingbird". I read it in like sophomore year and then reread it last summer. The movie is good too if you want to cheat a little. So I recommend that. I think it counts as a "Classic"...maybe? Even if it isn't that old???

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[inlink]matthew,302[/inlink]So does this mean I should start calling (e:matthew) pussycat? Hmmm...

And I think it's funny how they choose to word it...I "resemble" Sophia...no wonder people in front of the bus get up and move when I get on...

to (e:beast) and (e:mike). hope sunny (or rainy) florida treated you good.

I have just been informed that the new album is coming out in October and I am super excited. Later when I'm not in the office and won't bother people by doing so, I'll take a listen to some clips off the new album, and possibly upload something to my journal. Hooooray...

I'm also a member of the Jimmy Eat World Street team, which means I'll probably be putting up all kinds of ads and stuff over the next few months to get the word out. I think I win prizes if I do some stuff, so, nothing wrong with that. So get ready to be ultimately Jimmyed. (Jimmied?)

Today seems to be one of those days that just drags on. I guess I was here half an hour earlier than usual, but still. I've already eaten my yummy PB + J for lunch and it's only 11:30. It feels later, and I wish it was. I also feel a little sore in the glutius maximus region from riding around my mommy's bike last night. Yes, I got to ride a bike! It's very old but it still works once I filled up the tires. I like bike-riding a lot more than running...I know it's easier and less of a workout, but I don't really care. I could ride for many more miles on a bike than I could handle running them. So, maybe that makes up for it. I wish I was more of a runner, but I just can't seem to make myself be one. I was thinking of riding along the river sometime this week, anyone care to join? I don't know if I'll go the entire way...I think that's pretty long.

One of my friends who graduated this year already got a job teaching music in Williamsville. How crazy. I just may be in her shoes at this time next year. Ahhh...I mean I look forward to teaching and I'm fairly certain I will be good at it. But I know I'll feel so young, especially standing in front of middle or high schoolers. I mean I'll only be 22 if I start teaching next year. That seems so wrong. Maybe I should just stay in college for the rest of my life.

I really want a car. I considered offering to buy Chris's parents' minivan but I am thinking that might be silly. Probably takes a lot of gas. Of course it might make me feel a little older when I go to teach...but I don't know if I'm ready to be a 22-year-old soccer mom. I feel bad saying that...what a minivan stereotype. Anyway I really want a car. It's getting to the point where it's more than wanting, it'll be a necessity very soon. Guess I'll have to convince the old dad to take a trip down to some used car places this weekend.

My parents bought a record player. It's actually really fun to look at their old records and play them. They have some classics...Tapestry, Abbey Road, Gordon Lightfoot (stolen from (e:jill)'s parents maybe??), Simon + Garfunkel, Woodstock '69, James Taylor...and they still work really well.

My mom and I have both completed the Da Vinci Code, and I came downstairs to find my dad reading it as well. I'm so proud, and so glad I got to borrow it. Thanks again (e:terry), and Mike's mommy of course.