08/05/11 06:01 - ID#54861
Living in a Greek Tragedy
The thing about this library book is that I was going to return it, twice & instead of returning it, I kept renewing it, until I finally broke down & read it. On the day that it was due this final time, I ran into him at the library, which, in turn, renewed our friendship.
Now, he is rather a capricious man. I know this, have known this and had learned to accept this from him. Pretty much, I would check in, keep tabs on him, & he would surprise me from time to time. We began to get close, seriously close, to the point where I thought that we might actually start dating, but once again, things took a turn. He had been sick, feeling really, really shitty. They thought he had Mono. He pulled back. We had the whole, "I'm not ready to date right now," chat. I barely talked to him for months. I had not seen him since Christmas.
I promised him once that I would keep on texting him and calling the random phone call just so that he wouldn't forget that *someone* gave a shit about him. Finally, he called me back. He admitted that he had been avoiding me, that he was afraid to call me. And then he dropped the bomb. He's Sick, really ill, with something that could kill him.
He admitted that he was grateful for me and our friendship and that he loved me. Although, I felt suckerpunched, I can't begin to comprehend what he's been going through.
Now, afterall of this, because of THAT conversation, we've managed to, at this time, cut through the bullshit. Last night we went out on what was most definitely a Date, an actual date, not the non-date date that I was originally classifying it. It's insane. We're in a place where we admit how we feel about each other, we really, REALLY enjoy each other's company, & now, well, it's all fucked up. It's the best relationship that I don't think I can ever have. God's sense of humor, well, let's just say I find it Sorely lacking right now. :(
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Category: general bitching
06/18/11 08:35 - ID#54526
Herding Cats
I never, *NEVER* thought of myself as a type A personality and then I became the leader of my church's 20's & 30's group. It is this group that brings out more of my control freak tendencies than almost anything else that I've ever done. Yes, I am a control freak and, generally, I'm happiest just getting shit done myself because then I'll *know* that it's done and it's done as it's going to get. Even as a teacher, however, I'm getting pretty good about delegating and trusting that it's going to get done. I've been trying this whole delegating things with my church peeps and they're driving my fucking crazy!!! They say they're going to do things and then they don't!!! Either I'm just going to do everything my freaking self, which means that I probably *won't* be the leader for very long, or I'm going to turn into a raging bitch until everything gets done! I suppose I could try going for that whole Southern Sweetness but I'm not from the South and don't think I could pull it off for very long. Hmmm... Frankly, I'm at a loss. I'm just kind of sick of the disappointment, you know? I know they all have lives, but so do I and I would like a weekend where I don't have to worry about things that I shouldn't have to worry about, but am. *Sigh* And so it is... Have a lovely weekend, E-Peeps!
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05/21/11 10:17 - ID#54322
It's been a long, LOOONNNGGGG time...
Right now, I'm feeling generally disconcerted. I hate that feeling. I spent almost 9 hours at my church today, prepping and cooking for a reception that's tomorrow afternoon. A reception that I feel got dropped in my lap after I tried to get a straight answer about it over 2 weeks ago. Anyway, thanks to Diartiste, well, she and I managed to get a great deal done and whether or not the others, who are supposed to be helping me, actually help me or not, I *should* be okay. I use that word loosely. It's pretty bad when one cannot trust "friends" from church to be trustworthy and reliable...
And on top of all of this, I have lesson plans to do and materials to create.
A depression seems to be lurking... Hmmm... Is it the Gin that I'm drinking or the pressure that I'm feeling or something else all together different...? I just don't know.
I have missed you, E-strip. :) Thanks for being here!
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09/12/08 08:42 - 70ºF - ID#45654
the Great Bee Mystery of Aught-8
I woke up this morning and all of the bees that had gotten in had died. The exterminators arrived around 20 after 8 this morning. No bees, anywhere, except for the dead ones in my house. The exterminator then told about a house he went to yesterday that had called because there had been HUNDREDS of bees in the house. The owner sprayed the ones inside. The exterminator went to spray the house and there was no sign of the bees- ANYWHERE! My house is Deja Vu all over again! So beware, E- Peeps, of roaming gangs of bees! You could be next.
I'll have to ask our resident Bee expert what this means. It sounds like a Bee Scooby Doo Mystery.
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09/11/08 07:46 - 74ºF - ID#45647
Attack of Domesticity- well, baking
On the agenda for this evening 1. drink tea and eat Snickerdoodle (it is fun to say!) 2. grout tile downstairs in family room ( I laid it two days ago, it's time to grout! Fun wow.) 3. Talk to Boy
Can you stand the excitement?
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09/10/08 02:12 - 64ºF - ID#45624
A new me (sort of)
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09/08/08 10:57 - 66ºF - ID#45611
A Truly Frustrating Evening
And am I the only one who misses the halcyon days of Napster, back when it was just a "Shared Music Community" site? *Sigh* Ah, the good ol' days...
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09/03/08 11:44 - ID#45545
Flux
It wasn't gout. My father, due to his diabetic neuropathy developed a condition known as Charcot Syndrome in which the bones in your foot suddenly soften and begin to fracture and because he can't feel it, he kept walking on these fractured bones fracturing them further. Then, the foot got a blister and an infection. He has been hospitalized twice since May 31st to be put on I.V. antibiotics. Now, my father is retired and a stone's throw to being an amputee.
To help my parents, who have once again put their house in Colden up for sale, my fabulous Uncle and Aunt have offered my parents to move into their house in Colden because it has an open floor plan which is better to accomodate a wheel chair and have contracted to have a ramp built and the bathroom remodeled to make it handicap accessible.
Truly, my Uncle Stan and Aunt Jackie are possibly the best people I know- everything that they've done for me and now everything that they're doing for my parents... Although, this does mean, my parents are moving in with me and I have no idea how that's going to work...
I just wish that I had some sort of personal direction right now. With everything going on I'm trying very hard to not feel lost. In my family, we all do right now, we all feel lost. It's hard to feel like you're not drowning.
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09/02/08 10:57 - 70ºF - ID#45536
Double Feature
I'm so downloading "Rock Me Sexy Jesus" into my Ipod!!! :)
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Location: Sunny LA, NY
08/29/08 06:39 - 78ºF - ID#45505
WooHOO!!!
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Location: Sunny LA, NY
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