Today:

- today i feel like there's a future... unknown secretive.. teetering on a hinge that could go either way... 50/50

-today the demons are strong .. but i smile and stare in the mirror and scoff at them .. you wont take me today!

-today i have felt both ends of the spectrum of the force.. it is strong.. both evil and good

-today i shed a tear for the memory banks that access the past.. i just have to remind myself that that's what it is.... was... and i am much more and stronger than because of it

-today i have to realize i need to stop punishing myself... and give myself much more credit than i do...

-today i am both happy/sad

-today i have a deep yearning and want to share it

-today words a friend spoke to me a couple days ago resound with absolute clarity

-today i really should see my family.. i haven't seen them as much of late... mostly because its hurt a lot to see those you love the most and are closest to you.. odd isn't it?

-today i want to tell some things to ppl. but can't


-today music permeates my soul... just like it does everyday


-today is just another day...

..... i will see you all tommorrow

Well the title is very appropriate. Anywho who's read Aldous Huxley's 'Brave New World' knows what 'soma' is... also anywho who's seen THX1138 knows also.. or also 'Brave New World' the sci-fi cable tv made movie. A new site.. for me a little bit.. a new outlook, a different perspective, a new start. I have been i psuedo lurker here for a bit.. and I now know ((e:vycious)) and ((e:ladycroft)) and have met a few others most recently.. that I thought I might join this merry bunch.. besides i might actually be able to blog here about more personal stuff than ie; myspace in fear of corporate eyes finding such stuff.. it's soo odd how so many corporations don't want you to tell anything about your own life.. i can understand corporate sensitive info. and that is respectful but gees we humans are we not.. not automatons.. interacting in the analog and dgital world.. both virtually and non....

Anywho I wanted to say "HI" formally to fellow estrippers and I will blog more when I do get a chance... I've had a very interesting rollercoaster of highs and lows this past month.. and I will say meeting some of the estrip ppl. and other things.. have definetely been on the high end..

wuill blog more later.. shit i gotta fly off to work

Curt-Soma