I find myself very angry at a dead woman and I'm feeling kinda guilty about these feelings cause she's dead. I'm pissed at the mother of the guy who went and killed all those people, the mother who is now dead.

I think the problem comes down to her feeling entitled, she had all this money and she could buy whatever she wanted and she did. She felt powerless, so she bought weapons that gave her the power she desperately lacked but that ultimately become her own awful demise.

Of course, we had to protect her freedom, her freedom to have these weapons that she didn't need but wanted to fill her own inadequacy, her void.

She had her freedom, she tried to buy things that she couldn't, control, power, whatever it was she sought with those weapons and now here we are...

Miss my time in the dark room. These pictures got wet in an unfortunate incident.

I thought my recipe called for cognac except when I got home from liquor store I realized I was supposed to get port. Now I am sitting at home passing myself the Courvoisier.

This is what someone I went to school with recently posted on FB. No wonder I was so unhappy. Does any one know what a VPS daughter is?

TOO ALL THE LITTLE GIRLS ON FB STEP BACK TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND THINK WHO YOU BEEFING WITH....IM BETTER THAN YOU STONGER THAN YOU SMARTER THAN YOU AND I AM ALSO VPS DAUGHTER FOR REAL YOU COULD END UP MISSING....SO DONT PISS ME OFF I BEEN GOOD LATELY TRYING TO STAY THAT WAY SORRY YOUR MAN LIKES ME MY BAD I OWN A HOUSE AND LOOK BETTER THAN YOU...PLUS I GOT TWO BIKER UNCLES THAT LIVE ON YOUR STREET PLEASE LEAVE IT ALONE OR END UP INA GUTTER OKAY LAST WARNING.......

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I love Lords of Acid.

Is this Saturday. Unfortunately, I'm not going to participate because of a wedding we're going to on that day. It really sucks because I really like doing it and I didn't go to the spring cleanup either so I could see my grandparents. Maybe I'll do some work on my own on Friday.



I really don't think simply picking up trash is enough because it doesn't fix the problem. Not really sure what the answer is though.

I'm still so sad that our cottage was washed away. It turns out that my Grammy is dying too. I feel really bad that a good friend of mine won't talk to me anymore. I'm also really sad that another good friend can't find work and is risking losing everything, and I also know someone close to me that was made to go from full to part time status. Another dear friend needs to leave her home of 46 years...

There is a lot of good stuff too, but right now I am sad for the things that make people sad.

"That woman can't seem to find good "wood" anywhere."

Looks like I jumped the gun with my last journal. Turns out she had termites and her mansion wasn't up to hurricane codes either. So she is going to build something similar which I still think is incredibly wasteful but not as bad as demolishing a building just because she could. At least she let habitat for humanity take what they want.

Last week, we brought you the story of Elin Nordegren's curious-at-the-time decision to knock down a $12 million mansion. It seemed, at first glance, a rather conspicuous display of wealth -- I've got so much money I can demolish a mansion and build a new one! A divorce from Tiger Woods, it seemed, was the gift that kept on giving.

Well, turns out that there was a pretty good reason for razing the estate: termites. A report in People magazine indicated that the 1920s-era mansion fell short of current hurricane safety codes, and combined with a termite infestation, that was enough to warrant blasting it down to the sand.

Also of note: Nordegren offered a local Habitat for Humanity chapter a month to take whatever it could from the mansion before demolition. (No, don't go all, "Oh, so generous, donating termite-infested wood!" on Elin. It was a nice gesture.)

Still, as you can see from the pre-demolition photo, that was a good-lookin' little shack there, regardless of what evil lurked behind its walls:

Courtesy of Pacific Coast News

Apparently Elin thinks so too, because she's filed plans with the Palm Beach County Department of Planning, Zoning and Building that seem to indicate that the new mansion will look a whole lot like the old one. There'll be nine bedrooms, two kitchens, two Jacuzzis, a pool cabana and a three-bedroom guest house.

Tiger Woods, meanwhile, will somehow manage to suffer through his day-to-day life in his meager $50 million-plus bachelor pad.