I thought I had a cute new userpic until (e:mike) texted me saying "Your userpic kinda looks like you are doing something naughty to the rabbit."
Ok.

carolinian thinks it is a cat not a rabbit that I am blowing. Now I feel like this entire time you all have been laughing at my pic instead of thinking it was cute and mysterious. I'll change it again when I put Photoshop on the computer.

libertad

which reminds me of how a friend of mine in Cuba always used to say that he was going to fuck my rabbit. They have sex with animals there all the time and I swear, I am not joking. He was joking, but I am not joking. They love to have sex with pigs, horses and yes chickens. It is actually a fairly common conversation topic and not so taboo. The movie "Before Night Falls" never showed Reinaldo Arenas doing the nasty with beasts, but it should have.

What is going on with my posts lately? My mother could be disgusted with me for all I know.

I'm doing an experiment with image search. I wish that I could be able to see how many hits this particular journal would get as a result of my image file from a yahoo or google search. The search words are....

Cock sucking lips.




I searched yahoo for images with the phrase "cock sucking lips" and one photo appeared and my image or the one I stole from doing a search of yahoo, is far more interesting than the only photo that resulted from the search. Actually this journal really is to test if i can get to the site from searching for the name of the file under yahoo or google image search. It would be interesting to know how many people were searching for cock sucking lips and accidentally found this site though.

Update

I searched yahoo image for "cock sucking lips" the same old photo appeared not my tester. Then I searched google image and found they had 22 results for "cock sucking lips". I guess that says it. google is a better search engine. Doesn't google own yahoo or something? Maybe it will take time for my picture to appear under an image search? Or do pictures posted on estrip not register on image search?

Second Update

ok. This is annoying I just realized that the search I did had filtered results. You have to say your 18 to get to the nasty stuff. I thought I was all alone In having "cock sucking lips" now I am just one among 3,827. Those age things are so dumb. Obviously if you are searching "cock sucking lips" you are going to go ahead and say your are at least 18 to look at those "cock sucking lips".

I was telling (e:paul) last night that I want to see a hypnotist. Although I haven't smoked a cigarette in months there is something inside me that still craves smoking. I just want to shut if off. Its not that I feel that I'm going to smoke again, really it isn't an option in my mind anymore. This constant craving inside my body makes me so tense and I don't think that is any good for me either. Working out helps, but I have been so busy. Maybe thats why I'm having trouble now.

It was in the news a few weeks ago about how a lot of people who suffer strokes that smoked previously stop after the stroke. They are doing a lot of research now on this so they can figure away to just in essence flip a switch in our brains turning the cravings off. My uncle smoked very heavily for years. After seeing a hypnotist he never had a craving again and actually became physically ill upon smelling the ashtray in his car or smelling the smoke in his clothes. So even thought I feel as if I will never smoke again, I still want to turn off being addicted to cigarettes. Because I started when I was a preteen, my brain and body developed with nicotine, so it is no wonder I am still suffering from not having any.

I'm actually much happier not smoking and I can't imagine giving all that up to smoke again. If I smoke again, I'll destroy the happiness that I have created.

This has been not such a great day, but I'll try to complain as little as possible. My phone is broken because it fell out of my car while doing laundry and now I can't see anything on the screen. No I didn't purchase the insurance. My phone rang but nobody was there so it rings, but not sure if i can pick it up. I guess I have to go out again and look for a new phone. So I am off to circuit city.


Things to remember when doing laundry in Buffalo.

1) Do not leave your detergent in the car...it will freeze

2) Do not forget to put your laundry detergent back into the car when you are going to the laundry mat (What I did today).

3) Do not go do laundry on Sunday during the day. Especially Super Bowl Sunday.

4) Never get an apartment that doesn't have laundry in the facility. (maybe this is the most important)

I'm thinking that I don't like all these youtube things in my journals. I feel like they are making me look like youtube. Maybe I will delete them. I haven't decided. There is one more video that I took that I wanted to share and this one is a bit more exciting (not by much) than the three I just posted. It is me and my friend drunk and playing with her cat Slick. Oh well. It is too bad that I feel like I don't like the youtube thing because otherwise I find videos very fun even the mundane.

I never mentioned the "letter" again. A few posts back I mentioned how I wrote a letter to someone that was very blunt to the fact that I wouldn't tolerate being disrespected. It really was a good thing in my life to do this because I think some years back, I just would have allowed myself to continue to be degraded. Anyways I was so worried about how this person would react to the letter, but the reaction has been very positive. I'm so happy to have resolved the matter in a way beneficial to us both. This was definitely an important first step in my life.

My new computer is better than I imagined. My dad also hooked up my old hard drive to the new computer so I could back up my files and also have extra space. Windows XP is so much better than 2000 and that is probably the most you will ever here me say about operating systems.

Getting dangerously close to the Sqaj during the ice storm.




Hear the ravaging Sqaj.

Coco is so cute when he is sleeping.

Went to the UPS store today to ship my grandparents the picture frame. I'm ashamed to say that I spent $8.70 for a 24x26x18 cardboard box. Acutally they wanted to charge me $23 to package it with their own materials. Um no. Really I have no idea where to buy cheap boxes so I bought their box for a ridiculous price. Spent $9.20 to send the frame to zipcode 13760. Cost of frame $20. Had I already not had some packing peanuts and buble wrap (I love bubble wrap) saved up, I would have spent that much in materials. I thought gifts from the heart usually cost next to nothing, but not in this case. Next time I'll just send them the pics, they can frame them if they want.

Today I waited for the bus freezing my little behind off for almost an hour. The bus schedule is now handy in my book bag.

I ordered the following books from Amazon. Beats paying Barnes and Noble at Buffalo State almost twice as much. Last semester I went the entire semester with only a pocket dictionary. I had given away my good spanish to english dictionary to a classmate learning english in Cuba. Decided that I really do need a better one. I got both spanish to english and just a regular spanish dictionary. If you use the dictionary that doesn't give the english translation you are more likely to learn it. Also grabbed a couple of others that should help me learn some new things.
    1     "How to Read a Book (A Touchstone Book)"
Mortimer J. Adler; Paperback; $10.88


    1     "Reading Lolita in Tehran: A Memoir in Books"
Azar Nafisi; Paperback; $10.17


    1     "Larousse Unabridged Dictionary: Spanish-English / English-Spanish (Larousse Unabridged)"
Editors of Larousse; Hardcover; $38.94


    1     "Textos medievales de caballerias (Letras Hispanicas)"
Paperback; $19.95

    1     "Larousse Gran Diccionario Usual de la Lengua Espanola"
Editors of Larousse; Paperback; $16.29

    1     "Diccionario de Sinonimos, Antonimos, e Ideas Afines"
Editors of Larousse (Mexico); Paperback; $4.95

    1     "Ortografia Lengua Espanola: Reglas y Ejercicios"
Paperback; $8.95

    1     "Spanish Pronunciation: Theory and Practice"
John B. Dalbor; Paperback; $45.12

    1     "Panoramas Literarios Espana"
Beverly Mayne Kienzle; Paperback; $32.40

Book I am borrowing

Voces de Hispanoamerica


Books I still need

Don Quixote--Cervantes

Amadís de Gaula

Don Quixote--diccionario


My phonetics class was canceled again. The teacher is old and sick. We got free pens from the department chair because the teacher wasn't there again.

Being at school from 9 to 6 is way too draining. It is the three hour wait and then the hour and a half wait between classes that is the worst. By the third class I was falling asleep. Some how I gotta figure out how to stay alert for the third. Maybe I should take a nap in between? Like I mentioned before, going to the gym seems like a sure way for me to crash afterwards. I had a mocha at about 3pm because I had a free card from last semester to use for any drink I want, otherwise I drink regular coffee. Mocha isn't my favorite, but the chocolate can somewhat mask bad espresso. Maybe it was the mocha that made me crash. When I didn't drink coffee at all I had more energy, but I like it too much. What a rotten crop for the land too. If I could eat better while I was in school that would probably help, but I can't seem to manage to pack anything. I guess I could try working on that. Sorry I'm talking out loud.

So I have not heard anything regarding the letter I left someone yet. It seems I will know on Friday how the person will react. I'm so nervous because the letter was very stern in that I would not tolerate being degraded. If they decide they want to kill/stalk/terrorrize me I decided that the story would be a great lifetime movie. (e:mike) will make sure to get lifetime a script. I wonder who would play me the best? Does Justin Timberlake do any acting? It would be nice if it was someone who got their sexy back to play me. The anticipation of what could happen as the result of the letter is driving me crazy. What I know about this person is that the disrespect they have shown me is a reflection of how they feel about themselves. The situation really is quite sad. Maybe I can have a good influence on this person's life? That would be an ideal situation I suppose.

Today I did a little cat and fish sitting.



Dooku

Herby

Ligi



I also wrote a letter to someone who has continued to disrespect me. They won't be doing that any longer.



I could sleep forever now.