11/05/11 12:55 - ID#55447
Been a minute...
But, I'm back. And I have a plan.
Recently, I came as close to rock-bottom as one could get...and it weren't pretty, True Believers. I'm still kinda dealing with it, and I'll be paying for a couple of really bad decisions for a really long time.
The good news, though, is that I'm climbing back up. I'm confident that I won't be as low as I have been, and that I'll be even higher in days to come.
I plan to reveal my..plan..(ouch, that was painful) in phases. Part, the 1st has already begun: exercise. Getting back to my "fightin' shape", as it were, or, if I were to believe some comments I've gotten here (flatterers!), the Frame to match the Face. Oh yeah. Confidence in spades, baby.
Part, the second: remove distractions. An unfocused mind is an unproductive one. To wit: I've killed my FailBook account. I want to abuse it by blasting those whom I feel have wronged me, and that's an abject waste of time. Blame (read: "it's all their fault") is the polar opposite of Ownership (read: "I fcuked up"), and I'm no longer in the Business of Futility. They're clearly not worried about ME, so why should I give a squirt of piss for their gums should they suddenly find their teeth afire?
Correct. I shouldn't. So, I won't. Wow, scarily easy, hmm?
As was finding what I've missed for a while: writing. I haven't gotten encouragement about that lately, but I remebered that most people don't really care about what makes others happy. And you shouldn't be blamed for that, either. It's not your fault if you aren't on their wavelength.
It's your parents'.
I kid; I'm sure they're lovely people.
Part the third: mo' kid time! Speaking of, I'm late for a walk to the store. :)
Thanks for lis'nin' so far, folks. More to come.
Last Modified: 11/05/11 01:32
Category: random, lifestyle, culture, musings.
10/31/11 09:05 - ID#55417
Examples: I've chosen to relate to a certain person..well..not at all anymore. Hurts, but it shows I still feel, even after the divorce. Yay, me!
I'm at a soul sapping job, one that I surely didn't put on my Top Fifteen Gigs list...but, I'm working, eating and taking care of my kids, as far as the great state of Maryland is concerned.
I have family who love me, kids who tolerate me, and the respect of those who I consider peers. Some people would literally sell their diseased riddled bodies for a shadow of an inkling of that.
Trust me: I know one.
Anyway...it ain't great shakes, but it ain't nowhere as bad as it could be.
Ergo: meh. It is what it is.
But...I'm choosing to make it what it will be.
Last Modified: 10/31/11 09:05
Category: random, culture, lifestyle
10/31/11 11:57 - ID#55414
Neat Party Trick
Three li'l words will often do the trick:
I. Know. Everything.
The reactions are priceless! Try it the next time you're faced with the inevitable skeeviness that comes with people.
Last Modified: 11/05/11 01:24
Category: random, lifestyle
10/29/11 08:30 - ID#55399
Something I've Missed
Sure, they aren't nearly as good as they were "back in the day"..and I've got to cook breakfast..and do laundry..and clean the basement..and work out..and get ready to see my ex-wife about some visitation..and prepare for some snow as if it were the Genesis Deluge..
I can still watch a 'toon, or two.
Last Modified: 10/29/11 08:30
Category: random, photos
10/28/11 11:23 - ID#55396
In lieu of...
Last Modified: 10/28/11 11:23
Category: music, random
10/28/11 07:21 - ID#55394
A good day is assured!
Addendum: "The Book Of Love" by Peter Gabriel brings me to tears. Everytime.
Last Modified: 10/28/11 07:30
10/27/11 05:11 - ID#55391
Last Modified: 10/27/11 05:11
Category: random, musings, culture
10/27/11 09:22 - ID#55387
Sayin's an' such
My mom used to say that in lieu of cursing...but it's only on my mind because I watched the original "The Bad Seed" last night, and the language was so rich, the diction, perfect. It's hard to believe Americans used to talk like that.
I blame the internets.
Last Modified: 10/27/11 09:22
Category: musings, random
10/26/11 06:23 - ID#55382
The thing about public transportation is this: when it's crowded, and your feet hurt from working, and you're fed up with the unwashed masses, do you stand, or risk having someone's ass staring you impolitely in the face for 45 minutes? I mean, I'll eat ass under the right circumstances, but THESE are not them.
Last Modified: 10/26/11 06:23
10/26/11 11:58 - ID#55381
Can you dig it?
This being my first foray into the blogging world, expect these to be totally random as I attempt to find my voice. Your patience is appreciated in advance. ;-)
First up, I'm listening to "Someone Saved My Life Tonight", by Sir Elton. So topical...I have to thank an erstwhile friend for doing something I couldn't. ~.~
Last Modified: 11/05/11 01:28
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